The next time you woke up it was to a nightmare again. But you didn't want to wake up Anakin, so you tried to be quiet. It had been about the green guy torturing you and you really didn't want Anakin asking you about it. Your breathing had become heavy, your limbs were shaking, and you were sweating like a madman. You were a madman, or madwoman to be specific.

You kept on trying to calm you breathing but it was like the air wasn't getting to your lungs. You began to panic and your head was rocking back and forth. Anakin was sleeping peacefully beside you in the white chair but it was dark now and you couldn't make out everything. That just stressed you out more.

He could be hiding in the shadows, waiting for you to be vulnerable. You closed your eyes and shook your head constantly. Get out! Get out! You were hitting the side of your head and your breathing just kept on speeding up.

"Y/n?" Anakin's deep sleepy voice startled you and made you realize what a ruckus you were causing. You were frozen in place but it was better than almost hurting him, like last night.

"Go back to sleep, please. I didn't mean to wake you." Your throat hurt and the truth was you wanted him awake. He was better at comforting you than anyone else.

"No, no, no. It's fine, I'm up. I'm here for you."

He reached over and grabbed your hands which laid in your lap. He rubbed his thumb in circles on the back of your right hand. Your breathing was still fast but you felt like it would slow down.

"It's okay, I'm here now. They can't hurt you."

His words were calming you by a fraction at a time. But your breathing was still pounding.

"Just listen to my voice, feel my hands." His voice was soft and sleepy. His hands felt like two different temperatures and that's when you remembered what happened when you were kidnapped.

Your rolled up his right sleeve to see a black metal arm. It had gold details and he looked ashamed of it. He almost went as far as pulling his hand back. But you were fascinated by it, you bent his fingers and smiled at the way it moved so freely. You twisted it around to see every aspect of it as Anakin laughed at you.

"What?" You asked in between slow breaths.

"Nothing, your just cute when you're intrigued."

You smiled, he called you cute.

"Thank you."

You weren't sure he would know that you were thanking him for helping you. But he seemed to get it.

"No problem, angel."

You laid back down still holding one of his hands. You laid on your side and it didn't hurt, there was pain killers in your IV as well as a drug to help your recovery process. You cuddled his human hand as your eyes drifted shut.

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"Y/n?"

You got tangled up in your blanket as you tried to jump up. So, your body ended up falling back over like a bag of rice. There was a hand lying next to you and you grabbed it tightly.

"Y/n! I'm sorry, I didn't mean to startle you. It was stupid to wake you up like that, I'm really sorry."

Anakin ranted as you opened your eyes. You looked at him in his panicked state and smiled. It was alright, he shouldn't have to be sorry.

It's okay, I'm fine now.

He just sighed and squeezed your hand. You scrunched your face as you began to wake up. Anakin had woken you up from another nightmare and you were thankful that it wasn't as bad as the last time. You held Anakin's hand with one of yours and sat up. You wiggled your toes and surprisingly you felt almost fine. Your ribs didn't hurt, and your legs and arms didn't hurt. The only thing was that you were a bit sore in places.

"I think Padme's coming to visit you, today."

She is?

You beamed as you messed with your hair, which was again a mess.

"Yeah, she said that she would try and come today once we told her you were back. She also said that she was sorry she couldn't come last night because work was crazy. But we said it was fine since you were sleeping anyway."

You just nodded, as your throat was the only thing that still hurt. Anakin got up and folded his blanket, setting it on another chair. You braided your hair the same simple way that you had last time. It hurt your scalp from all of the tangles, but you could deal.

"Oh and I think Obi-Wan will be with her as well."

Did you talk to them this morning?

"No, Padme told Obi-Wan when she was coming yesterday. I'm not sure if Obi-Wan is actually coming though, it's just a guess."

Okay.

"Does your throat hurt?"

Anakin sat back down in the seat next to you. He was still wearing the black leather tunic he had been wearing yesterday as he ran his hand through his hair.

Yeah, it would probably be better not to talk that much.

"Do you want some water?"

Sure.

Anakin stood back up and walked out of the door. That was quick. You pulled your knees towards your chest and waited. You really did want to see Padme but you didn't want her to see you like this. You stood up out of the bed and walked with your IV. The baggy tan clothing you were wearing dragged on the ground. Parts of it had been cut so the droids could work on you.

You walked towards a small door which you assumed led to a bathroom. You opened the door and turned on the light. You were correct. Even though you were afraid of what you might see, you looked into the mirror.

The other person you could only call yourself looked back. She was skinnier, bonier and her face was thinner. But she still looked somewhat like you. You opened a cabinet and there was a hairbrush inside. Score! You grabbed the brush and took your hair out.

Even though it hurt, you brushed through it until it was almost soft again. You put your hair into a ponytail and walked back out, even though it was tempting to take a shower. You knew Padme would most likely be here soon, and you didn't want to miss her.

You sat back in the bed, proud of yourself for looking in the mirror. Once you were curled back up, Anakin walked on the door. He was holding a large tray of food with multiple cups of water.

"I didn't know what you would want to eat, so I brought everything."

You grinned as he walked closer. You could see all sorts of food from the Jedi Temple there. Bread, a type of yogurt, Nausage, and soup were just a few of the things he had gotten. Plus at least four cups of water. You grabbed a cup of water when he sat the tray down on the side table. You downed the water in a few sips and grabbed another one.

"You could've asked for water if you were that thirsty." Anakin chuckled.

You nodded and grabbed another cup. Anakin had eaten a few things of Nausage and bread while you drank all the water. You grabbed some bread as he talked about what he did while you were gone.

"The first mission I went on was with Obi-Wan and we were defending this one base from the separatists. We were there for a few days before coming back. Then we went to another base on the outer rim and did the same. The last one we went on before we picked you up was close to where you were. It was on the outer rim again and it was boring."

You nodded as you took another bite of bread. That's when there was a knock on the door. Anakin looked at you before responding.

"Come in."

Padme opened the door and you beamed at her. You hopped out of the bed on the side with your IV and threw yourself at her. She was surprised at first, but then she wrapped her arms around you. Your IV tugged begin you and your entire body hurt but you didn't care. Your muscles felt weird and tight along with the pain that stabbed at your shoulder and back. That's new.

"I missed you." You whispered in her shoulder.

"I missed you too."

She pulled back and looked over your body. You could see her smile and her warm expressions. She was like a sister to you and you had thought about her a lot.

"I'm sorry I couldn't visit you last night, I wasn't home until very late at night. I didn't want to wake you since you were probably asleep."

"It's alright, I'm glad you're here now."

"I am too."

You sat back on the bed and moved your IV next to you. Padme sat down in another chair next to Anakin.

"So, how's work?" You asked Padme, curling up your legs.

"It was good up until about two weeks ago. This terrorist group is treating rulers in the republic system. They have been saying they need information on someone, but they won't tell the senators who. They've only told the people they know to have information on them."

"Oh, that's chaotic. What is the group?"

"A Mandalorian group called Death Watch." Those words made your breath hitch, "They hate the Jedi especially, that's why they won't tell us anything. No offense."

"None taken," Anakin responded while staring at you.

You don't know how you missed it before. It must've been the shock of the whole situation. But Bo-Katan was a part of Death Watch and she was supposedly your sister. But they hated the Jedi, they wouldn't save you if they knew. Then there comes another question.

How are you force-sensitive if they're not? If a child has a strong connection to the force a parent must have the same. But you don't even know your parents and you couldn't feel a signature from Bo. You've heard stories of people being strong and not having the parents for it but it was incredibly rare. Anakin is the only one of those people who is still alive.

"Do they have blue and white Mandalorian armor?"

"I believe so, I've only seen a hologram of one person. The senators think it was a male leader."

If this was your family, they were confusing.

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It was getting late after spending so much time talking. The subject had reverted to a more pleasant topic and Obi-Wan appeared. Eventually, Padme and Obi-Wan had decided that they were going to leave. They asked Anakin where he was going to sleep and he tried to come up with an answer. But everyone knew what he was going to do so they just left.

Another topic that had come up was that Anakin wasn't a padawan like you anymore. He had become a master once he recovered from losing his hand. Now he settled into the chair beside you with the blanket he had used the night before. He looked cozy and so were you.

You were healing quickly and soon you'd be able to get out of here. But all you could think about tonight was your 'family'. If that's even what they were. Of course, you could ask Obi-Wan about Satine but you didn't know how that would end. You decided to put that in the back of your mind and think about it later.

"So, technically you're Master Skywalker now?"

"Yeah."

"Why didn't you tell me? Now it would be disrespectful to call you anything but that." You were still only 17.

Anakin chuckled at you and kissed your forehead after you had laid down. If you joked you would forget about your family, right? A medical droid came in and messed it your IV.

"Good night, little padawan."

"Rude, but good night."

The medical droid left and the door closed behind him. You fell asleep to Anakin's chuckles while holding his hand. He was the only family you needed.

You woke up in the middle of the night due to a nightmare. But this time you didn't jump, your eyes just slammed open. You took heavy breaths as your squeezed Anakin's hand. The thing was this nightmare was different. It wasn't about the torture you had gone through, but the thought of not being saved. That you were still there and you would wake up from this dream or not wake up at all.

You watched how hard you held Anakin's hand, not wanting to wake him. But you couldn't let go so you just laid and held on for dear life. You looked at him, sleeping peacefully in the dark. You wondered if he still had nightmares or if he had them when you were gone. You reached out a hand towards him and felt his mind in the force.

You could feel the light within his mind. There wasn't a nightmare in sight, not a vision. You could feel his friends, his family, and everyone he was close to. You were there, you could feel it and it sparked something within you. Now you were calming down knowing that Anakin really did love you. Falling asleep was much easier than it had been.

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When you woke up in the morning, it was to Anakin's soft whispers.

"Y/n?"

You opened your eyes and looked up at him, he was sitting on the side of your bed. He wore different clothes and looked worried. Rubbing your eye, you sat up and looked at him.

"What's wrong?" You managed before yawning.

"I- Well, Obi-Wan and I have a mission."

"What? Where?"

"On a planet only a couple of parsecs away."

"Then take me with you." Anakin looked taken back and confused. "I'll be fine, I'm almost healed anyway."

"Externally you are, but internally?"

"There was only a little internal bleeding! It wasn't even that bad."

"No, I mean your nightmares. You still need time to heal your mind."

You sighed and sank back, there was no way he was going to let you go. No one would, the medical droids would try and stop you too. Not to mention Obi-Wan.

"Listen Y/n, I do want you to come with me on every mission I go on. But you can't, not yet at least. The council hasn't cleared you for missions yet."

"I know, I'll just have to wait."

"I'm sorry," Anakin muttered while turning away.

"It's not your fault, Ani. You don't have to be sorry."

He looked at you again and you put your hand on the side of his face. He held it there and kissed it closing his eyes in comfort.

"I would ask not to go if it wasn't a sith."

"Which one?"

Please not Darth Maul, please not Darth Maul.

"We don't know much about them. The Jedi haven't encountered her before."

"Oh, okay."

Anakin leaned towards you and placed his forehead on yours. You closed your eyes and savored this moment. He pushed your chin up and connected your lips softly. For only a few seconds you were elated before he pulled away and stood up.

"I'll see you soon." He kissed your hand and walked to the door.

"Don't die, please."

"I wouldn't dare."

And he was gone.

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You lay in your bed for at least an hour after Anakin had left. Your knees were curled up to your chest and they weren't as sore as they had been. You played with your hair as you thought about Anakin's mission. A new sith, one they haven't encountered yet. Your eyes shot from your knees as there was a knock on the door.

"Come in!"

The door opened and your master stood there with a small grin. She was never one to show a lot of emotion so this was wonderful. You jumped up and sprinted towards her. She was pushed back by your impact but then she hugged you back. Your head was right under her chin and she just held you there.

She pulled back and looked over your features. "I'm sorry, Y/n. I never should have said those things when I knew they were personal to you. I should've kept my mouth shut and let you-"

"Master, it wasn't your fault. If it was anyone's it was mine. I let my emotions get in the way and I thought that you were mad at me. But I don't anymore because I can see that you didn't want to hurt me." Her smile grew and you continued, "I would've come to you earlier, I was planning on seeing you once we got back after Geonosis. But there was a little misunderstanding."

Master Kio chuckled at how you referred to your kidnapping.

"Are you feeling better? I have been talking to Obi-Wan because I didn't know if you wanted to see me."

It felt like you had been stabbed in the chest.

"I'll always want to see you, Master. And yes, I'm feeling much better."

"Good."

She let go of your arms and you walked over to the bed. Master Kio sat down in a chair while you curled up in the blanket.

"Do you know anything about the new sith?"

"I only know a little bit, but turns out she's not so new. Her name is Darth Novu and she has been an apprentice of Asajj Ventress. As well as one for Darth Maul and Dooku. We think she would be around 30 years old and this isn't the first time she has done something like this. But we've never been able to catch her."

"Like what?"

"Anakin didn't tell you?"

"No, he had to leave quickly."

"Well, she's placed bombs around a rulers castle on Alderaan. She's asking for a ransom to get the queen out of there."

"Oh, is it just Obi-Wan and Anakin going?"

"Yes, the council didn't want to send more in case Darth Novu thought they would attack. They didn't want to take the chance that she blew up the castle because she thought they broke the deal."

"Smart... Is she planning on hurting them?"

"We don't know, Y/n."

A medical droid came in the door and played with your IV. Master Kio seemed reminded of how hurt you had been.

"I can take this out now if you would like."

You were startled by the droid's voice and it took you a second to register what he said.

"Yes please."

You smiled at your Master who just smirked back.

"I'll get you a change of clothes."

Your master walked out of the room and the droid put a bandage e over where your IV had been. You turned to where your master had been sitting, expecting to find Anakin. You almost explained how happy you were, but he wasn't there.

The droid walked out and you sat up. You stretched your arms, which were only a little sore. The pain in your shoulder and back had died down. Standing up, you walked around glad to be rid of your IV.

Master Kio walked in with some of your robes. You beamed at the items she had chosen out from your room. You hadn't been back there in over a month. You took the clothes and looked through the familiar items.

"Come find me after your shower, alright?"

"Alright!"

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The scent of the familiar soap filled your nose as you stepped out of the shower. You dried off and began to put your clothes on. You didn't turn toward the mirror because you didn't want to see your scars. After you were clothed, you used the force to dry your hair. Once it was dry, you braided it around your head and let your padawan braid fall over your shoulder.

You walked out of the bathroom and the hospital room. You could see the light blue sky through the windows on the white wall. Since you were on the hospital floor, everything would be white. In your beige tunic and white pants, you waltzed up the stairs to the main floors of the temple.

Kit Fisto walked with Plo Koon like he almost always did in the afternoon. You smiled and walked over to them, nostalgia filling your lungs.

"Hello, Masters."

"Y/n?" They both exclaimed at the same time.

"You're out of the infirmary?" Master Fitso asked.

"Yeah, I just got out this morning."

"It's good to have you back, kiddo." Plo put a hand on your shoulder and nodded.

You bowed your head and they walked off. From the common room, you walked up some more stairs to get to the bedrooms. After traveling down a couple of hallways you got to yours. You opened the door that you never locked and stepped inside.

Almost everything was how you left it except for your bed and your helmet. The blankets weren't in their place and there was an indent from someone sitting. You decided to ignore it and continue. Your helmet from Bo sat on top of your dresser, Anakin must've brought it in from the ship. In better light you could see the dark blue background and the white details on the front.