~Anakin's POV~

"Do you want to go swimming?" Padme asked.

"Sure!" Y/n responded cheerfully, she was a life saver. I admired her (y/h/c) hair and little pink dress. She always looked stunning, even in robes. It was like she was an angel, always being amazing. Even though I couldn't see them, her (y/e/c) eyes were burned in my brain. She did that to me, especially when she looked up at me, flustered.

I noticed something though, a bandage on her calf. How had I not noticed before, it was an obvious bright white. But Padme had walked inside and y/n had turned around. I smiled at her, thankful for what had happened earlier.

"Thanks for saving us." I just wanted her to know how much she meant to me. But I had already told her I loved her and kissed her so much my lips hurt. She said she loved me but she didn't want to, I needed her to want to.

"No problem." She smiled so big her cheeks, oh her cheeks, lifted up to her eyes. I smiled back, I loved her so much, why couldn't she see that. We didn't need the stupid jedi code, we could be happy together.

I stepped towards her, hoping to show her how much I really loved her, again. But when I got close she stepped back. My smile fell and hers changed to an empathetic one.

"We can't do this anymore Anakin. It was just one kiss." She turned on her heel and walked away.

Just one kiss! That was more than just a kiss! I know it and so does she!

I could never be mad at Y/n, even though she hurt me in ways hard to imagine. I wonder if this is what she felt like when I left. If she was angry at me for almost four years. It would've sucked. She went inside and I could sense that she talked to Padme. I didn't know what about, but I decided to give them a minute. Leaning over the edge of the deck, I saw all the sand. There was so much sand, and I would have to go be in it.

I walked inside and changed into some shorts, that I didn't care if they got wet. And a shirt that I could take off easily, plus a robe in case I was cold. The shorts and shirt were tan, but different shades. The robe was black. When I walked back out, Padme and Y/n were talking and smiling. She looked so happy, I wish I could make her that happy.

Y/n sensed me and turned, she smiled and waved for me to come closer. She was wearing a light blue swimsuit, with a bow on the middle top. Her cheeks were flushed, and I wonder what Padme must've said. Then I realized Padme had a bag with some towels and other stuff in it.

"Do you want me to carry that?" I asked Padme, wondering if she had anything else in there.

"Oh, yes, thank you." She smiled, she had a wonderful smile. But I didn't always notice when Y/n was right there. Y/n made me insane and if she didn't want to love me I don't know what I would do with myself.

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~Y/n's POV~

It wasn't just a kiss. It wasn't just a kiss.

Your previous words were haunting you brain and now they wanted to tell Anakin exactly what you were feeling. Fortunately, you had put your mind barriers up again and you couldn't feel Anakin trying to get in. You walked over to Padme and she was standing at the island, putting stuff in a bag.

"Hi, Padme!" You tried hard to be cheerful, hopefully Padme could put you in a good mood.

"Oh, hello Y/n!" She looked away from the bag for a second, then looked back. You sat down on a stool by her.

"How has your morning been?" You we're hoping she had a lovely morning, with no trouble whatsoever.

"Very well, yours?"

"It was nice." It was before you hurt Anakin.

"That's good, how are things with Anakin?" She turned towards you now, putting the bag on her shoulder. She smirked her cheeky smirk.

"Good." You answered a little to quick, to which you mentally hit yourself.

"Are you two a thing?" She knew it was forbidden, but she acted as though it wasn't. Your eyes grew large again and your cheeks flushed.

"So?"

"No, oh no, no. We're just friends, good friends." That was a lie, you really did like him.

"Oh, ok." She walked over towards the door, you followed. "I could've sworn there was something else going on there."

"Nope!" Anakin walked in and you waved him over, hoping to be out of this conversation. You smiled though, you didn't want him to think you needed saving.

When he walked over, regret stabbed at your heart. You knew you shouldn't have said what you did earlier, but he would hurt you, just like the rest of them. You'd be broken and he would move on, like everyone else. Plus, you have been telling yourself to focus on the mission since you got it, and this wouldn't help.

Anakin grabbed the basket from Padme, after they exchanged some words you didn't listen to. You were still smiling, even though it hurt because you could feel Anakin. His pain, his struggling to not show it.

"Are you both ready to go?" Padme asked after talking with Anakin for a bit.

"Yeah."

You should've been more cheerful, now they will know something is up.

The voice was right, but Padme just smiled and turned away. Today was going to be exciting, 1.) because what already happened and 2.) you didn't know how to swim. No one had ever tried to teach you, they just expected you to know. You had never even been in water past your waist, where you could stand up.

Padme and Anakin had already walked out the door, so you skipped to keep up. Anakin had longer legs since he was taller but you and Padme were about the same height. You both were only up to his chest, so there was a dramatic height difference.

That didn't stop him from kissing you.

I mean, yeah, it didn't. Anakin looked back at you to make sure you were keeping up. Padme and him were just off the deck and you were at the top of the stairs. You could see the pain in his eyes, his eyes were the reason you chose this swimsuit from Padme. She offered you three and you loved that this bikini was the color of his sky blue eyes.

You galloped down the stair and when you were almost next to him, he smiled and turned away. You had really messed up, he wasn't getting over you, even though Padme was right there. For force sake, he could have any woman in the galaxy. And yet he wasn't relived when you told him to find someone else. You had to do something, maybe he wouldn't hurt you if you let him close.

He will always hurt you, or you will hurt him.

But maybe the voice wasn't right. Maybe you could be happy with him. But how, the lies and the secrets would be your demise.

If you let them be.

The voice is right this time, if you only need him then you won't ever have to lie to anyone. You actually smiled for the first time since this morning. Anakin felt your change in emotion and looked back, you were still a couple feet behind. You looked into his eyes and smiled, he gazed at your entire face and you saw the corners of his lips tug upwards. But then he turned around.

You had to tell him you could do this, that it wasn't just a kiss. Padme even thought you were together, if Padmes ok with it you can be too. But what if your master finds out, or Obi-Wan, they'll be happy for you right? Screw it. You had to tell him.

Anakin?

He didn't respond for a second and you were about to repeat his name.

Yeah?

His voice still sounded pained and your nerves we're pilling up.

I'm sorry.

It's ok.

It wasn't okay, he wasn't ok after what you did. You could hear it in his voice and the way he wouldn't face you.

It's not, I shouldn't have lied. I just didn't want to get hurt. But I realize now that, you won't hurt me, in fact you'll probably protect me from hurt.

I would protect you from anything, Y/n.

You smiled to this, he still had feelings for you.

I hope you can forgive me

You were still a bit on edge about opening up, but when you felt his change in emotion. You knew it was worth it, he wouldn't hurt you, he wouldn't dare. You could be safe with him.

I love you, Y/n, I will always forgive you.

With that you felt him disconnect from the 'force chat' as you used to call it as a youngling. You were still smiling, bigger than you had in a while. Anakin turned around every once in a while and he was smiling too. But you were almost to the beach, so you would have to hide your feelings.

You're pretty sure you can see where Padme wants to go. There is this little spot of sand with a large tree that provides shade. As you got closer you realized that the spot of sand was huge and the tree was humongous. Padme walked up to the tree and simply asked,

"Do you like it?"

"Yeah, it's wonderful." You weren't entirely talking about the spot. But now you were close to Anakin, behind him and a little to his right. He reached for your hand and you let him since Padme wasn't looking. He squeezed you hand twice, his robe tickling your fingertips.

"Thanks." He whispered.

"For what?" You hadn't done anything deserving thanks.

"For changing your mind." He smiled and looked away. You would've hugged him, if Padme wasn't able to whip around at a seconds notice. His words made your heart almost shatter, since this didn't deserve thanks. You just squeezed his hand, and then walked off towards Padme.

He followed behind you, about two steps back. When you got to Padme she had her feet in the water and smiled at you. Anakin had stopped in the grass, not even touching the sand. None of you had shoes on so his feet would be covered in sand, like yours and Padmes were.

"Do you want to go in?" She smiled, you couldn't say no. But how far out would she go, would you have to tell her you couldn't swim?

"Yeah, of course!" Your people pleasing got the best of you.

She walked in ahead of you, and you watched Anakin stare at the sand. You chuckled before running off after Padme. The underwater sand felt good on your feet, soft and squishy. But the water was now up to your thighs. Goosebumps popped up all over and you were trying to keep your teeth from chattering.

Padme kept on adventuring out and you followed. Once the water was almost at the top part of your suits, she stopped. It scared you a bit since if you went under, it would be hard to get back up. Padme splashed some water at you, and you gasped.

"What was that for?!" You asked in a faked aggressive voice. You could barely hold in your laugh.

"Nothing!" Padme didn't try to hold her laugh. She kept on hitting you with water and you decided to fight back. You heard Anakin chuckle since he wasn't that far away. You walked deeper into the water to escape Padmes hits. She backed the other way, to avoid yours. That's when you tried to step backwards and there was nothing there.

Splash!

You had stepped over an edge and only just gasped before you went under. You could hear the splashes around you but you didn't dare open your eyes. Your heart rate increased dramatically as you were running out of air. You kept trying to go up but you couldn't, there wasn't ground close enough underneath you. And your arms kept failing to help you.

Then you were snatched out of the water by a pair of arms. Whoever it was, held you in front of them and you wrapped your legs around them. Nothing made sense right now, nothing except that it was Anakin who saved you. You were still couching up water and your throat burned from the salt.

"It's ok, you're ok now. You're safe." You heard Anakin's voice whisper into your ear.

You must've been coughing over his shoulder because you could feel his arms wrapped around you, holding you up. Once you felt like all the water was out of your lungs, you started to breathe shaky breaths. You were holding tightly onto Anakin off of reflex, and you didn't even know you were doing it. Until you felt his arms wrap tighter around you.

"I thought I was going to lose you."

~Anakin POV~

I heard a splash, louder than the past ones so I looked over. Padme was standing closer to me, staring at where the splash had come from, where Y/n must've fell.

"Y/n!" Padme yelled as she tried to run through the water, but I was already halfway there. I had thrown off my robe and shirt in a flash and started sprinting without even thinking. When I finally got to the splash sight, I fell under water too.

I opened my eyes and saw her struggling for air, she was in deep. Deeper than I could've thought from my previous position. The waves were fighting at her body, roughly throwing it back and forth. I scooped her up in my arms and swam upward. Her legs wrapped around me and her head was over my shoulder. I supported her legs and her head as she started to cough out water. Her hair was plastered to the sides of her face, but most of it was still in a ponytail at the crook of her neck.

"It's ok, you're ok now. You're safe." I whispered into her ear, hoping to calm her. It wasn't working. When she didn't have any water left, her arms and legs tightened around me. It sent butterfly's to my stomach, but I had to ignore them. She buried her forehead in my neck while gulping in air.

"I thought I was going to lose you." I muttered, more to myself then to her.

I'm sorry

She thought this directly to me, and it broke my heart.

No, no, no. It's ok, I'm just glad your safe.

I realized her body was shaking aggressively and I knew I should get her out of the water. I noticed Padme standing next to me, I was almost mad that she didn't tell Y/n about that dip. But I continued to walk out of the water, carrying a frozen Y/n. She squeezed me even harder as we walked out of the water, since it was even colder for her out here. Her head tucked itself over my shoulder and I felt water drip from her face and hair. I set her down in the sand, to which she finally opened her eyes. They were red and puffy, she had been crying.

I grabbed my black robe and threw it over her shoulders. She adorably cuddled into it and the looked up at me.

"Thank you." She muttered out, voice hoarse and small. Then she looked back down, still shivering. After a few minutes, her shivering died down into shakes every once in a while. I brought her a towel to put on her legs and Padme walked out of the water.

"Is she alright?" Padme whispered when I was over by the bag, which was in the grass.

"I think she will be." I responded, looking back over to her. She was staring at the hot sand breathing heavily. My robe was over her shoulders and wrapped around her torso, while a blue towel rested on her legs. She looked so scared, it broke me. I just wanted to help her, to make her happy again.

Padme sat down on a towel, under the large oak tree. I sat down next to her, wanting to give Y/n space. But as soon as I touched the ground, Y/n was trying to stand up. Her legs were wobbly as she pushed herself off the ground. I rushed over to her supporting her arms until she was stable. Then she pulled her arms away and tried to take off my robe. I grabbed her arms again,

"Keep it." I told her softly, knowing she needed it more than I ever would. She just looked at me with her soft (y/e/c) eyes, asking are you sure? I nodded, and she relaxed. I still was holding onto her arms, truthfully I never wanted to let go. Still, we continued to stare into each other's eyes.

Are you alright?

What?

Why would she ask me that, she literally just had a near-death experience.

Because I've put you through a lot in the past few days.

Oh, well, yeah I'm fine, now that you're fine.

Good.

She smiled, an actual yet small smile. I couldn't ask for anything else as I gleamed back at her. Padme had apparently walked up next to us as she cleared her throat. Y/n jumped back a bit, out of my arms, I already missed her. I, on the other hand, just smiled at Padme.

"Hey Padme." I nodded my head, very informally. But Padme cleared her throat, which isn't formal either.

"Hello." She had raised eyebrows like she wasn't even the slightest bit surprised. Even after what just happened. Y/n's eyes had brown and her cheeks were like red roses, plus her lips were slip just the slightest bit. As if she had gasped, which I hadn't heard, but wouldn't be surprised.

"Are you two ready to go back?" She asked quietly, looking between Y/n and I. Y/n just nodded and wrapped herself back up in my robe. I smirked and walked over to pick up my towel from the grass. Padme had hers, so the bag was much lighter, with mine wrapped around my shorts. It was only holding my shirt and an extra towel.

Padme led the way and I stayed back with Y/n, she still wasn't entirely stable. Her legs shook when she walked and her hands were vibrating while holding my robe. Every once in a while she would move her hair from her face, but it always fell back. When we got to the lake house, Padme decided to stay outside, so Y/n and I went inside. I walked her to her room where I stopped at the door.

She looked back at me, confused and I just said, "I- I should leave."

"Stay," Her voice stunned me, it was still hoarse and rough, "Please."

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Hey guys! Welcome back! This is really off topic but I'm think that Y/n's birthday is in September. Because Anakin's, I'm guessing, is around February. This makes sense in the reasoning of the story, I promise. But just in case ur into zodiacs, Anakin acts more like a Scorpio or Aries and Y/n is like a Libra or Gemini.

Good night, ladies. Good night, sweet ladies and sweet gentlemen. Good night, good night. ~E