"I'm gonna love you, like I'm gonna lose you. I'm gonna hold you, like we're saying goodbye. Wherever we're standing, I won't take you for granted. Cause we'll never know when we'll run out of time."—Jasmine Thompson.

••

"Harmony Skye, I am talking to you."

My mother made the remainder of my weekend a living hell. I know it must have been pretty traumatic for her to have walked right in on her daughter grinding on the son of the man whom she 'loves,' but tormenting me is not fair when Blaze and I found each other first.

Now, we are parked at the entrance of Homewood and she's lecturing me, warning me to stay away from Blaze or she'll ensure I stop boarding at the college for the time I have left.

She's cruel, and I had no idea my own mother could be this mean.

"If I see you even conversing with the boy, then that's where you will pack your bag and leave that school right away, you hear me?"

I look out the window, swallowing hard and wishing I could escape somewhere. Far away from here. Where it is just Blaze and me.

"Harmony answer me, do not ignore me child!"

God.

"I heard you." I murmur.

"Cat got your tongue now, huh? I bet when that boy was whispering indecency in your ear, your response was loud and clear!"

I resist the urge to roll my eyes and let out a soft sigh instead. She confiscated my cellphone and laptop the entire weekend. Not caring if I had homework or anything. I even heard her answer my cellphone once from downstairs, telling someone that they mustn't call back.

I knew it was Blaze.

"I will disown you if you fail to follow my instructions and then we will see who pays your tuition."

Again with the tuition thing.

This time, I don't repel the need to roll my eyes, and she gasps at this, glaring at me angrily. "Harmony Skye do not roll your eyes at me, young lady!" She barks, and a few kids passing by turn their heads outside my window.

I shrink in my seat, pulling my hoodie over my head in embarasment. I think she has done enough humiliating me for the weekend; she even slapped me right in front of Blaze.

"You think because you have gotten a taste of sex that you're all grown up? If that's the case then go pay for your own tuition!"

I sigh. She has been saying this all weekend, and it's even more painful each time she rubs in the fact that she holds my life in her palm.

I am frustrated, hurt, embarrassed and heartbroken, so I just allow her the privilege of carrying on with her verbally abusive behavior.

"You are a disgrace! And to think I boasted about you to my friends! Now look at that, you were on top of a boy like an erotic dancer!"

She carries on for about thirty minutes, stating how irritated she is with me and how much of a disgrace I am. When she's finally done with her venting, I open the door and get out the car. I don't offer her a farewell and she doesn't either as she steps on her gas and speeds away down the street. She's acting like a crazy woman over a man.

I tuck my hands in my coat as I notice a few kids gazing at me. They must have heard her because she was screaming at the top of her lungs.

I hang my head in humiliation, hiding my face behind the thick curtain of my hoodie when a hand grabs onto my elbow.

I turn my face to see Blaze. He's wearing a sweater himself, and he smells like strawberries. The morning is windy, so his black hair is dancing around on his head.

The sky is spotted with nimbos clouds, indicating that we may get rain, and I can't help realizing how similar the weather is to my mood this morning.

Blaze sighs with comforting eyes. "You okay?"

I nod. I was strong until now. Seeing him reminds me that I will have to transfer to a different college soon and I won't see him anymore. The thought of it is so painful.

I reach a hand up to wipe my eyes. "I am okay..."

"You aren't, babe. Come here." He pulls me into his embrace, and I lay my head against his chest, inhaling his gentle scent.

"Did she slap you again?"

I shake my head against him. "No..." I sniff. "But I wish she did instead. She said some really painful stuff..."

"It's okay." He kisses my head. "Do you want to come to my dorm? We can talk and I will try to cheer you up."

I bring my eyes up to him "We have English..."

"Yeah, but how will you learn if you're like this?"

I smile a little. "I get the feeling you found the perfect excuse to skip class this morning."

He chuckles. "Well, if I wasn't being granted this opportunity at the expense of your heartbroken tears then I would be happy. But I hate to see you cry."

I smile, a genuine one from my heart. He makes me so happy, but my mom is about to ruin that contentment.

••

Blaze and I watched a few movies on Netflix before we decide we are now really tired. We lay down and I place my head on his chest while he plays with my hair.

The rain is beating against the window now, just as I had earlier predicted, so the room is chillingly cold. I cuddle in closer to Blaze's body warmth, and he wraps his arms around me, kissing me on the head.

We should be at class right now but there is nowhere else I rather be, than here in his arms. This feels like home.

I can hear his steady heartbeat and how it pumps for me, and I trace small circles on his chest with my finger while we enjoy the silence.

We don't need to talk to enjoy each other's company; that is the beauty of it all. It's just disheartening that I won't be able to enjoy this simple but enchanting bliss after that musical.

"Blaze." My soft voice flows through the room.

"Yeah?"

"My mom..."

"What about her?" Concern is evident in his voice. "Did she hurt you?"

"She's...she's going to transfer me to a new school." I mumble.

Breaking the news to him, the silence falls upon us once again. His trails on my hair cease, and I bring my eyes up to see what his facial exppression is like. His gaze looks doleful, and I wish I hadn't seen it because it tears my heart apart. "Blaze."

"Which school?"

"Hayston's Institution for Girls."

"Isn't that many miles away from here?"

Yeah, it's actually a far distance away from my hometown, so imagine the long proximity it is from Homewood or even from Blaze's hometown. Knowing my mom, she's probably going to board me in. She will be comfortable with the fact that boys are not at the school, plus it'd be a perfect opportunity for her to get my disgraceful face out of her sight.

"Yeah..." I mumble.

His chest rises in a sigh and he motions to sit up. I move away, easing upward and watching him closely as he meets my sullen gaze.

"So you're leaving me," he says softly, folding his feet underneath him and gazing over at me.

I sigh as my eyes begin to burn from the thought. "I don't want to..."

"Then don't." His exppression softens. "Then don't...please."

His voice is pleading and his gaze is so vulnerable, I could cry.

"It's hard...she's so hard to convince and I don't know what to do. She's paying for my tuition, she has my life in her hands."

"I will get a part time job or something. Plus, my dad has plenty money. I will pay for your—"

"No, Blaze." I shake my head. "I can't do that to you."

"But you can't do this to me," he grumbles, burying his face in his hands.

The sight is foreign to see from someone who seldomly wears his heart on his sleeve. He wants me to stay. He needs me to stay.

"I am sorry Blaze..." I push my hair back. "I don't want to go, but I can't put all the responsibility on you like that. And with my school schedule, I don't know how I will find a part time job...I just don't know what to do..."

He sighs and looks away. He's doing that so I can't see the hurt, the pain in his eyes.

"I am sorry..." I mutter. My voice quivers, and I press a palm over my eyes.

He sighs and draws closer to me. "Okay, don't cry. We will work this out, alright? Just please don't cry."

He pulls me into his arms and hugs me against him.

He kisses my forehead, and I close my eyes and suck the tears up.

"Please don't cry..." He whispers, bringing my chin up to look at him. My glossy eyes make his forehead puckers with sadness, and he brings his head down and kisses my lips.

The kiss is soft and sensual. A sweet mixture of pain and love, and I can tell he's pleading with his lips for me not to go.

He's scared of who he will become without me being around to keep his head steady and to be honest, I am scared of what may happen too. He has come a long way. I see how he has transitioned, finally caring for someone and finally becoming a little human. It isn't much, but it's alot to be grateful for.

Gently, he guides me down flat against the bed and his lips find mine again as he hovers above me. Our tongues dance together and we feel and touch each other sensually, not speaking with our mouths but with our eyes, our touches, our kisses and our hands.

In no time we are unclothed against each other. His lips are on one of the pearls on my chest while his hand gropes the other. My thighs buck off the bed as he swirls his tongue around the aroused bud. His palm is softly squeezing the opposite while he does this, giving equal attention to both.

Sensually, he kisses all the way down to my stomach while his hand reaches down to touch me between my legs. The sensation is intense, as he slips his fingers inside, pumping in a steady and torturous rhythm. I feel like I won't last long but before the arousal gets too much and I come apart beneath him, he slips his fingers out and positions my thighs apart.

While I am breathing heavily, staring up into his blue eyes that's already peering into mine, he slips the protection over his length, then lowers himself onto me.

He keeps his eyes on me, ensuring that I see the need in them, then firmly, he thrusts into me. It isn't as gentle as the first or second time but it isn't as painful either. A gasp leaves my lips at the immediate pleasure that his intrusion offers, and he lowers his head to kiss me, moving in a steady rhythm.

"I don't want you to go..." He whispers breathlessly. "I don't want to be without you..."

I want to say 'me neither' but the words emerge in a raspy moan as I claw my nails into his back. He groans at the blissful pain and I am certain that marks will be left there.

"You feel so good..." He murmurs, beads of sweat gathering on his forehead as he thrusts deeply, his biceps clenching hard and the muscles in his face tightening as he brushes my damp hair away from my face.

He slips his tongue into my mouth and kisses me hard, causing me to moan at the overwhelming pleasure building inside of me.

His strokes are demanding and dominant, and he's kissing me all over while he continues to move gently. I close my eyes, and I can feel my climax slowly approaching. He can tell too, and his hand grips my chin and tilts my head upwards.

"Open your eyes and look at me Harmony. Tell me how it feels."

I open my mouth, but I can't find words, so it just hangs agape as he thrusts back and forth. He kisses my parted lips. "Tell me baby."

I wouldn't normally like the nickname, but something about the sexy way he said it just now makes me reconsider.

"It feels good..." I manage to get out, and he smiles against my lips, but his intense gaze quickly returns, signalling that he too, is close to falling off that cliff.

"Oh God, you're so sexy...you're so beautiful." He purrs, then reaches down to kiss me again, groaning inside my mouth. I am still unable to kiss him back because the strokes are just too intense that my lips are stuck in an 'o' position.

He grabs my thighs and lifts them higher onto his waists, thrusting more firmly that my eyes roll to the back of my head.

"Keep your eyes on me." He demands.

I struggle to get my eyes back to focus, but quickly throw my head back as I feel the closeness of a mind-blowing orgasm. "Oh God..."

Blaze grips my cheek and brings my face down to stare into his lustful eyes, his lower lip is bitten and the hot sweat dripping from his hair and onto his chest sets the fireworks off.

His name leaves my lips as I come undone beneath him, the climax leaving me immensely shuddering and moaning uncontrollably.

Blaze kisses the cries from my mouth and keeps thrusting hard until he comes right after. A small groan leaves his lips, and he shivers before his body finally relaxes. He breaths out before collapsing on top of me.

Wow. That was nothing I have ever felt before.

He rolls off me and onto his back, his chest is rising and falling in heavy breaths, and I am struggling to breathe.

He gets rid of the condom and turns over to hold me into his arms. I am still recovering, so my fragile arm slumps over his waists as I breathe heavily.

"You okay..?" He kisses my forehead tiredly.

"Yeah..." I smile up at him, and he returns one before lowering his head and kissing me again.

That moment was everything. I could feel it—his love for me. He didn't have to say it because it was felt.

We lay in silence for a while before I bring my eyes up to look at him again. "What are we going to do?"

"About what?" He asks.

"Me...leaving here."

He pulls me tighter into him. "I don't want to talk about it today, babe. It's hard to think about it. Can we talk about it another time?"

I nod my head. "Okay Blaze. Let's do that."

He plants his lips on my forehead, and the silence comes again but this time, he speaks.

"Harmony."

"Mmm?"

"Can you sing for me?"

I smile, tilting my head up to peer at him. He hasn't asked me to sing in a while.

"You want me to sing for you?"

"Yeah...I miss your voice."

I nod. "Okay, what should I sing?"

He interlaced his fingers with mine, staring at them intently. "Anything you want."

I smile. "Okay."

I take a deep breath and snuggle my head against his chest, our fingers still intertwined perfectly. The room is quiet, just the sound of the rain against the window. I close my eyes and part my lips, then begin to sing 'Like I'm gonna lose you' by Meghan Trainer/Jasmine Thompson.

~I found myself dreaming in silver and gold like a scene from a movie that every broken heart knows. We were walking on moonlight when you pulled me close. Split second and you disappeared and I was all alone. I woke up in tears with you by my side, a breath of relief and I realized. No, we're not promised tomorrow. So I'm gonna love you like I'm gonna lose you, I'm gonna hold you like I'm saying goodbye. Wherever we're standing, I won't take you for granted. Cause we'll never know when, when we'll run out of time. So I'm gonna love you like I'm gonna lose you. I'm gonna love you, like I'm gonna lose you~

I feel Blaze hugs me tighter, and I can tell the words are reaching somewhere deep within.

~In the blink of an eye just a whisper of smoke. You could lose everything. The truth is, you never know. So I'll kiss you longer, baby. Any chance that I get. I'll make the most of the minutes. And love with no regret. Let's take our time to say what we want. Use what we got before it's all gone. No, we're not promised tomorrow. So I'm gonna love you like I'm gonna lose you, I'm gonna hold you like I'm saying goodbye. Wherever we're standing, I won't take you for granted. Cause we'll never know when, when we'll run out of time. So I'm gonna love you like I'm gonna lose you. I'm gonna hold you, like we're saying goodbye, wherever we're standing, I won't take you for granted. Cause we'll never know when, when we'll run out of time so I'm gonna love you, like I'm gonna lose you, I'm gonna love you, like I'm gonna lose you~

The songs ends and the room is quiet again. Blaze says nothing, and instead, a warm tear slaps my cheek. I bring bewildered eyes up to look at him and I am greeted with the most surprising sight ever.

He's crying.

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