Look who's able to update after a week? I did this instead of reviewing for my tests. Anyways, this is also unedited. Plenty of mistakes ahead. Read at your own risk.

*****

Time seems to went by faster and almost unnoticable after that night. Since that pleasant evening, everything seems to come into our lives calmly. Everything felt like it's in the right place and not even once we had a fight between us. We have constant bickering and exchange of harsh words between us but it's nothing serious.

Days, weeks and months passed like a blur. The season passed by quickly and now all the trees are left bare to the cold, the sky always hving a monochrome shade, and people are now forced to wear thicker clothes to fight off the cold. Being with Rein helped me from fighting the cold off, always wanting to cuddle with me every fucking chance he get. His warmth is very comforting in contrast to the coldness of the place, and even though I like the cold, being close to him is a much better feeling.

We also went out to several dates, going out to a cafe, to the mall, or even our frequent star gazing. We held hands even when we're in public, sometimes even a chaste kiss on the lips if I felt like it. It would commonly happen if some shitty bastards who doesn't know the word respect would fucking snicker or say some shits about us. The look on their face when we missed in front of them would always be priceless, even more whenever I fake a moan to get the reaction I want from them. I would flick them off with my middle finger and everytime it happen, Rein always look at me with a blush on his cheeks.

Rein's as weird, spontaneous, and as fucking sappy as he can as always. I would always received some shits from him, whether it be a bouquet, chocolates or other shits. I would always get teased by my so-called 'friends', with Hanji as their fucking leader of course. It's fucking irritating, but Rein would always make me keep my cool and remind me to just ignore them. I don't fucking know how he's able to handle that crazy thing, but he can deal with them without losing his cool.

We got closer than we did before, and it made me really fucking glad, not that I would admit it out loud. After class, we'll always be together at my apartment. It has become a natural occurance for us to watch movies, the movie soon being forgotten in favor of having small talks regarding to whatever random shits got our attention, mostly coming from Rein. He always have something to talk about, never losing anything to say which made boredom always almost nonexistent whenever he's around.

I still haven't gotten used to the way I feel whenever he's around, the way how I felt like I was electrocuted whenever our skin made the slightest contact, the way how his voice sound like a melody when he tells me something that made him excited, the way how a simple smile from him can change my mood no matter how bad it is. I can't understand how a chaste kiss in the forehead, cheek or lips can make me feel like I want to melt, the feeling of receiving this kind of affection new to me.

But still there are times when I notice him being restless, and there are times when he'll just space out like his mind is out of this fucking world. There are times when we're talking to each other and he'll suddenly stop answering, just looking at me with the same look that I cannot describe, the same look thay he gave me that night when we went camping.

I don't know why he's acting like that. I want to know why, but he wouldn't fucking tell me. That's commonly the reason why we fight, but at the end of the day, he'll apologize and say that he just have plenty of things in his mind. Even though I don't believe him completely, even though I believe that there's a deeper reason for him to act like that, I would still accept it and shrug my thoughts off, then everything will be okay.

We are fine, more than fucking fine, but there are times that I can't help but feel uneasy at how peaceful everything seems to be. Call me fucking paranoid or some shit, but I couldn't help it. I'm very pessimistic in the first place, and it's in my nature to worry and think of the worst every fucking time.

This day is a little different though. Rein came to my apartment a little later than usual, showing off a big smile that's adorning his face. The sight made me feel warm again, the place suddenly became brighter.

"Levi! I have some news!" His voice boomed throughout the otherwise silent place, his excitement flowing out of him. I can imagine him with a pair of dog ears and a wagging tail, making a small smile surface on my lips.

He furrowed his eyebrows. "Why are you smiling?"

I shook my head. "Nothing. Tell me your fucking news. It gotta be good."

He took a few deep breaths to calm himself down, and only then I noticed that he isn't wearing a coat. I immediately felt worried and pulled him inside my place, earning me a questioning look.

"What is that for?"

"Are you a fucking idiot?" Sighing, I shook my head and turned my back on him, starting to walk to my room to get some of his clothes that he left here. He followed, walking beside me. "Why the fuck would you go here without a coat on? Do you wanna get sick?"

He looked like he just realized that he isn't wearing a coat, and a light pink appeared on his cheeks. He scratched the back of his head while wearing a shy smile. "Oh, sorry. I am too excited to tell you the news that I just ran out of the house without grabbing my coat."

I looked down at his feet and noticed that he's wearing shoes. I ignored the thought of it threading on my floor, leaving marks of dirt on the way and just thought that he's not much of an idiot to forget wearing some shoes. "It's good to fucking know that you still have some sense of mind to wear a shoes."

"Well, I saw it at the entryway and just wore it." He stopped and bent down, removing his shoes and taking it before straightening up. "Sorry, I left some dirt on your floor."

I rolled my eyes and waved my hand dismissively, starting to walk again. "Tch, whatever." I opened the door and went inside, heading directly to my closet. I took a shirt of his and a towel, throwing it at him. "Change your shirt, you don't want to get a cold, aren't you?"

He nodded and went to the bathroom while I went out to make some tea. I started boiling some water as soon as I reached the place, preparing two teacups and adding some tea leaves. The process only took a few minutes to finish, and I reveled in the scent of tea before I turned around, surprised when I saw Rein standing at the entryway.

"What the fuck, Rein? Do you want to give me a fucking heart attack?"

Instead of an apology from him, I received nothing. He just continued to stare at me, looking at me with that aloof look on his face like his mind is once again too far away. None of this confused me, considering that he's been like that for weeks.

Making my way to him, I kept the frown that's knitting my eyebrows together, snapping my fingers in front of him once I'm infront of him.

"Do you want me to play some goddamn violin now?"

It seems to snap him out, looking around before turning his head down to look at me, a confused look on his face. "Huh?"

"I asked you if you want me to play a fucking violin so you can have your shitty dramatic sounds." I glared at him and flicked his forehead, his hand shooting up to rub it. "Stop spacing out, little shit."

"I'm—"

"'Thinking about something', yeah, yeah. I know. You've been like that for weeks. What got you so fucking worked up?"

"Nothing."

He looked like he wanted to avoid the subject so I let it be. I just sighed and turned around, walking back to the countertop where our tea is placed. "Have some tea."

He went to me and took a cup, blowing at it before sipping. "Thanks, Levi."

I just made a hum of acknowledgement and proceeded to drink my tea. The place was silent until Rein placed his cup down, taking in a deep breath before calling me. "Levi."

"Hmm?"

"I'm going to perform at a bar."

Surprised with what I heard, I choked on my tea, Rein rubbing soothing circles on my back. It took more than a minute before I composed myself again, and I shot him a confused look. "You'll what?"

He smiled at me once again and I knew that he's very glad about it. "You heard it. I'm going to perform at a bar."

"Perform what?"

"I'm going to sing." Ah, so that's it.

I nodded and hummed, taking my cup and lifting it to my lips, speaking before I took a sip. "Congratulations, I guess."

"Hmm, I'm very excited about it." He continued drinking his tea once again, filling the air with silence once again. I already finished mine so I cleaned the cup, waiting for him to finish his tea too. After that, we went back to the living room, sitting on the couch with his head resting on my lap again.

Starting to thread my hair through his unruly but soft as fuck hair, I asked, "When will you perform?"

"The night before Christmas." I hummed, watching him as he took my hand and played with my fingers, pinching my fingertips before kissing it, doing the same thing over and over again. Then he stopped, placing a kiss on the back of my hand before looking at me through his thick, brown eyelashes. "I want you be there."

"I will."

He smiled again, leaning up to sit before kissing me on the lips. Pulling back, he stared at me in the eyes before muttering a silent 'thank you'.

I nodded, the corner of my lips pulling up to a small smile. His eyes softened and we did just that, staring at each other like fucking idiots, but the way his eyes shine and look at me with affection always left me staring, unable to pull away like his gaze shackled me in.

"I love you, Levi. I always do."

*****

Another week has passed and I found myself being inside the car with Rein, driving to the airport to fetch her cousin Isabel. Isabel is just a year younger than me, and is much alike to Eren. I haven't seen her in years. Maybe that's why I immediately agreed to go when Rein asked me to.

When we reached the place, Izzy's already waiting outside, waving at us while grinning when she saw us. Rein smiled and waved back, Izzy starting to make her way to us.

"Big bro!" She ran towards me, tackling me into a tight hug which knocked the air out of my lungs. She pulled back, her grim never faltering and her turquoise eyes, the one ehich looked much alike to Eren's, sparkled brightly. "I missed you!"

"Ouch. You didn't even bother to give regards to your cousin?" Rein looked at Isabel with an offended look, earning me a chuckle. Isabel laughed while shaking her head, unwrapping her arms around me before moving to hug Rein.

"Yeah, yeah, I missed you too, Rein." Rein chuckled and ruffled her hair before hugging back. It didn't take long until both of them broke the hug. We started talking right then, talking about thing's going on in our life to catch up.

"So... Are you guys in a relationship?" I know that that question would most likely be asked so I already made up my mind about it. Rein and I's relationship isn't exactly a secret, so telling her isn't a problem.

"Yes, we—"

"We've been together for months. 2 months." Rein cut me off, wrapping his arm around my waist as he did so. Isabel looked at him with an odd expression at first before it slowly turned into a happy one. I can tell something is bothering her, no matter how hard she tried to hide it, but I've been seeing that same look on Rein's face for me not to recognize it.

"Ah, that's great!"

"It is."

An air of uneasiness took over us, leaving the three of us silent. I don't know why, but it fees like they're hiding something from me. The awkward atmosphere even when we started walking back to Rein's car. The ride was silent with both of them not talking which is very uncharacteristic of them.

Sighing, I shifted myself on my seat to face Rein, also looking at Izzy who's sitting at the back silently. I cleared my throat, catching their attention.

"Is there anything going on between the two of you? You're not acting like yourselves."

Isabel closed her eyes and took a deep breath, shifting back to her usual self. "Sorry, Big Bro, I didn't mean it."

I didn't wait for the two of them to explain. I know that they won't tell me so it's useless for me to do so.

Finally, the uneasiness that reigned the air was gone. They started talking again, the car filled with random stories and laughter coming from the both of them.

We went to Rein's apartment, deciding to spend the whole day there to spend time with Izzy. She's still the same as she did back then, an energetic ball of sunshine and rainbows, and I can feel my energy being drained off just by watching her.

She reminded me so much of Eren, and it made me wonder how much he changed. Is he still that same passionate kid with anger issues that I used to know?

Izzy retreated to the guest room early, tired from hours of traveling. I was sitting on the couch at the living room when Rein came, a bowl in hand, and motioned for me to come to him.

"Why?"

"Let's go to the roof. We can't leave Izzy alone here."

I stood up and followed him, walking up the stairs and through the hallway, stopping when we reached the attic. He unlatched something and opened a window, big enough for us to crawl out which leads to the roof.

We sat down, the bowl of strawberries resting on his lap and only then I noticed that it was covered in cream. Breaking my gaze away from the food, I looked up and smirked, giving him a teasing look. "You're not ready, aren't you?"

He rolled his eyes and pushed me slightly. "I don't want to miss any night with you and besides, I wouldn't let our star gazing schedule be ruined."

I let a small smile rest on my lips as I pushed his hair away from his face, leaning up to kiss him on the forehead. His lower lip jutted out a bit, forming a small pout. "Only on the forehead?"

Now, it's my time to roll my eyes. "You're such a fucking child." But I still complied, leaning in to leave a peck on his lips. "There. Fucking happy now?"

He nodded and smiled, taking a piece of the cream-coated strawberry before bringing it to my lips. "Say 'ah'."

I resisted the urge to roll my eyes and opened my mouth, about to take a bite when he pulled his hand away. I glared at him while he kept on laughing.

"What the fuck, Rein?"

He held up both of his hands in a surrendering position, trying but failing to keep his laughs.

"Sorry, I—" He laughed again, taking another good minute before taking a deep breath to compose himself. I just looked at him the whole time, watching him with a bored and unamused expression.

"Are you fucking done now?"

"Yeah, sorry. Now open your mouth." He once again brought the strawberry near my lips. I caught his wrist and held it to prevent him from moving his hand again. I took a bite of it, the combination of sweetness and sourness of the fruit combined with the cream spreading throughout my tastebuds.

He ate what's left of it and laid down, one of his arm resting beneath his head. I did the same and he scooted closer to me, the bowl of strawberries now resting on his stomach.

"Hey, Levi." I looked at him and now we're face to face. "I love you."

I felt heat crept up my face as my stomach did backflips, my heart started beating faster again. "What is that for?"

"Nothing. I just want you to know that. Don't forget it, okay?"

I frowned, my eyebrows furrowing in confusion. "Fucking seriously, Rein, what the fuck is with you?"

"It's nothing. Oh—" He sat up and took something out of his pocket. "Turn around."

"If that's a fucking knife I'll fucking kill you." Despite what I said, I complied, sitting up before turning around. In a second I felt his warm breath hitting my nape, making a shiver break throughout me which caused me to close my eyes.

Then I felt something cold around my neck and I opened my eyes to look at it. A silver necklace is now resting on my neck, a key hanging on it as a pendant.

"So, is it okay?" Rein's voice sounded unsure and I turned to face him, seeing the same look on his face. "It may sound very fucking sappy and you might not like it, but I'll still say it."

He took a deep breath and looked at me, a serious look now plastered on his face. "I really love you, Levi. Even if I tell it to you a thousand times, it will never be enough. And now I give you a key, and know that it's a key to my heart. You've stolen it a long time ago and I don't plan on taking it back. No matter what happens, always know that I love you with all my heart. I'll never stop loving you, Levi."

I was once again lost with words. Once again I was rendered speechless by him, my mind not able to create any coherent sentences. The way he looked at me robbed the air out of my lungs, my throat dry as a desert.

Knowing that I wouldn't be able to speak, I just leaned in and kissed him, pouring all of the unspoken words into it, hoping that through this kiss he would be able to know what I feel. These are the times that I fucking hate myself for not having a way with words, for not being able to express my fucking self vocally.

That's why I poured all of it into the kiss and when our lips parted, we were gasping for air like we've been drowning, our faces flushed red. It took some time to compose ourselves and when we did, I opened my mouth to tell him what he really wanted to hear.

"I love you too, Rein."

*****

A few days had passed and I found myself laying on my bed with nothing to do. Rein told me that he wouldn't be able to come to my apartment and that I'm welcome to visit him at his anytime.

And so I dressed into some casual clothes topped with thicker sweaters, grabbing my phone before making my way out of my apartment. My walk to Rein's house was fast, my mind occupied by nonsense thoughts. On my way to the front door, I saw Armin came out from the house.

"Oh, Levi!" He waved at me when he saw me, walking up to me. "How are you? What are you doing here?"

"I'm here to visit Rein. Is he inside?"

"Yes, he's with his cousin, Isabel. Just go inside, I need to meet up with Erwin. Bye!" With that he left in a hurry and I proceeded.

I entered the house, pleased that it's clean enough. There's no clothes and other trashes laying around, no layers of dust covering the furnitures. Walking further in inside, I called for him. "Rein?"

When there's no one who answered, I just decided to go to his room. As I near the place, two voices got louder and louder and I recognized whose voices those were. Rein's and Isabel's.

"Come on, when are you going to tell him? You can't keep on acting, Eren!" Isabel's distressed voice rang out throughout the place and it made my heart pound in confusion and in nervousness. What are they talking about? Why is Isabel saying Eren's name instead of Rein's?

A loud groan followed after it and Rein's voice resounded. "I've been trying, Izzy! I tried to do it many times before but I couldn't! Do you think that I like everything that's happening right now?! Fuck! I don't! But I can't bring myself to do it!"

I can't move. My eyes went wide and I was left frozen in place, my mind taking too long to process everything that I heard. What are they fucking talking about? What act? Why does Izzy kept on calling Eren?