Dear journal,

I meant every word I said about Liam and Ethan. I really hate what they did to Mark and his family dinner it was so immature of them both to show up and destroy the relationship between Mark and his parents.

I don't think they trust me anymore around their son, but they are acting really nicer after that day it's weird.

They want me to come over and spend time with Mark all the time and sometimes even leave us alone in the house for hours.

Of course, we don't do anything but hang out, but I thought they would be a little cautious knowing that we've had sex not once either.

Well, I got to go now me, and Mark are going to a party that half of the school is going to so drugs, alcohol, and more drugs will be involved so why not have fun with Mark we maybe even get back together tonight if you know what I mean.

bye Liam and Ethan I know your reading this have fun.

I smile down at my journal and hide it in the spot they already know of. Their so not professionals every time I get my journal it's in a different place, I knew they were reading it to find out more about me.

I say goodbye to Ricky before leaving out the door into Marks car where he waited patiently for me to come out.

"You look cute" I say while he takes his picture to post on his social media.

"You look better" I smile but take my phone out doing a Snapchat filter instead.

"See your adorable even without smiling"

"Whatever let's go" I playfully slap his arm, we drive off to the party that I look forward to. It's been days since the twins' stunt and Mark only asked me about it twice, I know he wants to know badly but I can't tell him especially when we are actually considered as best friends again.

"Alright come on sexy" I say grabbing his arm as we walk into the beach.

Everyone is partying and having fun I like this type of scene it seems as if no one has problem the only thing that anybody is worried about is enjoying themselves and being careless for the time being letting all the confusion in life go and that's exactly what I want to do.

"Abby" I turn and greet Michael, even though I really don't care for his sisters we still hang out he's been one good friend to me, and I couldn't just not talk to him the guy is funny as hell and I love being around him I know I'll have a good time.

"What's up Mark how's it going"

"I see your enjoying yourself Michael" I giggle, since me and Michael have been hanging out, he's become more of a free spirit laughing and enjoying life.

I guess I broke his shell and I got to say I'm proud of myself for it everyone should know this, Michael.

"Mike come hang with us" some girl whines and Michael leaves just like that, I smile as I see all of them gawk at him. But that's Michael for you.

"I'll go get us a drink can you go find us a seat" I nod my head going to search for a spot. I see the perfect one and sit down enjoying all the laughs and giggles that fills the air.

"Hi, Abby, didn't think I'd see you here"

"Hi, Zack, I knew I would see you here"

He laughs but takes a seat without me even telling him he could.

"You look nice today so what brings you here"

"I'm actually here with Mark"

"Oh yeah so you two are together again"

"No, we aren't but probably really soon"

"Oh, so you haven't seen or heard from Stacy"

"No why?"

"Oh no reason just wanted to make sure she didn't try anything you know what happened last time and all"

"Well thanks for checking on me but I can handle her" he gets up without warning and leaves. That was weird.

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"I've drunk so much tonight I don't think I'll be able to get up in the morning"

"We can always ditch school if you want"

"I think that'll be best"

Me and Mark had the time of our lives tonight so much partying and drinking all in one night was insane.

"What time is it"

"Uh...one in the morning"

"I better go before the twins have a fit"

"Okay" we walk to his car waiting for him to pull out his keys anytime now.

"I think I've lost my keys"

"We'll retract your steps"

"No, I have a pretty good idea where they are hold on"

I wait by his car just standing around watching the crowd and all the people interacting. I look at my phone feels like he's been gone for hours but it's only been ten minutes, still he needs to hurry it's starting to get cold out from the nights sky.

Another ten minutes pass and I'm getting really annoyed deciding to go and find him I walk to the table we sat at, but he wasn't there. Deciding to walk around the whole beach I finally end up behind the bar.

I see a couple having a Making out session. "I'm sorry I-" they break apart and I can finally make out their faces. Mark and Stacy, she blushes, and I turn around slowly walking away from them.

"Abby wait it's not what you think"

"It doesn't matter what I think we aren't together your free to do whatever you want" I say honestly even though I'm hurt at least he could have done it with someone else Stacy is the worst.

"Come on let's just go home"

"Not until we talk about what happened back there"

"Are you going to take me home or not"

"First let's talk"

"I'll get another ride than" I walk off in search of someone else that I know who could take me home. Mark follows me asking if we could talk but I refuse each time.

He's free to do whatever he wants and not have to explain himself to me. We aren't together after all, I for one did what I wanted with the twins.

"Zack, can you take me home"

"Sure Abby"

We walk to his car, and he opens the door for me, I thank him and get inside. We drive until we reach my home.

"Hope you had a good time Abby; I'll see you tomorrow at school"

"I don't know about that, but I'll met up with you later to finish our project"

"Well, if you wanted to ditch just let me know" I smile and thank him for the ride. I walk into the house and instantly roll my eyes.

The twins are both sitting in the living room acting as overprotective parents. "Where have you been"

"And what the fuck is this" Liam throws my journal onto the coffee table. I laugh and walk away not wanting to deal with them.

"Come back here Abby"

"We aren't done talking to you"

"Well, I'm done talking to both of you don't act as parents or my lovers the only thing you are to me is my stepbrothers and that's all you'll be until I move out and we will never talk anymore and trust me that day is coming sooner than later"

I slam my door shut and lay on the bed annoyed with how life has been ever since my parents died. I cry thinking about them and how life could have been so much simpler if they hadn't left me with these two psychos idiots' downstairs.

"Mom, dad please show me a way I don't know what I'm supposed to do and if you both were here, I know you would give me all the advice I need I just need some type of sign"

I lay on the bed crying my eyes out missing them both so much. My bed dips twice and the twins wrap their arms around me.

"We miss them too baby girl"

"Just talk to us about how you're feeling Abby, we love you baby and we'll never let you go I'm sorry"

I close my eyes and go to sleep.

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