My whole world shattered. I can't feel anything, I'm completely numb, nothing feels real anymore. I see one of the police officers come sit next to me trying to console me, but I stare off into nothing not wanting to do anything.

I don't know how to feel or how to act I want to cry, scream and shout but, nothing comes I just sit there waiting for it all to hit me like a truck but again nothing.

"I'm so sorry for your loss but Ms. White is here to pick you up" the officer says, I nod letting him lead me to her car.

"Hi Abby, I know this is all so sudden and you probably don't want anything to do with me right now, but I promise you my priority is to get you to a safe place" nodding again I get into the backseat of her car staring straight ahead.

The ride to her home was short with her talking a lot trying to make me feel better. It wasn't annoying but it wasn't helping either. Walking into her home it's warm.

"Make yourself at home you can sleep in the guest room it's just down the hall to your right and if you need anything at all I'm just a door down ok" I nod once more heading into the room she says is the guest room and flopped on the bed staring at the ceiling.

Finally, the tears start, I let them flow freely as I wrap my arm around myself feeling empty.

They left me here alone by myself.

How am I supposed to live my life knowing that my parents died in a car accident never coming back to care for me when I'm sick, never cheer me up with game night, never will I hear their laugh or see their smile, never will they see me walk down the aisle or have kids, my dad will never give me away to my husband never will they come to my graduation.

Thoughts cloud my mind and I continue to cry even harder into the now soaked pillow. Even though jack was my stepdad he's been like my father, and I will never give the relationship we have up. No one can tell me that he wasn't my father, and no one could tell him I wasn't his daughter.

I loved him so much and my mother just thinking of her I want to go insane my beautiful mother I don't know how I will go on without her and I don't want to.

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I'm woken by the sun shining brightly into my eyes I blank rapidly trying to adjust to the brightness. Leaving the guest room, I walk into the living room to find Ms. White on the phone smiling large when she sees me before continuing to talk on the phone.

"Ok thank you so much bye now" she hangs up sitting opposite of me grinning like a crazy person.

"So, I have some wonderful news" she says full of excitement.

"Your brothers called they heard about the accident and can't wait to take you in as their own we will meet with them today so they can sign a couple of papers and you can grieve with people you actually know and trust I know you really need it now" I smile small at her not wanting to alert her because truth is we are far from family , yes their dad was jack but I only seen them once in my life when I was younger they didn't really show any interest in me and neither did I.

I dress in clothes Ms. White had for kids who stayed the night and I have to say I kind of like this outfit it's not too shabby and it actually fits.

Walking downstairs we make way to her car. The ride to our destination was filled with Ms. White speaking highly of my brothers telling me things about them that I already know since they were jack's sons and he spoke about them being a proud father that he was supporting their dreams as a parent should.

We pull into a diner, and I watch as Ms. White adjust herself in the mirror making sure her hair and lipstick are in place checking to see if she looked presentable but me on the other hand, I wanted to get this over with, so I get out the car first with her following behind me.

Looking to the far back I spot the most gorgeous men, they were having a discussion about something oblivious to me gawking at them.

I try to look away before they catch my staring eyes, but I can't seem to I'm afraid if I do, they would be gone. Ms. White escorts me to the direction of the two men.

"hi, you must be Liam and Ethan I've heard so many things about you" she greets them.

"All good I hope" the one on the left says.

"of course," she giggles like a schoolgirl I want to huff at how unprofessional she is being flirting with my 'brother' while we have things we need to discuss instead.

"Ethan" the one on the right says taking my hand and I'm glad for it, they are identical so it's hard telling which one is who when you haven't been around them but once.

"I'm Abby" I say just in case they forgot who I was it would be likely they have.

"We know please sit" taking a seat we all stare at each other in an awkward silence until it's broken by Ethan.

"So, where do we sign to have custody of our sister" he says sternly snapping her out from drooling over Liam.

"Oh, I'm sorry ...here is the papers I will tell you where to sign" she says.

I look over at Liam and he just stares, like really, he looks at me even though I've caught him staring but continues to do it anyway making me feel small and shy. I fidget in my seat under his gaze until the papers are all signed.

"Is that all" Ethan says standing up.

"that's all of the paperwork it's one more thing and then she's all yours"

"What is that?"

"Just a house check to make sure its fit for Abby's health" after they discuss more, I'm told that I could stay with the twins tonight and tomorrow she and someone else will come and inspect the house.

I told her I'll stay with the twins even though I didn't want to I was put on the spot and didn't want to be rude.

I wave goodbye to Ms. White while Liam help me into the car, Ethan gets into the driver's side while Liam gets into the passenger's side, and we are off.

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