Forcing back tears,

And holding in the frustrations.

I quickly plug in my music,

Turning it up.

Breathing in,

I close my eyes to block out everything.

I listen the lyrics closely,

Suddenly relating to the words.

A tear escapes my eyelid,

And before I can react,

I'm sobbing on my floor.

Curled into a ball.

Night after night,

It's the same feelings over.

Breaking down for barely anything,

Ending up a mess for the night.

I'm past the point of caring,

About life anymore.

It doesn't matter what I do,

I'll always end up in pain.

So I numb the days,

Immersing myself into school.

I numb the nights by partying,

Throwing myself on to strangers.

I'm done caring,

About myself,

And what happens.

I'm just done.