i'm torturing myself

i drink dirty dark liquor

i thought you would come to me in the night and let me lean up against your shoulder and rest my eyes

i thought you'd hear me

i thought you'd hear my screaming sorrowful cry with my head down the toilet bowl

i've reached the logical end of my desperation and i thought you would've helped

but that's not your job

i act so out of line

and you never even knew