A worry in a heart

and disbelief in a mind.

Puzzled and dumbfounded,

yet calm, bitch face as a mask.

The words of carefree,

hope,

The nonchalant talk of

always having the positive thoughts,

meaning desire for such,

meaning the beneficial exercise

for future references,

which means, always say that

"This world

is the best of all possible worlds"

by Leibniz.

Quote good quotes,

positive quotes

and have your own.

Say it repeatedly

until it catches in your brain

like a pop song.

Have fake confidence

and make everyone believe that

you were born with REAL one.

Remember,

It's not lying if you're also lying

to yourself.

Practice saying that the glass is half full,

even if there is not a single drop of water,

Practice expecting best in unusual situations,

Practice the lightness in facial expressions.

Practice saying 'eventually'

as a sign that something good must come out

and a 'sign' as the universal control

over YOUR life,

because someone must have it if not you.

The stress, non existent,

The recovery, almost unbelievably fast.

Struggle over nothing,

Believe in almost everything.

Like:

The idealism of having uncountable number of the same type of worlds and OUR being the 'right' one is by no doubt the essence of optimism,

but hey!

it may also be the very core of egoism.

Descriptions of

mental or emotional breakdown

might not be something you were

looking to read on Google

but man,

does the check list make you

feel more optimistical

as you always refuse to use the pen,

which was definitely not a problem

when you checked your vote for last year's election.

The diagram of perfectionism,

and the respectful nod of disagreement.

The pattern of heartbeats recognized,

The unstability of thoughts almost rejected.

Remember,

paradoxically you should not exist...

But you do...

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//January 2017//