I am not worthy

No matter how much I try

I am not worthy

But maybe, I didn't try enough?

Never mind, I am not worthy

I see them around me

I see the way they speak and behave

As I try to fit in

But failed and remain a misfit anyway

They're busy in their own selves

With a few glances at me

But yet they ignore my trials

And become too blind to see

The loneliness inside me

I tried changing myself

Tried seeing things from their point of view

Tried thinking their interest as my own

Tried thinking, behaving like them

But apparently all I did

Was put my true self at stake

And reject the fact

That I have a mind of my own

Once a misfit, always a misfit

But all I want was to belong

Never mind it

I am not worthy as they are

Not in this extra social world

But guess what?

Diamonds don't mix

With shiny fake pearls

Who get attention only cause they're feasible

While diamonds rare to form

Once you throw light on them

They're unbeatable