I can't escape if I want to

I ran as far as I could

But it's back haunting

The same old unfelt pain

I thought I was strong

But it overpowers me

Is there no escape?

Somewhere I'll like to be?

The feeling that I try to ignore

The questions I try to dodge

The memories that now seems fake

Is my existence even worth it all

It's hard to think

When you're feeling desperate

Sorrow comes and punches on ur face

Still you refuse to cry

I wish I could hold hands

But the introvert in me has risen

The extrovert is now a flashback

Who vanished as soon as it saw the past

It's there

Standing strong

Could I escape?

Or should I fight now?

Should I fight even if it leads to torture

Should I yell that now I understand it all

The horrorfull devastating words still inside my head

The voices whom I ignore for months

Sang long and stared

What now? I ask myself

And all I get as response is hide

Hide from friends

Break the contact

I know I can do it with ease

But I don't want to

Even acting online is a pain

Even though I need to

I have to face the truth

I have to see what's right what's wrong

What's true what's lie

Should I fight?

All I want to is escape

All I want to is run

From the reality as if to play

The way I want it to be

I know I have to face it sometime

But maybe I can keep running?

Maybe I can keep hiding?

All I need is an escape now

...All I need is an escape now...

I could finally see the devil behind the face

But I still refuse to accept this phrase

Can I still continue the chase

With it fastening it's pace?

All I want is an escape...

I saw her there

Fed up with everything

She rises so high

Against the storm coming

And still failing

I saw her seek for help

But she was declared mentally ill

I saw her still standing strong

Will I ever feel her pain?

Her eyes that had cried

Still had the face of a warrior

Her voice that cracked

Still was able to stand for herself

And all I could do is see her there

Standing all alone

Facing the storm dead on

Falling back yet again

The storm was clever

It got people fly with it

And she stood on the ground desperate

Yet refuse to let it detain her spirit

I was a coward

I am a coward

As I watched her stay strong

And imagined if I could be the same?

But all I cared was for as escape from her

I am a coward there is no denying

She stood tall with no one by her side

And I stood low with many by my side

I could never go against the storm

All I need is an escape