My writing suuuuuuuucks ;-;

It's been about a month since I've met Y/n and to be very honest... I have taken I liking to her! Our first meeting wasn't very good, but the more we hung out and got to know each other the better our friendship blossomed. Y/n doesn't fully understand the concept of soul reapers or hollows. Though she knows about them and what I do from time to time with the hollows. She's so understanding it surprises me there's a girl who wouldn't freak out! Then again... She's seen proof of everything I've been doing since our meeting so I guess it isn't much of a surprise.

But her eyes... They sparkle with glee whenever she sees (favorite thing). She even geeks out about it sometimes and starts ranting on why she likes it. She's just adorable!

I've been with Y/n a lot lately. Everyone keeps telling me to just ask her out, but I'm still not convinced of anything. I'll be very honest and blunt. I really really like Y/n! She's mainly the reason why I try to hard in things now. I just want to impress her, even though I am a lieutenant, I just feel the need to show her what I can do. Rangiku told me I shouldn't be trying to impress Y/n with my battle skills or strength, but with my compassion and loyalty... I'm not sure how I can do that, most would want to see skill and strength. Y/n just makes me so nervous and want to do an overkill on things! Ugh! Pretty sure this is bad for my health...

But I really want to stare at her smiling face whenever I comeback from a success mission... How beautiful she is.

"When the saddened moonlight dims

The Stars begin to shine, but

As the extravagant sun arises

The moon and stars stare in awe

As the sun joyfully dances throughout the sky."

It is not the best poem, but Y/n had recited it during one of our meetings at the cherry blossom tree. She looked so calm as she stared at the fallen petals in the koi pond to the left of the tree. Her h/c hair gently caresses her face perfectly as her soft looking lips form a genuine smile. My how lovely she is... If only I could call her mine.

Y/n has been visiting my office on a regular basis. Usually when she isn't busy with her own work, of course. Rangiku enjoys Y/n's visits just as much as I like Y/n in general! I'm not sure why I feel so nervous yet so... Thrilled to have Y/n around. But whenever she isn't, it doesn't feel right. I love her h/c hair, her shining e/c eyes, her bright smile, just... Just--everything! I love everything about her! I'm not sure how any of this happened, but it did and I'm glad. She makes everything so much more better. If only I could call her mine already...

Earlier today she payed me a visit. Apparently she had made too many muffins and decided to go around offering muffins to anyone she saw... I was her last stop, though I do wish she came to me first. I didn't mind being her last stop now. Why? It was because she told me she wanted to have a little friendly chat with me. So I was her last. Thoughtful isn't she? How I love teasing her and bringing out her feistiness. I would be lying if I said Y/n wasn't annoying. Though she's very interesting and very loyal. I do feel she'd be a wonderful wife... Maybe work on a couple of simple housework things, like sweeping or mopping. She'll be mine soon... I can feel it.

Y/n has been visiting a lot lately. She says she needs to create an unbreakable bond with me before she can feel comfortable again. Her mind does run wild with such interesting thoughts, but I don't mind at all. The way she thinks about things always has intrigued me. Although from the past few months of just chatting with her has seemed to have made me fall for her. The way her eyes light up once she starts ranting and the way she won't back down from a task, no matter the difficulty. She'll be a brilliant ally and possible lover.