I shoot up from my bed like rockets out of a rocket launcher wait why am u up my alarm didn't go off i look over at my phone

5:30

Jesus faist i woke up early i get out of bed a go to the bathroom i stare at my razor blade

Why not i grab the blade and make a bunch of cuts on my arm suddenly everything went fuzzy i heard my body collapse to the ground

And everything went dark...

Im at lunch and i noticed i haven't seen michael at all today i chew on my nails nervously thinking of how to act

I go into the bathroom and theres no michael i call him

Voicemail box

Fern!"

"I'll just call again"

I wake up on the cold bathroom floor wait why am i here then i see my razor shit thats going to leave some blood stains on my blade

My ringtone goes off i grab my phone and pick up

"Hello?"

"Hey michael thank god last time i called you didn't answer why aren't you at school"

"Oh sorry to worry you i kinda passed out didn't get much sleep tonight" i lied

"Oh sorry are me you and jared still hanging out today"

"Yeah my adress is 1776 washington heights street (not a real address)"

"Ok i gotta go fast see ya"

"Ok bye"

I hear the doorbell and run downstairs

"HEY THE INSANELY COOL JARED KLEINMEN AND TREESEXUAL HAVE ARRIVED"

"Jer what the fern"

I chuckle and open the door

"Hey"

"Ohh this house smells-"

"Don't you dare jared"

"Like my bathbombs!!"

"Oh my god i apoligize well anyway what you wanna do"

"Follow me"

And i run upstairs them following

" yall wanna play video games?" I ask the couple

"Sure" jared shrugs

"Ok you two can take the bean bags I'll take the bed"

I haven't been in my bean bag since Jeremy got the squip

I hold my "player 1" controller and they use the spares

"Whos the player two controller for"

"Um for jeremy"

"Kinky~"

"Jare i swear to god"

"Hold on i gotta use the restroom you guys can try the two-player version"

I clean up the razor blade and clean the blood off the floor and wipe the tears coming down

Just saying jermeys name aloud hurts i flush to make them think i acctualy had to and wash my hands

I go to open up the door and oh god

"HOW THE FUCK CAN ANYONE BEAT THIS"

"Jared babe calm down"

I laugh and walk over

"Don't worry me and jermey have been on level 9 for months"

"You guys ready?"

"HELL YEAH" jared screams

Evan just rolls his eyes and laughs but this also makes me think man i miss jermey i try to gulp the feeling down and just play the game

"FUCK YEAH WE BEAT IT" me and jared yell while evan goes

"FERN YEAH"

"Well we are gonna bounce bye michael" jared says

"Bye guys!"

I collapse on my bed fuck im tired im nervous for the party tomorrow i will probably just hide out in the bathroom but i need to talk to him

Im sitting in the bathtub contemplating what im going to say when i hear the door open

I look over and see none other then my crush himself jermey heere looking as cute as ever

I reached for his arm startling him

"Hey"

"Hey

"Your speechless squip got your tounge"

"He's turned off"

"Explains why you're talking to me"

"Im so glad to see you"

"You won't be when you heere this"

He looked at me like a confused puppy

"I was playing with this guy on warcraft and he said some stuff about the squip said his brother went from fs to the honor role guess where he is now"

"Very happy and successful?"

"In a mental hospital completely lost it it wasn't his squip though"

"Then there you go" he says wailing his arms

"It was him trying to get the squip out if him"

"Why would i want that anyway"

"Im just concerned"

"Oh really and u thought chloe was jealous"

"Jermey its not like that"

I step in front of him

"Please you know im just worried"

"Move"

"Or you'll do what"

"Get out of my way "

I slide down the wall hands in my hair im hiding in the bathroom at the biggest party of the fall like the pathetic loser i am

I can feel my breathing get heavy and the world erase from me its just me in the darkness alone crying on the ground

I should have just stayed at home in bed this idea was so stupid jermey is going to replace me evan and jared will forget that i existed and no one will care if i died

I don't wish that i stayed home i wish that i offed myself instead i wish i was never born

Suddenly i hear knocking and im back in the bathroom my breathing just goes faster as the knocking goes on

I throw some water in my face and i am in a better place i go to open up the door but i can't hear knocking anymore

I cry for about 20 minutes untill i hear flames i open the door and see a roar of fire in the bedroon down the hall with rich in it trapped i run down to the kitchen and warn everyone

"THERES A FIRE UPSTAIRS ITS GOING TO SPREAD CALL THE FIRE DEPARTMENT AND EVACUATE"

"what about you" jake asks in panic

"I HAVE SOMEONE TO SAVE"

"OH MY GOD WHERES RICH"

"UPSTAIRS THATS WHO IM SAVING"

"I'LL COME WITH YOU"

I search in cabinet after cabinet for a big enough bowl to fill a lot of water in i find one and fill it up as quick as possible

I run up to the bedroom and when i try to run in a curtain holder falls infront of the door frame i pick it up as the heat kills my hand i dose the flames in water

I run downstairs and get more just to be safe jake runs in and carries rich outside of the house

An ambulance arrives and puts me and rich in jake asks to go in and they let him

"Thank you so much i don't know what i would have done if rich died in there"

"Its no problem i was just doing the right thing"

I then realize the heat all over me not just my hand fuck

"I know we have treated you like dirt for years now but we owe you is there anything we can do"

"Honestly no your appreciation is enough"

Jake nods guilt filled in his eyes stroking riches hair i smile they have to be soulmates

I wake up with a raging headache and heat at my body

"Oh my god sweetie your awake!"

"Mom mom what day is it"

"Its monday"

My face goes pale

"I WAS OUT FOR 3 DAYS"

They both nod their heads

"We are so proud of you sweetie we heard about how you saved jakes house you know you have a heart of gold"

"Thank you mom mahal kita"

"Mahal kita"

"But we have sone serious talking mister your weight has serverly dropped to an underweight and we found various scars less faded then others and what seems to be fresh cuts"

Tears well up in my eyes and i wipe them with my sleeve

"Im so sorry ma"

They hug me

"Its ok just try your best to stop i understand its hard i just care if you try"

"Me and tiffiany (moms girlfriend) have to leave but i promise i will try to be home more often"

"Ok bye mom mahal kita"

"Mahal kita"

Oh my god michael hasn't been eating and he cut himself no its probably my fault ive been bullying him for years

NO ITS THE SQUIPS FAULT

I WILL FIND A WAY TO GET THAT MOUNTAIN DEW RED ASSHOLE

AND I WILL FUCKING SUCCEED

"Hey michael?"

"Oh hey?"

"I need this squip out of my body the only way is to drink mountain dew red i heared you collect old stuff"

Yeah acctualy theres some in my backpack

"Nurce!" He asks politely but with a nice tone

"Yes sir?"

"Please call me michael and am i aloud to get up and get my backpack"

"No you need to rest for 2 days what do you need out of your backpack"

"The mountain dew red and its for rich"

"Uh miss you might have to hold me down you see im getting rid of a squip and he might control my body"

She nods and is focused like she has done this before the squip controlls my body and tried to punch her she dodges and pins my hand down with one oh hers and my other arm with her elbow

I was able to drink some when my head was throbbing in pain i was clutched my head and screamed

I spot the one and only jared holding hands with evan

"Kinky~" seeing how the nurce made me drink that she just glared at him he put his hands up in surrender

After about 20 minutes im not in as much pain as before

"Thankth michael"

"No problem looker like it hurt like hell though"

"Yeah it hurt like a buttcheek on a thtick"

He laughs at my vine reference im glad he caught that

"Hey by the way i heard your lisp don't try to hide it"

I smiled at him i ussualy felt insecure about it then i see who comes in jake the handsome caring kind and-

"OH MY GOD IM TOTALLY BI" i scream out

They both looks at me laughing

Michael then screams "OK IF YOUR COMING OUT IF THE CLOSET MY TURN IM GAY MOTHERFUCKERS"

Jake the goes "IM A FUCKING PANSEXUAL PINEAPPLLLEEE"

Jake hugs me and my heart flutters he just so perfect

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