I'm freaking out. I'm supposed to be walking down the aisle in two minutes and I can't stop shaking. I know I want to marry Jax, but I'm freaking out over it.

"Ry you okay?" One of my girls Ken asks as I nod and sit down in my dress. I love my dress and I know Jax will too, but I can't help but be freaking out over if this is the right thing to do. I know it is, and nothings going to change, Jax and I will still live together and raise Madison like we've been doing, I'm just terrified.

"Can you get Maddie?" I ask as I hold my hands together and sit the bouquet next to me outside of the chapel. I start fanning my hair out of my face as I start fanning my armpits trying to calm down.

"We'll find her." She tells me rubbing my back as I sit and feel tears whelping in my eyes. This is the first time it's hit me today that I'm getting married. Sure I've been nervous but it's hitting me now.

"Honey you okay?" My mom asks as I sit and try focusing on my breathing. "I know I love him. But I'm so nervous I think I'm going to puke." I tell her as she laughs and rubs my hand in hers. "You'll be okay sweetie. That's perfectly normal." She tells me as I shake my head no.

I've been feeling sick all morning while getting ready and it's been happening for days now. I took a pregnancy test this morning and part of the reason I'm freaking out is because I'm pregnant again and Jax doesn't know. We have talked about expanding and decided to wait until after we got married but it happened a little early.

"Mom get me a trash bag" I tell her as I stand up rushing outside of the church doors. I get to the concrete and before she can grab me a bag I'm hunched over the bushes puking.

"Oh my god." I hear behind me as she rubs my back before getting napkins to clean my mouth and lipstick to reapply. I walk back in before brushing my teeth as I try holding myself together.

A few seconds later in walks my maid of honor holding my little girl. "Thanks Ken." I tell her as she hands over Madison. I smile looking at her in her little dress and shoes. She looks beautiful.

"Jax said to look in her pull up." She tells me as I sigh and nod. I rub Madison's back before sitting her down on the bathroom changing table and looking in the back of her dress. I pull down her pull-up and see her wearing and extra one as I open it up.

It's a jewelry box, and I open it up as I immediately smile. To my girls on our wedding day, is wrote on the note of it. I look below the note and in it holds the most beautiful gold chain bracelets. I take one out and smile when it's small enough for Madison's wrist. I put it on her and then ask for my moms help to put mine on.

And I just know I need to quit freaking out. I grab my bouquet walking back out as I hold Madison on my hip. I'm doing this with her right beside me. My dad takes one of my hands as I hold my bouquet and Maddie.

"I'm ready now." I tell them.

All the bridesmaids line up and the doors to the church open and they all walk down. I walk towards the doors when they close and it's my turn. The music starts and Maddie starts wiggling in my arms but I refuse for anyone else to hold her. She's going the aisle with her mom and when I get to the alter the only other person she's going to is Jax. She's part of us, and she's apart of our big day.

The doors open and all our friends and family are sitting down in chairs. They all rise when I enter and smile seeing Maddie and she moves her little hand. That's all she knows how to do right now, but it's adorable.

Then I look down and see Jax waiting on me. He smiles as wide as he can as he looks at me. Then he winks at me when he looks my whole body up and down in my fight fitting dress. We just had sex this morning, but he's unpredictable when he's ready to go again.

When I get down my dad gives me away. It was a long road getting my parents to like Jax, but it was so worth it. I hold Maddie in my arms and make it to the front of Jax as he walks over to me and rubs my back. "You look so beautiful" he tells me pulling me to the front of the alter. When we get there I hold Maddie in my arms. She's not having it though, because five minutes into the ceremony she's reaching for Jax.

Everyone laughs when she gets into his arms. "Daddy's girl." He tells everyone as they laugh. He rubs her back as she smiles.

He holds her on his shoulder as she takes her head into his neck and starts going to sleep. Right in front of everyone making us laugh. Jax is first to go with his vows, and having occupied hands he can only hold one of mine while Maddie is in the other. But he manages to start after getting the paper from his pocket.

He looks so incredible in his black suit. He looks so hot that I know I'm living every girls fantasy. I'm marrying the love of my life and theirs no one I'd rather do this with.

When it's time for his vows he starts, "Ry, I can't imagine standing here and doing this with anyone but you. We might not have started off in the best or most normal circumstances and that's okay, because I wouldn't change what we have for the world. I knew the day you found out you were pregnant with Madison that our life changed forever, and I couldn't be happier to have you as my woman, and to have a little daddy's girl with you. I promise to love you, cherish you, and put your needs along with Maddie's above my own, and I know we got this forever thing down together. I love you, and I can't wait to see what our future holds." He tells me as tears whelp in my eyes as I rub his knuckles. He rubs mine back as my tears fall and I quickly wipe them away as I smile rubbing his hand.

I just love him so much and his vows are perfect. He's perfect. "Rylee your turn" the pastor tells me as I nod and reach behind me to Ken as she hands me her vows out of the pocket in her bridesmaids dress.

I turn to Jax when Madison starts wiggling. I stop what I'm doing and rub her back as she snuggles into. Jax's neck and sucks her thumb into her mouth. He kisses her head as she holds onto him making my ovaries explode as I watch the DILF in front of me.

"Jax." I start as my voice cracks and I instantly start crying. He moves his hand from mine and grabs my face as he starts wiping my tears making them fall harder. "Hey, take your time." He tells me as I nod and reach my hand to his.

Everyone's here waiting on me and I'm too busy stopping myself from crying. It's happy tears, and I'm so happy, I know I am.

"Jax, you are the most incredible man I've ever met. The day I found you wounded in an alleyway was the day that my life changed forever. I knew the moment I looked into your eyes that I was a goner and I kept trying to tell myself I wasn't, but I was so wrong. I can't describe what being your girlfriend, fiancé, and now baby mama as you like to call me, have been like. I just know that I love you more each day and that I promise to keep loving you, and only you until forever never ends. You make me a better woman, nurse, and mom. Without Madison I know we'd be here, but it would be without our little world who's you reincarnated. And I'm so glad that we have her to keep us on our toes and I'm so thankful for you. You've made me into someone that cherishes life, and that wants to live it with you and Maddie forever. Jax I love you, I love you with all my heart and I hope and pray that this live gives us over a hundred years together, because that won't even be long enough with you." I tell him ending my vows in a mess of tears as I look up and see small tears falling from his face. Jax never cries, and I just broke him, he's crying.

So for the rest of the ceremony we smile while crying and laughing at each other crying. He holds Maddie on his shoulder the whole time, and once we exchange rings I look at his big hand and smile seeing that he's mine. "I now pronounce you husband and wife. Jax you may kiss your bride." The preacher tells him as I step forward. He grabs my face in one hand and kisses me as I smile onto his lips and kiss him harder.

Yells break out as I pull away and kiss him again. This time it's slower and he pulls away kissing my forehead as we both smile. After getting my bouquet back, he takes my hand in his as we walk out of the church smiling all the way into the car waiting on us to go off and take pictures. I hold his hand in mine until we're in the car with Maddie buckled up. He tells the driver to take us off as he pulls up the black screen and smiles at me.

"God you look beautiful." He tells me pulling my head to him as he kisses the living hell out of me. He grips my arms pulling me onto his lap as I smile and wrap my arms around his shoulders. He's on his way of pulling up my dress when I stop him.

"Not with Mad right here." I tell him as he rolls his eyes and sighs. "Fine, open your legs." He tells me as I sigh and open my legs.

"How about this then?" He asks as he reaches into my lace underwear and starts rubbing my clit making me moan. I reach for his pants and start jacking him off at the same time as we both kiss harder and harder until we're done five minutes later pulling into the reception.

"Tonight." I whisper onto his lips as he grins and nods. "Tonight, when Maddie's gone with your mom and dad, you best believe you're mine." He tells me as I smile.

I'm so happy.

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Slumping back into the sheets I'm exhausted. We're staying in a cabin tonight that Jax rented that's only a few hours from Atlanta, but still far enough for us to be alone, and we're very much alone. We're doing what every couple does on their wedding night, and I'm so sore from the thirteenth time that I can't go anymore.

"Alright I'm done. One for every minute I was at that alter getting hard." Jax tells me sitting up as he rubs my hips under the sheets. He makes me laugh when he starts tickling my belly and then he settles down as he starts rubbing it.

"You're a little bloated baby." He tells me as he stops his hand and feels around. "About that, I have something to tell you." I tell him as he stares between me and the sheet around my stomach. I push the sheet off exposing my naked body as I sit my hand on top of his and smile.

"What?" He asks looking down at my hand as I nod. He stares between me and my hand and I wish I could catch his face on camera when he realizes what I'm telling him.

"No. Oh my god." He tells me as he smiles and I nod. "I felt awful this morning while getting ready. I had a suspicion when I started puking and guess what it was?" I ask as he smiles.

"A positive pregnancy test later, and I find out we're pregnant. Congrats Daddy. You'll be a daddy of two very soon." I tell him as he smiles and leans forwards kissing me. He rubs my belly as I smile onto his lips.

"I'm so excited." He tells me as I smile.

"Me too." I tell him as he kisses me harder and I smile. This is my forever right here, and I wouldn't have it any other way. Jaxton Rutledge is my world, and lucky for me, I somehow ended up lucky enough to marry him.

I love this life with him and our babies. It's perfect.