I have no words for how my night with Jax went. I could say it was mind blowing, amazing, endless orgasms, and full of everything I wanted but that's not enough to describe it. It was way more than that, it was, it was indescribable. The way we fit, the way we move, it's something I've never experienced before him. It's like we move in the way that pleases the other, and sexually our chemistry is mind blowing.

I'm just laying in his bed with him and I can't stop smiling while looking over at his naked body sleep. It's early now, and I never wake up this early but I couldn't sleep thinking about today. I know what we did was wrong because he's supposed to be dating Poppy. And I hate myself for what we did because of that. He cheated on her, and I essentially made him do it when I walked to his front door and kissed the hell out of him.

But I loved it and one things certain. I love Jax. I do, I don't know if I'm in love with him but I love him so much. I'm just laying with a sheet over my breasts rubbing his shoulder as he sleeps on me. I'm under him, and his head is between my shoulder and the pillow while he's breathing on my neck. His left arm is wrapped around my waist and his right is spread across the bed on the other side. His feet are almost hanging off the end of his huge California king though, and I can't help but smile looking down at the way our legs are. Mine is wrapped around his waist, with my legs open and I can feel his morning wood into the side of my pussy and it's driving me crazy. He's holding me in a position that I can't move and if I move two inches to the right he'd be inside of me.

I've been awake for hours. I cried, I wiped my tears, I've rubbed his back for hours trying to calm myself down, and I've almost made myself sick worrying about what's going to happen when he wakes up and realizes what we did last night.

I can't fathom how much I loved everything that happened and how many times it happened. After our first round, we went four more times. He ended up eating me out twice, and I didn't suck him off once. Not because I didn't want to, but because I was so sore I couldn't move. That's when we fell asleep after he pulled out and threw the condom on his nightstand. Leaving us in this position with him so close to me.

I continue rubbing his back under my nails as I smell his hair softly listening to him breathe. One of my hands is under his neck and is rubbing his lower back while the other is rubbing the top of his back. I hope doing this keeps him asleep longer and postpones the inevitable.

But it doesn't. He sighs into my neck when I realize he's awake and I stop moving my hands. I close my eyes back pretending to sleep when he wakes up and moves his head out of my neck. I hear him sigh and crack his neck twice on the sides as he moves looking at us, I'm assuming.

Then he starts kissing my neck. He moves his lips to my neck sucking it as I open my eyes. That's not what I expected at all. I feel his lips moving down my body when he reaches over grabbing another condom and I realize what's happening. He's waking me up by being inside of me rocking my world and I don't mind. It'll take my mind off of today.

"I know you're awake Ry." He whispers into my ear rubbing his hands across my rib cage down to my thigh opening it fully.

"Then you know what I want." I whisper back into his ear as he laughs and starts kissing down my neck to my lips and back again. When he slips into me we start moaning and rocking our hips together as I hold him close kissing his lips.

I grip his ass bringing him closer when he starts pounding into me kissing my neck again and again. "Ry" he whispers feeling me tense around him and gripping his member. I buck my hips to his when I feel him hit my g-spot and I cum, "Jax." I moan back as I feel him releasing inside of me finishing when I do.

When he's done he pulls out of me before slipping off the condom and grabbing me into his arms. He throws me over his shoulder making me squeal as he walks to the bathroom using only one foot to hold most of his weight. He slips me down when he takes off the bandages on his foot showing it healing up nicely as he starts the shower with me naked right in front of him.

He pulls back and looks me up and down before grinning and pinching my hip making me slap his arm as he pulls me into his chest and opens the shower doors. He shields the hot water with his back when he gets in until we find a temperature that works for both of us and we start washing together.

We don't exchange words when we're washing until he dumps shampoo into my hair and I automatically kick his calf. "JAX! That shit will make my hair look like a birds nest!" I exclaim as he laughs and rubs it in with his hands. I will admit that it feels really good though, especially when I slip back into his chest and his hands move down to my breasts as he massages them in his palms.

"What do you think about my shampoo now?" He whispers in my ear moving his hands down my body as I grip his fingers stopping his assault on my body that's got me sweating.

"I love it." I whisper making him laugh as he turns. I turn with him to look at his back when I rub my fingers over his small tattoos and he steps out of the way letting me wash his shampoo out of my hair and replace it with conditioner. I try to reach his hair on his six foot six body and it won't happen so I give up making him laugh at me.

Once I'm done washing he finishes himself and grabs gentle foaming body wash. "Come here." He tells me as he pulls me to him. Then he holds the side of the wall as he drops to his knees in front of me.

"What are you doing?" I ask when he grabs one of the clean wash clothes and wets it in his hand. "Come here." He tells me as I step towards him and put my hands on his shoulders.

"Lift your leg." He tells me as I lift my leg up and he grabs my thigh before lifting my leg over his shoulder and seeing me intimately. He grabs the washcloth and puts some of the gentle wash on it before opening my labia and he starts washing it for me.

I've never been so intimate. And with Jax, it feels so right I want to cry when he's washing me.

"This is the least I can do after what I did to it." He tells me as I laugh and he cleans it while I rub his shoulders. I smile when he's done and pinches my butt cheek before standing up and kissing my lips. I kiss him back and rub my hands down his chest as I smile.

"Jax?" I ask him as he nods. "Will you show me something?" I him as he nods again. That's when I drop to my knees in front of him and grab his member in my hand.

"Will you show me how to do it for you? I've never done this." I whisper to him looking between him and his dick telling him exactly what I want.

"Ry, you don't have to-" he goes to tell me as I cut him off, "I want too though" I answer back rubbing his thighs.

"Show me how." I tell him slipping closer as I take him into my mouth and start kissing his member. I use my tongue to lick and suck him as he almost loses his balance and holds the shower wall.

"Fuck baby. Just like that." He tells me as I nod and keep going. I'm dripping wet in heat by the time he's cumming down my throat holding my head in place. When he's softened I pull away and stand up looking into his eyes as he grabs my head and seals his lips over mine.

"God you're perfect." He whispers to me cutting the shower off while slipping us out as I grin and kiss his lips one single time. I know today's going to end and we won't ever see each other like this again and I want to remember him and know that he's the only man I've been with like this.

Once we towel dry he hands me one of his black tees and a pair of his black briefs as I change into them and he takes a pair of athletic shorts only. We brush our teeth together after I find my old one from upstairs and use it. "Lay down on the bed." I whisper pushing him into the room as I lay him down on the bed.

"Ry, I love this but I'm starving." He tells me as I laugh and shake my head no. "I'm bandaging your foot you big dummy." I tell him as he lays back. I grab the supplies in his bathroom before cleaning his foot up and wrapping new bandages around it. When I'm done I slip ace wraps around it and his boot. I grab his hands lifting him back up on the end of the bed when he grabs my hips under his shirt and kisses me.

"Thank you." He whispers as I nod and rub his chest. Looking over at the nightstand I laugh at the amount of used condoms before cleaning them up by throwing them away and disinfecting the surface.

We walk into the kitchen together to make breakfast when reality hits me in the ass. He's cheating on Poppy right now and he's not phased at all about it. That makes me rethink who he is because I know he wouldn't do that.

"Jax?" I ask after grabbing the pancake mix and setting it on the countertop. "Yeah Ry?" He asks reaching over to hold me into his side while he starts cracking eggs with one hand.

"I'm so sorry." I whisper to him as I break out of his grip and look at him in the eyes. "For what?" He asks as I look down at my hands and back up at him. I'm so sore this morning that standing hurts, and it feels so good but so wrong.

"Making you cheat on her." I tell him as tears whelp in my eyes. He stares at my face for a second before his pales. "Oh my god Ry. I didn't tell you, oh my god." He tells me pulling me into his chest hugging me.

"We broke up yesterday before any of this happened. We just used to have sex, we both knew it didn't mean anything and she's with a guy she met at work. We wished each other the best and she told me to go get you because she knew I liked you. I'm not dating Poppy, is that why?" He asks as I nod immediately and wipe my face.

"You're seriously not with her?" I ask him smiling as he nods immediately and leans down kissing me.

"Baby I wouldn't do that to you or her." He tells me as I nod and hug his chest. He kisses my head as he holds me and calms me right down by rubbing my back in his palm.

"Ry, last night was amazing and this morning." He tells me as I blush mixing the pancake mix.

"On a scale of one to ten." I add as I look over at him and he winks at me. "Eleven baby." He tells me as I grin and step up kissing him.

"Then I'm glad I can do this without feeling bad." I reply back kissing him harder as we make out and forget about breakfast for thirty minutes. Syrup ends up on everything but the pancakes, which turns into another shower, and more fucking, all morning long.