After dinner with Jacob we're snuggled onto the couch watching a sweet romance movie. I'm wearing a sweatshirt and tight little spandex shorts with my hair in a big bun and he's in his usual attire for around the house. He's wearing his boxer shorts and a tee shirt. We're laying on the long sided L-shape of the couch and I'm in between his legs laying onto his chest as he rests on the couch behind me.

This is what I love. I don't want fancy nice dinners except on our anniversary that's coming up in a few weeks actually, and special times like when he got his job promotion. I want this, simple, and just low key, us spending time together.

"He's not a smart man" Jac tells me rubbing my stomach under my hoodie while watching the movie. We're also cuddled under a blanket and I've got M&M's stashed with me since chocolate is all I want. "What do you mean he's in love with her" I tell him as he laughs.

"He shouldn't tell her in a public restaurant that he loves her. What if she doesn't feel the same way?" he asks as I laugh.

"You remember when you first told me that?" I whisper looking back at him. I do, we were sitting together in the library and he was helping me study for pharmacology, which was the hardest class I ever took when I broke down crying. He held me in his arms and told me that no matter if I passed my test or not, he'd still love me. That's the same night I lost my virginity to him my sophomore year.

"That was a good night" he whispers into my ear making me blush as he rubs my stomach. "It was so easy back then." I whisper closing my eyes as I rub his thigh.

"Can I ask you something?" I ask as he rubs my hips. "Yeah" he whispers watching the movie before his phone goes off beside us. He quickly picks it up and smiles reading a text before sitting it down, "Just Edward" he tells me referring to his best friend from college.

"When we have sex, how does it make you feel?" I ask him bluntly as I pause the movie. I turn on his chest and sit up as I straddle his lap and place my hands around his neck. He pulls the blanket around my hips and leans back into the couch with me on his waist as he rubs my hips.

"Where is that coming from?" he asks me as I sit still. "Answer me first" I whisper to him.

"It makes me feel good, I rather enjoy having sex with you." he tells me as I nod an rub his neck.

"Now where is this coming from?" he asks as his phone vibrates again and I snatch it off the couch without reading it and silence it. This conversation is about to be important to me.

"I want to try other stuff" I whisper to him as I stare into his eyes. "Explain" he demands sitting up fully to have this conversation with me.

"I just, we're so plain. I want to try oral sex, and toys, or maybe even handcuffs, something kinky" I tell him blushing as my cheeks set on fire. "Who are you and what did you do with my sweet innocent RJ?" he asks as I push his chest.

"I'm serious" I tell him as he smiles. "I'm good with all of it. I just don't want to push you into it so I've never said anything about it." he tells me as I smile.

"Good, I can't wait" I whisper as I turn back around. "That's all, I'm done now" I tell him as he laughs and kisses the back of my hair.

"I don't know what I'm going to do with you, crazy woman" he whispers into my ear as I smile.

"Well, I mean-, I have a few ideas" I tell him back as he pinches my hip and makes me squeal as we fall back into watching the movie. Or at least I'm watching it as he texts back and forth with Edward. After thirty minutes he moves to get up and use the bathroom as I fall back into the couch.

But he leaves his phone sitting on the coffee table as he walks away. I know I shouldn't touch it and I'm not going to. He's never invaded my privacy that way, and I shouldn't do that to him. Except I do, I reach for his phone and open it with his password before going to his text messages. The name is Edward and that makes me feel better, so I sit his phone back down and lay on the couch.

I knew Jax was lying. I don't have anything to worry about, I hope.

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The next day at work goes expected, and it's fine. It's just fine. There's no random texts from Jax to get me through the day though and I thought I wouldn't miss him but I do. After thinking about how I treated him and how I roughly ended our friendship I know I owe him an apology for it.

So when my lunch break rolls around I find myself driving to his house across town. The gates open, which I don't expect to find but I follow his driveway to the front door. In the driveway is a white SUV with a small parking sticker in the back window but other than that it's regular. I get to the front door and my hands shake before I bring myself to ring the doorbell.

Immediately I feel a little tail across my feet and know it's Bee. "Hi buddy" I whisper leaning down as I pick him up with my jacket zipped making sure not to get my scrubs covered in cat hair as he rubs all over me. A few seconds later the door opens and I see Jax standing there with his arms crossed.

"What are you doing here?" he asks me looking at Bee in my arms as I set him down and he runs into the house.

"I came to apologize and tell you that I'm sorry for how I acted to you. I don't know what your intentions were but I was being selfish and sensitive and that was wrong. I just came to tell you that I'm sorry and I know we can't be friends but I don't want bad blood with you. Your gate was open by the way and I also wanted to tell Bee goodbye. Thanks for everything Jax." I tell him as he stands there with the door open staring at me. He's not wearing a shirt so it's hard to focus on him but I'm trying.

"Thanks Ry, I appreciate it. I'm sorry too, if you're in love with him you know I'll always support you." He tells me as I nod. Then I see a small woman come around the corner in leggings and his tee.

"Jax?" She asks coming up beside him as I feel my heart fall to my ass. I didn't want him, but now that he's taken it hurts me to see. I guess I didn't realize how much I did like him until someone else started dating him.

"Rylee this is Poppy, Poppy this is Rylee." He introduces us as she steps forwards and hugs me. I'm shocked when she smiles at me and steps into Jaxton's side as she holds his bicep.

"Nice to meet you." I tell her as she starts, "Likewise, how do you know Jax?" She asks as I get a good glimpse at her. She's beautiful, she's blonde and I know she's the girl he's been with. I cover my whelping tears as I start, "We're old friends, I just came to tell him I was driving by on my way back to work and noticed his gate wasn't working right. Didn't want him to have strangers coming to his house to take my boy Bee away." I tell her as she smiles.

"Well thanks for letting me know." Jax tells me as I nod and see Bee beside his feet.

"Bye old man, be a good boy." I lean down petting his head as he meows at me and licks my hand. I walk back down the steps and to my car before getting in. I don't cry when I pull out of the driveway and see Jax standing at the door with Poppy on his arm, I cry when she kisses his lips and pulls him into the house with her.

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Jacob's working late, so I'm home cleaning while he's still at the hospital. Right now he's still new, and that means every learning experience the hospital offers he's apart of, which means he's scrubbed in watching surgeries right now and he loves it.

So I'm just cleaning and doing laundry per usual. I go into the kitchen and wash dishes, before starting on chicken Alfredo pasta since I know it's one of his favorites, that along with garlic breadsticks.

Hearing the doorbell buzz from downstairs I walk over and click the speaker, "Delivery for Rylee Jane Parker." The mailman says as I cut on the camera to see him and then buzz him through.

"I'll meet you in the lobby, thanks." I tell him as I take the stairs down. When I get to him he's got a brown cardboard box and gives it to me before going off with his day. I'm curious because I didn't order anything recently and I know Jacob's been better about not spending money.

I grab a knife and cut open the tape of the box before opening it in the kitchen. When I do it's a huge bouquet box of roses. The roses that last for a year in their box. I open it up and look at them to see pink roses in a black box. Who sent me these?

I search before finding the card and open it up. When I do I read the first line, Ry I didn't expect you to come see me but I'm glad you did. I'll always root for you. - Jax

He didn't have to do this. Scratch that he didn't have to do anything because I was a complete bitch to him. I read it over and over again in his hand writing as I rub my fingers over it. I set them on the countertop as I look them over and I know Jacob will be mad if he sees them. So I close the box after taking pictures of them and admiring them, and set it on the bottom self of my nightstand with the card hid in it.

I know those cost a fortune and a half but it's the thought that counts and I love it.

While in the bedroom I grab up the clothes and our pajamas to wash when I grab Jac's spare white coat to bleach clean. He wore out his real one with good quality because he had a big day today and wanted to look professional, which I get. I take it to the laundry room and start a new load of clothes as I feel around in the pockets of his jeans and find loose coins like I always do. I set it in the container I've collected with it all before checking the pockets of one of his grey jackets and finding two pens. Taking his white coat and without thinking twice I look through the pockets of it. I find his notepad with patient notes, his badge clip and more pens as I laugh. This guy and his pens. Finally finding the inside pockets I reach in and find a bright green sticky note as my heart cracks.

I immediately remember what Jax told me as I look down at the note in my palm and open it. In a females handwriting and definitely not Jac's is a phone number with a smiley face that reads, Call me instead of just showing up randomly in the conference room Jac. I'll see you soon, my place?

And tears instantly whelp in my eyes while I hold it and break down.