This can't be happening

This monster of a man can't be my hus..... no, no, no Astagfirullah.

"Bhabhi, Bhai is all yours to look but for now table manner is necessary." Zara mischievously whispered inside my ear.

What did she say?!!!

I choked coz of the morsel which I forgot to chew before, after putting inside my mouth because I was busy pondering over my new found husband's reality.

I was coughing uncontrollably.

" What happen gudiya(doll)?" I heard mumma's voice laced with worry.

I looked at her who was now patting my back. She was looking worriedly at me asking as if everything is fine or not.

"Here." A glass of water was pressed to my lips.

I looked towards the person holding the glass.

It was him.

Why he is doing this?

Oh my...... goodness!!!

Is he pretending to be good in front of our elders?

This is just not happening.

"Drink." His manly voice saturated with seriousness and hidden command brought me back in the present.

"No." I said moving backward to move away from the glass and stood up with a jerk.

My cough was long forgotten story now.

"I'm done, I'm going to sleep now." I said loudly for everyone to listen.

Mumma was looking at me strangely.

What happened to her?!

"Nayab jaan(life), have a little desert at least." Amma was asking me whilst in the process she took out some rasmalai(sweet dish) for me in the small bowl and strode towards me.

Before handing me the bowl she whispered inside my ear with a wink "If you are uncomfortable here eat it in your room."

Is she for real?!!!

She isn't any less then Mumma.

I guess they are long lost sisters.

"Aima accompany her to the room."I heard Amma's order while I was going to my room and after few second I felt one of the servant accompanying me.

'Today's night will be long.'I thought after praying when I slumped down on my bed.

Haroon Samad khan, maybe he is forced into this marriage.Maybe Amma was aware of the truth from the beginning and she probably forced her son to marry me. His cold behavior disclosed the truth anyways.

If for once he would have been interested in me he would probably have tried to contact me or meet me. But he never did this proving, how badly he hates the idea of our marriage.

He surely is in love with someone else.

Why this thought of him loving someone else make me restless.

I can't let myself think this marriage for real otherwise it would be very hard for me to know about his love life because he surely has one.

Shut up!!!!!

I shouted holding my hairs in my both fist to shut those painful thoughts.

I tried to fell asleep.

A little sardonic laugh escaped my mouth thinking that it has always been so easy for me to dive in dreamland as soon as I used to lay down but now it seems like I'm different person now. I ain't my real , careless and childish self anymore.

When I reached haweli, I was welcomed by Amma's and dada jaan's smile radiating face.

But before I could I ask anything I was filled with every bit of information.

Mr and Mrs Farooqui told them about how Nayab ended up with them.

After escaping, Haya Phuppo sold her jewellery which she brought with herself. With those money she took rent a small apartment.

Phuppo knew, that money will not last long. She escaped after planning everything. She brought her degree as well. She started to search for a decent job. Finally she got one in a primary school half kilometer away from her apartment. Samina Hasan Farooki was also teaching there. She found phuppo very naive. They became friends. They started to share their sad stories with each other. Even they started to visit each other's home. Little Nayab was bundle of joy for Samina aunty as well, who wasn't capable to conceive.

One and half year went as usual but after that phuppo was always suffering from fever. She avoided visiting doctors since she wanted to save for her daughter's future. When her fever became her daily friend Samina aunty along with Hasan uncle took her to the hospital. After some tests it was found out that she was suffering from blood cancer and it was her last stage.

She cried a lot that day. She told her each and every secret to Samina aunty whilst crying. She was worried for Nayab. She wanted to visit her father, brother, sister in law and nephew but restrained herself. She thought if her husband find out about Nayab he will fight with her family ro take her back. She had hurt his ego by running away.She didn't want her family to suffer because of her.

When Samina aunty tried to pursue her to at least meet her family, she said she had spent her almost two years of life with him and she knows him very well. He could do anything to satisfy his ego. She took promise from Samina aunty that she will take care of her daughter as her own and will never try to reach her father because he will not be able to tolerate her death information and will blame himself more for her misery. She even in her deathbed thought about everyone related to her.

Her beautiful giggle still rings around me when I'm alone.

He sparkling eyes still wonder before my eyes.

Everyone cried and prayed for her.

When Zara came to know that Nayab is her long lost cousin she was jumping and clapping in happiness. She was ever so ready to meet Nayab as a cousin for the first time but Amma managed to cool her excitement with her famous scary glare saying that Nayab was sleeping and she wouldn't appreciate it if anyone try to disturb her.

I don't know why but I was proud to know her decision. She wasn't any emotional and irrational kind of girl.

I so much wanted to welcome her in the family but couldn't.

Uncle and Aunt Farooqui met me with love and respect and told me to call them as Mumma and Baba like Nayab.

For the first time I looked at her in dining as my wife. It was strange feeling . I couldn't make it out what it was? But it was good.

We were having our dinner when suddenly she started to cough. I looked at her. She was coughing badly with closed eyes. Mumma strode to her and started patting her back.

I also stood up and took a glass of water towards her.

But her reaction.

What does she think of herself?

She denied me!!

I could've given her a piece of my mind if she wouldn't have been my dear phuppo' s daughter.

Once a mannerless is always a mannerless.

I was embarrassed in front of my family and hers as well.

She reacted so irrationally.

She surely does know who am I to her? Her reaction revealed it.

If she is not happy with our nikah, the matter could be solved easily.

But why would she not be happy?

Maybe she was forced into this nikah. If she would've been interested in me she would have at least looked at my pictures because I clearly remember Amma taking my photos to her home.

This is so...... so..... confusing.

I wish I was still a bachelor.

I should talk to her. If she likes someone else I should not be the hurdle in her way.

No.... No.... No...... I can't talk to her at least not about her liking someone. I'm sure she is not gonna spill the beans.

Thinking I dialed my detective friend Anas Rahman.

"Hello, Anas I need some information." I told him as soon as he picked the call.

"Ok, tell me your topic of interest." I heard his smiling voice.

"Nayab Hasan Farooqui." I told him.

"I knew, you were behaving strange from some days. I knew it has to do with some girl. Finally I'm gonna have some fun. I will be the one to enjoy your marriage ceremony to fullest."He was blabbering nuisance.

" Shut up. "I scolded him.

" Ok boss."I heard him.

" I need the information till tomorrow evening. "I told him seriously.

" Bro, give me some more time."He said annoyingly.

When I didn't say anything he continued.

" I will give you the informations in at least 4 days."

" Ok. "I said disconnecting the call since it was useless to argue on that topic because he himself was very much punctual with work matters.

I sighed putting my head on the pillow and covering myself with the blanket.

Would it be easy to let her go