It's been two months since Alaric and I took Nova's virginity. And I will tell you that she is one little freak in the sheets. Some mornings I wake up to her lips or hand around my cock, the same with Alaric. We can't get enough of her, and I'm sure it's the same for her.

Nova is very much wanting to be more active with us. One time she caught Alaric and I being kinky, I tied him to the bed and edged him until he was begging for release. Little did we know there was a certain wolf watching us until we heard her moan. When Alaric and I had gotten over our shock of being seen, Nova had wanted us to do the same to her. Of course me being me and the overprotective bitch I am, I said no and refused to do it.

Her body just seems so fragile I'm scared I'd hurt her. The thought of hurting her in any sort of way frightens me, even if we're being intimate. Alaric tries to console me of these fears saying that Nova will tell us if we're hurting her, that we should, and I quote, try it and see what her limits are.

I'd love to do that. To tie her up, to fuck that girl senseless while Alaric does the same, but fear, worry and the initial thought of harming my mate stops me. Don't get me wrong, I've thought about it, many times, more than I should, and yes, I would like my fantasy to become reality, but I'm okay with not knowing and keeping to what Nova can handle.

"What are you so lost in thought about now?" Alaric smirked at me. He dried his hands with a kitchen towel while he looked at me. Nova and him wanted to make me dinner after a patrol shift I did early hours to thirty minutes ago when I got home.

"Nothing." I sighed.

"Bullshit. Tell me." Alaric said as he slung the towel over his shoulder and leaned on the door frame, crossing his arms and ankles. God he makes me hard even when he doesn't realise it.

"Just thinking." I replied.

"About?" He raises and eyebrow for a moment.

"What Nova caught us doing." I admitted with my cheeks flaming up. "I can't help but want to do it. But I can't."

"Karter, answer me this." Alaric stood in front of me. "Would she be mated to us if she couldn't handle what we like? Would she be mated to us if she couldn't handle our temper tantrums? Or seeing us have sex when she's not home."

"No." I whispered.

"Then we can try. That's all we can do. We stop when she's uncomfortable, we give her extra special after care. She'll know her limits and will tell us what she does and doesn't like. Nova isn't afraid to stand up to us, and she won't tolerate it in bed or anywhere else. All we can do is do what she asks us."

"Yeah. I'm still worried I'd hurt her." I sighed.

"What did I just say?" Alaric gave me a pointed look. I chuckled and pulled him down to kiss me.

"Alaric, Karter." Nova called us. "Dinner."

We both left the room and walked into the kitchen where Nova was just putting the plates on the table. We all sat down, Alaric and I in conversation, but my eyes still looked at Nova. She had her head down while she played with the food on her plate.

"Doll?" I frowned pausing the conversation with Alaric. "What's the matter."

"Nothing." She whispered putting her fork down and wrapping her arms around herself. My frown deepened as she kept her eyes down not looking at me like she always does.

"Baby? What's the matter?" Alaric asked trying to get through to our mate. But like me, all he got was a whispered, 'nothing'. I got up off my seat and kneeled in front of her. All I want is for her to smile again and not have this sad face.

"Nova, remember when we were at the cabin and we said we'd always tell each other if something was wrong?" I asked her getting a nod. "Please doll, tell us what's the matter."

"W-we." She started but stopped.

"It's okay baby. You can tell us." Alaric kneeled next to me, both of us taking a hand of hers in ours.

"When can we have a baby?" She whispered. My frown fell into one of shock. I know Nova has been wanting pups since she was young, but I didn't think it'd be this soon. I mean, we've not long turned eighteen, I didn't see the rush in having pups. I know I want pups, just not now. I'm not exactly father material but I'd do my best. I just really don't think this is the time to have pups. I mean, we haven't been with Alaric that long so there's not rush.

"Why do you ask baby?" Alaric spoke obviously sensing my hesitancy.

"Because, 'cause I want pups." She replied in the same whisper. "I-I, I don't know. Just want pups."

"Nova." I started. "We're not ready to be parents." Knowing Nova, she may want them, but she's not in the right head space for it. And me. I'm no where near ready to be a dad. Okay I'll be able to do it, same with Alaric, we'd be able to do it but it wouldn't be fair on Nova if we did all the work raising the pups because of her mind set. She still sleeps with the teddy my parents gave to her from me when she was born. She couldn't part with the thing even if she wanted to.

"Listen, we can try and have a baby in a few years time okay. Just not now." I told her.

"Please Karter." She begged me with her eyes. "I'll look after pup, you and 'Laric don't have to do anything I promise. Only cuddles and I do it all. I can do it I promise."

"Nova, think for a minute okay." I said. "We're only eighteen. Alaric and I, we're not like you. You might not even be able to get pregnant. We'll wait a couple more years so we're sure."

"I no wanna wait Karter." She frowned. I could see anger in her eyes as tears welled up.

"Doll I think-," I started but was cut off by Alaric.

"We'll sleep on it okay baby. Let's think before we make any decisions." He stated.

"I don't want to wait. Please Alaric, please." She whimpered breaking my heart. But I'm no where near ready to have a baby.

"Nova we're not ready. You have to understand that." I sighed.

"But you'd be demanding me to get pregnant if you were ready and I wasn't. Because that's how it is isn't it? Men get the last say because they think everything is done by there word." She glared at me snatching her hands from mine and Alaric's hold.

"That's not what's going on here. I'd never demand that of you." I spat out standing up just as she did.

"But that's how it would be. You can't deny that."

"I think that's enough you two. Don't you think." Alaric hissed.

"She's making accusations that aren't even true." I argued.

"Because I'm right. Knowing you you'd force it if it was the other way around." Nova growled.

"What did you just say?" I glared at her. "What the fuck did you just say?" I shouted. "Are you stating that I'd rape you to get what I wanted?"

"Yes." She said firmly. "Because that's how men are."

"Grow the fuck up Nova." I shouted with an unamused laugh. "Don't you see what you've just said? Because you can't get what you want, you're accusing me of something beyond something I'd ever do. To anyone. Do you really think I'd do that to you?" My shout got louder with the question.

"Both of you need to quit it now. Before something is said that will hurt one another." Alaric glared at the both of us.

"Sometimes I don't know what you could do to me." Nova muttered. "Sometimes I'm scared you'd hurt me because you've done it to so many people before." She yelled, her cheeks burning red with tears streaming down her cheeks. "Brady, you almost killed him. Me! You've almost hurt me and you have hurt me before Karter. So yes, im saying if this was the other way around you'd hurt me if I told you no."

My face fell as I started at her. As clear as day I could see both anger and fear in Novas eyes as she looked at me. Slowly, one by one tears rolled down my cheeks as we both stared at each other. The day I got angry at Kobe fresh in my mind as if it happened yesterday. The day I pinned my mate to the floor, my hand on her neck bruising her skin.

"I'm scared Karter." Nova sobbed. "I don't want to be but I am. I try not to be but when you get angry I can't help but think you'd hurt me again. You frighten me Karter."

Anger coursed through me. Not at Nova, at myself. I knew I was bad for her. I knew shit like this would happen. I knew she'd eventually see me for the monster I am. Without a word, I turned around and left the kitchen. Theo stood by the door, no emotion on his face other than sympathy.

"Is everyone happy now? She sees me for what I really am. She's scared of me, fucking frightened. I'm done. So fucking done." I spat out before leaving the house. The door slamming behind me.

"Karter!" Theo yelled behind me. But I ignored his calls and didn't turn back.

My clothes shredded as I shifted into my wolf and ran. I just ran until I came to the familiar surroundings of Alaric's cabin. I guess this is it. Nova sees me how everyone else does,

A monster.