Alaric and I held Nova's hands as we walked downstairs. We had only got an hour of sleep after pleasuring Nova, but when she woke up she seemed to have a lot of energy. We went into the kitchen where Ryan, Eli and the boys were sat down eating. Eli having an amused smile on his face, Ryan with the same look while Kobe and Jax looked angry.

"Good morning." Eli smirked.

"Morning." Alaric and I muttered back, sitting down while Nova kissed her fathers cheeks.

"Morning papa, morning dada." She whispered then ran back to me, sitting on my lap.

"Want some breakfast?" Ryan questioned. We all nodded with a smile while nova gave him a cute little grin. After plating up some bacon, scrambled eggs and toast, Ryan put it all in front of us, once again a smirk on his face, the same with Eli. I sat Nova in a chair so she could eat, yet she cuddled up to my side holding Alaric's hand.

"Thanks."

"Thanks dada." Alaric, nova and I all said at the same time.

"So." Eli drawled out. "How was everyone's morning."

I choked on my eggs now knowing why Eli and Ryan are smiling, also why Kobe and Jax look fucked off. Nova whimpered and patted my back while I coughed and Alaric scratched the back of his neck.

"Not good." Kobe spat out.

"I had good morning papa. Karter and, and 'Laric cuddle with me lots. I like cuddles." Nova smiled.

"I bet they did." Jax muttered and rolled his eyes.

"Don't." I sent him a warning look.

"Karter." Alaric shook his head at me, warning me not to start making me roll my eyes. But my eyes gazed down at Nova when she tapped my side.

"No mad at Jax."

"No doll, of course not." I gave her a small smile. She nodded and went back to eating. I took a chug of orange juice to stop me from coughing even more. With that, everyone went silent, the only sound that filled the room was forks clinking on plates.

"Is no one going to talk about what happened this morning?" Kobe growled out, slamming his hand on the table making nova jump.

"Don't do that." I growled deeply wrapping my arms around Nova when she climbed onto my lap. She pulled Alaric into her chair holding his hand so she's close to both of us.

"What? Can't I be angry that you fucked my sister? She doesn't even know what you're doing to her." He glared at me.

"We didn't fuck her." Alaric gave him a glare back. "And even if we did, it's none of your business."

"Yes it is. She's my sister, I don't want you pricks going near her." Kobe growled again.

"She's my mate, not yours. Stop fucking telling us we can't be near her." I growled deeply.

"Kobe, enough. She's not a baby anymore. Nova knows when to stop Karter and Alaric if she wants to." Ryan stated.

"Not when she doesn't understand." He shouts. "How can you two even sit here and not even tell them to stop making Nova into some, slut."

"Don't fucking talk about her like that." I hissed, my fangs extending, Isaiah lunging at Kobe. My hand wrapped around his neck pushing him against the wall. "Don't ever, and I mean ever call my mate a slut."

"Can't help it when you have her moaning like a desperate whore." I fucking lost it. My fist came back, the other holding him against the wall while the other came back and punched him in the face. A crack sounded in the kitchen yet that didn't stop me. My fist pulled back punching him again and again.

"Stop it." Eli yelled and tried to pull me off Kobe but I just pushed him away from me and went back to punching Kobe. Another hand touched my shoulder to which I dropped Kobe and wrapped my hand around their neck tightly pushing them to the floor. Pulling my fist back I went to punch them only to have Alaric hold my hand back.

"Don't, it's Nova." He cried out. I focused on the person under me. Nova laid there, tears rolling down her cheeks as she looked up at me. Fear in her eyes with my fist going to harm her. My hand around her neck immediately left her revealing the red mark I made.

"Doll." I whispered, my eyes going wide. "I'm so sorry."

Nova shifted under me and lunged at my neck. Her canines piercing my skin making me wince. She shifted back and cried next to me. Quickly taking off my T-shirt, I slid it on her body pulling her into my lap holding her close to me.

"I'm so sorry doll, I'm so sorry." I rocked her with Alaric in front of us.

"I told you to stay away from her." Kobe spat out.

"I wouldn't have done it if you didn't aggravate me. Fucking stop, I've had enough of it. You're fucking lucky I don't take nova away from here. She's not a baby anymore, she doesn't need your bullshit. Stop treating her like something she's not." I growled.

"I'll stop treating her like a baby when you stay the fuck away from her." He frowned.

"Not a fucking chance." I growled and stood up keeping Nova close to me. Ryan and Eli stood there looking at Nova with concern. I handed her over to Ryan only to have her cry even more and reach out to me.

"I'll be back later doll, okay. I need you to stay with Alaric and pack for tonight. I'll be back later alright." I told her softly, brushing her hair from her face.

"I go with Karter. No want him to leave." She sobbed.

"You stay here baby. I won't be long." I pecked her lips before leaving.

When I got to the front door Alaric stopped me before I could open it. "What are you doing?"

"I'm going to cool off. I need to get away from here before I kill that bastard." I sighed. "Just keep an eye on Nova please." He nodded and kissed me before going back to our mate.

The door slammed behind me as I left to go home. When I got there, anger washed over me, my breathing came in heavy. My fist connected with the wall creating a hole. A yell of rage sounded as I started throwing everything destroying the house.

I hurt her. I laid a hand on her. I did that, I hurt her, she got hurt because of me. I'm an arsehole, I'm a wanker, I'm a fucking twat. Everything you can think of, that's what I am. I promised I'd never lay a hand on her, that I'd never hurt her and I did just that. The way my hand wrapped around her neck, the redness when I pulled away, the bruise that I know will be noticeable when I see her next. I fucking hate that Kobe gets to me, I hate that he makes me angry because i can't control myself. He angers me to no end and it makes me even more angry.

Why can't I just keep my cool and walk away. I just have to get angry and feel the need to hurt him. Rogue and Isaiah take over needing to hurt him, to make sure he knows that I need Nova and she needs me. Yet they keep on insisting that I stay away from Nova, that I'm no good for her. I can't help but want to rip out their neck.

After a while, I sat in the middle of the living room. The sofas flipped, coffee table broken, tv smashed. Everything in the room smashed and broken. One by one, tears rolled down my cheeks. The anger slowly turned into regret and sadness. I never wanted to hurt Nova, but I did. And now I have to live with that, I have to live knowing I laid a hand on her.

I'm such a fuck up. Maybe she's better without me. Nova shouldn't have a fucking idiot like me. Why can't she have someone who doesn't get angry easily, someone they won't hurt her. Someone like Alaric, calm and collected, that person that won't lay a hand on her.

Why can't I be more like Alaric?