For the last few weeks I've been staying with my dads. Dad, Arlo, has been staying with me, not talking just sitting in silence getting comfort from the one of three people that can give me comfort. The gratefulness I have for them people is indescribable and I wish I could tell them about it, yet I'm not good with talking about my feelings.

Since Nova left I haven't gone to see her. I did message Ryan and Eli but they said to give her some space. No matter what, Nova will always be my number one. There are so many things about her that I could say, the list is so long that it'd take me days just to finish it. I hate being cheesy but when it comes to that small girl I can't help it.

The things she does to me, the things she makes me feel. All of the emotions go through me at one other than ones that are negative. Love, adoration, happiness, lust, oh fuck the lust she makes me feel. I could see her and simply rip off her clothes. It didn't help that she kissed me or made me cup her boob. Everything that girl does makes me coo or want to fuck her, I won't though, I won't be the one to ruin that innocence, it won't be me to do anything with her,

Because I'm not right for her.

So while I got ready for the party, I made sure to dress up, make myself feel good because i know the night won't end well. The thought of tonight kills me, how Nova will hate me and feel betrayed while I'll be ashamed and hateful, nothing I feel towards Nova is negative. All I feel is good and happiness around her but this would make her hate me.

After a long shower, I got dressed into simple black jeans and a white T-shirt that hugged my muscles and defined my six pack nicely. Slipping on a leather jacket, I sprayed some cologne on me knowing it's Nova's favourite. One time for Christmas she got me a gift, the cologne I use, she smelt it and loved it so she got it for me. Ever since she hasn't stopped getting it for me, she just loves it so much. I think that's why she likes hugging me so much or taking it to spray on to herself.

Once I was ready, I looked at myself in the mirror. The confident man looked back at me yet I didn't feel how I looked. Nerves crept up on me knowing tonight is the night and there is no stopping it. No more denial, no more wasting time and certainly no more lies.

With that, I grabbed the present that has been in my wardrobe for months, and left the house after saying goodbye to my family. Walking fast, I made it to the house where loud music filled my ears, the smell of wolfsbane and alcohol filled my nose. When I entered the home, I made sure to mask my scent then made my way to find Nova.

When I did see her, my body froze and I couldn't move. Rogue and Isaiah were edging me on to go to her, but my feet wouldn't move. I was torn. Do I just do it or wait until there is no loud noise and it's just me and her. In the end I moved before she saw me and put her present in her room.

Needing air, I went out back and stood on the decking leaning on the railing. For goddess knows how long stood there for, but it wasn't until i checked the time that I thought it was time. With a deep breath, I unmasked my scent letting it flow through the house.

"You okay Nova?" Mika asked me, worry on her face.

I nodded and sniffed the air. The scent filling my nose, fresh cut wood and a hint of cinnamon. Ignoring the girls, I turn around and walk about to find the source of this mouthwatering scent. Nothing seems familiar about it so if it's my mate, I have no clue who it could be. I just know who it won't be, it won't be Karter.

Walking around, I don't find anyone that sticks out or that Kyra has been drawn to, to be our mate. And that she's only been muttering mate in my head since we caught the scent. Since it wasn't in the house, I decided to check outside, first going to the front of the house where there was only wolves passed out from drinking too much.

Then lastly the back. The garden I grew up in, with decking where dada and papa would sit while me and my brothers would play in the pool, sometimes papa and dada joining in holding my younger brothers. It wasn't until I opened the door did the scent hit me full on.

My eyes darted around the garden, but as soon as my eyes caught on to the body stood there, they didn't leave.

"Mate." Kyra yipped and shouted in my head prancing around happily. The tall male stood there, dark jeans suited him nicely with his leather jacket complimenting his muscles. It wasn't until I noticed the hair and body structure that I knew who it was.

"Y-you lied." I whispered. A deep sigh came from his lips making the tears that formed fall from my eyes.

"I'm not good enough for you baby doll. I'll ruin you, it's not a good match." Karter stated.

"T-that's n-not for you to d-decide on your own." My voice got louder as I spoke.

"Don't you think I know that?" He turned to me. "Nova ever since that day you made me touch you I knew instantly that I wanted to do more, to do things I shouldn't. It was then that I knew and my birthday only confirmed it. Doll I want you so bad and have for a long, long time. I'm just not good enough for you. You are so much more better than me and I'll only ruin you."

"You don't get to choose that karter. You hurt me these weeks when we could have spent it talking, knowing each other in different ways." I cried with my cheeks heating up.

"I'm just trying to look out for you." He muttered.

"I can look out for myself. I have Kyra to help me if I need it." I stood my ground.

"Yeah I know you do. Such a firstly baby." He chuckled.

"I no baby." I growled at him.

"You're my baby, always have and always will be. You're my number one Nova, but I'm not yours."

"Then who is? You can't tell me who is and who isn't. I love you Karter, you my mate no one else." I ran up to him and threw myself into his arms. Like always, he caught me holding me tight to his chest while my arms hugged his neck and legs around his waist.

"I love you to baby doll." Karter whispered to me.

I moved my face from his neck and looked at him. My best friend, my mate and I love him lots. Doing what Kyra did weeks ago, I leaned forward and pressed my lips to his. My cheeks now burning but I didn't stop. Adjusting myself a little, I deepened the kiss moving my lips against his with a little assistance from my wolf.

"I'm not good enough for you." Karter muttered to me pulling away.

"You are." I whispered. "You are the bestest person Karter and you belong to no one but me. Just me and me to you."

"I'm no ones but yours baby doll." He smiled a little before kissing me again. A gentle kiss shared between us not leading to the sex that Mika put on at the sleepover on the film.

"I stay with you tonight?" I asked.

"My home is where you are, I don't care where we are as long as I have you." He replied.

With that, Karter moved me to his side so I was sat on his hip where he carried me out of the house. We stayed silent until we got close to his house where I had to say it.

"I'm sorry I kissed you and left." I whispered not looking at his face.

"I shouldn't have shouted baby. You have nothing to apologise for it's me. I'm so sorry for shouting at you I should have explained that you couldn't just kiss anyone." He sighed. "I'm sorry."

"Why did you say we weren't mates if you knew?"

"I was worried, scared because you're so fragile. I always let you do things so you feel like everyone else our age so didn't feel left out. But I know you are fragile and I got scared that I'd hurt you in so many ways because of who, what i am. I'm a monster Nova, and I'm so scared that I'll harm you."

"I don't care. I know you wouldn't do anything to purposefully hurt me. I love you and I won't let you go."

"I swear it on my life baby doll, that I will try with all my power to not hurt you in any way shape or form. I love you with everything I have and more." Karter said and kissed my head.

"I love you." I lifted my head and connected our lips.

When we got to his house, Karter went inside and up to his room. Needing a shower, I undressed and went up to Karter, confusion came over his face when he saw me stood in front of him naked.

"I want you to join me." I whispered.

"Are you sure?" He asked placing a hand on my cheek. I nodded and Karter took my hand in his leading me to the bathroom.

He undressed then turned the water on. Not being able to keep my eyes on his face, I looked down. Between his legs, a long thick thing, confusion immediately came to my face making me pull a face. A chuckle brought me out of my head making me look at Karter in the eyes.

"What's that?" I pointed.

"That is my, Uh I don't know how to put it doll. It has many things like you have between your legs." He told me.

"My kitty?" I asked.

"Yeah, kind of like that. But there is different names for it." He stated.

"What do I call it?"

"Um, well there's cock, penis, dick, member, uh a few others." Karter answered. "You call it whatever you want."

"I call it your cock?" I asked.

"Yeah baby just not around people. Stuff like this is kept between us two unless someone asks okay. And if you feel comfortable talking about it, and don't feel pressured into saying anything to anyone okay. If they force you, you come to me and I'll deal with it."

"Okay." I nodded.

"Come on doll." Karter whispered and lead me into his shower. He pulled me into his chest where he cuddled me. The water fell down both of us, but the warmth I felt was only from Karter.

I'm just glad he's mine.