I laid in bed like Ive been doing for the past three weeks. Since Karters birthday. It still hurts, it more than hurts because he's not mine and he made that very clear back then. I've not been going to school, dada said I don't have to and papa agreed so they could keep an eye on me. Uncle Theo talked to the headteacher about me leaving early, which of course he couldn't deny his alpha so he agreed.

Mika and Wyatt were annoyed about it because they wanted to have the final year together seeing as they had no choice, and that uncle Theo and aunt Cara told them they had to finish school. Mika will be next alpha so after school, she'll be off to alpha school with Kobe to beta school, for a year. Wyatt wants to train to be a pack warrior so he can be the best to protect his family, friends and his mate then his pups when the time comes.

"Happy birthday bitch." Mika and Wyatt yelled as they barged into my room with Miya behind them. Like usual, my face kept a blank expression while their smiles fell.

"You excited for your party tonight?" Wyatt asked all their smiles returning.

"No, I no wanna party." I sniffled. My voice coming out quiet and cracking from not talking a lot and crying.

"Has Karter still not been yet?" Miya sat in front of me while rubbing my back. I shook my head and closed my eyes not wanting to cry again.

"Nova I don't know what happened, but you need to sort it out. I want my Nova and Karter back, the amazing duo that does everything together." Wyatt sighed.

"We don't do everything together. He has another mate." I shrugged a little opening my eyes. "I just want Karter but he no want me." I cried again.

All three were quick to pull me into a hug as I cried. Mika whispered comforting things to me, like, 'it'll get better' and 'Karter will still love you no matter ehat'. Just hearing his name I'm wanting him here cuddling me not them. I do love Mika, Wyatt and Miya, but they are nothing like Karter.

"It's your birthday Nova, have you got the scent of your mate yet? Maybe they're close by." Wyatt spoke up. I shook my head and hid my face back into his chest.

"We have to go now, but we'll see you later for your party." Mika stated. "Happy birthday little cousin." They all kissed my head with a happy birthday before leaving to go to school.

For most of the morning I laid in bed, listening to my family talk downstairs. That was until dada and papa came up to my room with my brothers. Papa and dada sat next to me so I was between them and Kobe, Jax, Jace, Ethan and Nathaniel sat on my bed.

"Happy birthday little sister." Kobe chuckled as a joke.

"Still older." I pouted making the others laugh.

"Happy birthday princess." Both papa and dada hugged me tightly between them.

"Thank you." I smiled a little. We all just sat in silence with a family hug like we do for everyone's birthday.

"We need to decorate for your party. Wanna help?" Dada asked.

"I no wanna party dada." I whispered.

"How come baby girl? You might find your mate." Papa said.

"I no wanna mate if no Karter." I whimpered. Papa and dada sighed and left me to it. They all wished me a happy birthday and kissed my head before leaving, with papa bringing me some breakfast before leaving me again.

For the rest of the day I stayed in bed doing absolutely nothing. Like usual, all that was on my mind was Karter. Missing the way he'd hold me, he'd comfort me, tell me everything would be okay when I got sad. I miss it all and I just want to have that back, but I know I'm too much of a coward to face him again. I mean I kissed him.

I don't know why my wolf, Kyra, had taken over and did that. But when she gave me control back, I was kissing Karter and really liked it so I didn't stop. But then he started yelling at me, he's never done that before and it just upset me. Not knowing what else to I just ran. I knew he followed me and dada did nasty things to him but I couldn't bring myself to stop it. I just stood there and cried because I just want Karter.

All I want is for him to care for me, him to hold me and tell me he loves me not anyone else. It happened and it's my fault because I couldn't keep my wolf in check and lost my best friend. Mika told me that sometimes it's better to be just friends so then nothing changes and we won't be worried about doing anything, but like I've said, I just want Karter.

Before I knew it, Mika and Miya walked in with bags on their arms. Smiles lingering on their faces while they sat down on my bed. Curiousness came over me as to what the smiles and bags are for but didn't dare ask. I think I want to know but I'm sure I can live my life unknowing.

"We got you a new outfit for tonight. And before you say anything, yes there will be a party and yes you are going. It's the big 1,8 and it's a magical time. You'll find your mate and all that jazz." Mika stated.

"I no wanna do it." I whispered.

"I won't take no for an answer. We have the same bits, body parts and all that. So if I have to shower and dress you myself I won't hesitate. Besides it's nothing I ain't seen before. So do it or I'll make you." She said with a sly smile and a little growl.

"Mika." I whined.

"Come on babes, what's the harm in showing your face for an hour then coming back up here." Miya joined in. "Okay how about this. If you don't want to be there after an hour I will let you come back here and I will guard your room until the party's over."

I took a deep breath through my nose and agreed. Getting up, we all head to the bathroom so I can shower. Mika and Miya said they'd already had a shower at Mika's house so they could do their makeup and get their clothes on. Like always, Mika guided me on how to shave, she never did it for me, only when I couldn't be bothered and it was just my legs not anywhere else. And she's been helping me bath since I was little so there really isn't anything she hasn't seen before, same with me and her body.

Once I was done in the shower, I was forced down on a chair while the female alpha and Luna did my make up and hair. Miya did my hair which felt nice, she was nice and calm with it but also trough but not enough to hurt me. After a lot of work, my face looked beautiful, not caked like some girls at school, and my hair went down my back in waves, a little like my usual curls but a little curlier since Miya used a curling wand.

After that, I got into my outfit. They got me a nice baby blue dress that stopped at the top of my knee and had spaghetti straps. My cleavage wasn't shown a lot but enough for people to see, yet even then it didn't make me uncomfortable. Not like the mates who had their dresses stop at mid thigh and their boobs spilling over the top, but they did look amazing.

Downstairs I head music playing and people shouting over the music. I knew papa and dada had taken the younger boys to the grandfathers for the night while Kobe and Jax stayed to watch the house and me, but enjoy the party as well.

Mika, Miya and I all went downstairs to join in on the fun. As soon as people saw us, they started cheering at me and saying happy birthday which made me look down and blush cover my cheeks. A smile of gratefulness came over me that everyone turned up for my birthday.

"Alright birthday girl, get this down ya." Wyatt smiled handing me a cup. I sniffed it pulling a face but drinking it anyway. A burn went down my throat but left as soon as it came. Everything cheered again as soon as I pulled the cup away from my lips making me laugh.

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY NOVA!!!"

After a while, I sat on the sofa with a drink. Most wolves drunk from adding a little wolfsbane into their drinks. But I carried on drinking normal alcohol since it doesn't get wolves drunk, not normal human alcohol anyway. But to get drunk we add a little wolfsbane into the drink which get the pack going.

Getting bored, I go to find Miya and mika to say I want to go back to my room. I'm so grateful for them, but Miya did say after an hour if I don't like it then I can go back to bed. When I found them, I headed straight to them so I could say something. But before I could say something, I stopped in my tracks in front of them.

"You okay Nova?" Mika asked me, worry on her face.

I nodded and sniffed the air.