I sat still on the chair, take my cigarette and exhaled. Damn. I narrowed my eyes as I tried to relax my body.

Being Khun No’s bodyguard is either getting some emotional damage or physical injury.

He never gets tired! Khun No is energetic that I cannot even imagine on where he is getting that energy. It seems like his body has its own different kind of cells that normal ones do not have.

I watched Pol sat on the opposite chair wiping his sweat.

Khun No just made him run for thirty times starting from the third floor of the mansion until the first floor in repeat. He said that it is for Pol’s leg muscles.

No. It is like choosing the best way to die in cramps.

“Are you still fine?” I asked and laugh at him.

“I’m dying.” He responded that made me laugh loud.

“Pete.” Arm called my name and the moment I saw him seriously looking at me, I sat properly.

“What’s up?”

He fixed his eyeglass, stares at me.

Do you even have a plan to blink?

“Don’t you think it is weird?”

Pol and I just look at each other.

“Weird?”

The three of us went closer to each other, trying to keep this gossip for the three of us.

If Khun No is here, then this will never be a secret anymore. He will definitely talks about it that even the cockroaches in this mansion will hear every pronunciation.

“Khun Vegas.” Arm said. “Don’t you think he is behaving weirdly?”

I lay my back on the chair, look up and think about it.

Khun Vegas.

I nodded. “Yeah. He seems like he doesn’t know what’s happening.”

Yesterday, when he hugged me- I was in complete shock on what he did.

Even his face is very vivid in my memory.

“And he keeps talking about you!” Pol commented and pointed at me.

I tilt my head a little, thinking about his sudden behavior.

“I don’t really have any idea. Maybe he remembers someone when he looks at me.”

That is the only reason I can think. Maybe I resemble someone that is why he is in complete shock.

Knowing that Khun Vegas had a high fever yesterday, his consciousness is probably affected.

“I heard from Khun Kinn that Khun Vegas is referring to you.”

“To me?” I reacted. “Why all of a sudden?”

I never saw Khun Vegas looking at me that much. He isn’t that type of person who will take his time to talk to a mere bodyguard like me.

It will be more convincing if he approaches Porsche because he once set him as a target but me?

Who am I for Khun Vegas to look for? I don’t play any important role in his life.

Approaching me will also not benefit him.

I am only Pete, the head bodyguard of Khun No.

“That is the point.” Arm eagerly said. “He keeps insisting that you both have some sort of connection but we all know that you don’t have.”

“Maybe that’s the result of being in a coma.” Pol said which I agree.

“Let it be.” I told the two. “Maybe it’s just a mistake and Khun Vegas will not care that much.”

The two went silent.

However, there is a side of me that remembers his face. What happened yesterday keeps flashing back on my mind.

The way he looks at me was unexplainable. That is the first time I saw how soft his dark eyes were.

Khun Vegas has this sharp aura, mature and intimidating but what I saw yesterday is different. His eyes were sparkling that I cannot distinguish if it’s because of happiness or the tears in his eyes.

I can also hear the desperation in his voice that I pity him.

I know that Khun Vegas is a tricky person… yeah, manipulative one that we are warned not to trust him too much. However there are ‘but’s’. He sounds so sincere yesterday and the longing in his voice while calling me is something I cannot even explain.

It makes my heart ache with no particular reason.

What is happening, Khun Vegas?

“Pete.” I heard Khun Korn called my name that I almost have a heart attack.

Did he hear us gossiping about Khun Vegas? I hope not.

“Yes, Khun Korn?” I asked and greeted him.

“I have a visitor today. Can you wait for him outside and guide him to my office?”

“Yes, Khun Korn.”

I gave a signal to both of my friends that I will be leaving and they only responded with a simple nod.

I went near the entrance of the mansion; fix my hair and suit, trying to look normal. I didn’t even have to wait longer since he arrived.

A man that seems to be in the same age as me or a little bit older arrived. Wearing a nice silver colored suit, eyeglass and the hair is neat. Wow. So cool.

“Good morning.” I greeted with a smile.

I thought he will be intimidating but he also responds with a smile.

“This way, Khun.”

I don’t know his name so I just address him with Khun.

“Is Khun Korn already here?” He asked me in a calm voice.

“Yes. He is waiting for you.”

I focus on the hallway because he has been looking at me for too long.

Khun, if you don’t want to trip and embarrass yourself please don’t look at me. With my peripheral vision, I caught him smiling while taking a glance on me.

Do I look ugly?

“This is his office, Khun…” I pause for a while that he immediately get what I mean.

He extended his hand with a friendly smile. Who am I to reject it?

“What is your name?”

“Pete. Khun No’s head bodyguard.” I introduce myself and shake his hand.

“I’m White. You can just call me Phi White.” He responded and proceeds to meet Khun Korn.

Phi White? He looks so kind and cool!

As long as Pete is alive… I am okay with it.

He is the only concern I have. Knowing that he is doing well, unharmed, living the life he used to be then I will not protest.

If forgetting about what we have is equal to see him being happy then I will accept it. If not having him means him being alive then it is probably the best choice.

Whatever it takes just to see him alive and happy is fine with me. I am not wishing for too much. This is the life Pete supposed to have if I just didn’t interfere and ruin his life.

My love, Pete, is back to his first family. It is also a relief because I know that he will be living fine.

His life is probably the happiest without me.

I am not that stupid to realize on where this is going to be. Kinn had Porsche, I also found out that Kim had Porche’ but I lost Pete.

In this world where I am in, I never had him in the first place.

Whatever happens before exactly happened in this world except for our story.

Never did Pete and I cross each other’s paths and chose to take the same road like what we did. In this world, he remains as the most loyal head bodyguard and me as Khun Vegas.

In this world, I am not his Vegas and he isn’t mine.

The Pete in this world didn’t experience all of the cruel and disgusting stuffs I did. He didn’t experience to be tortured or belittled. He remains as the bodyguard without having to stress and be confused because of me. His shine and freedom wasn’t taken away unlike what he experienced in the other dimension.

The Pete in this world is happier. He didn’t have to suffer because of me. There is no Vegas who enters his world and ruin it.

That’s probably enough.

But…but it doesn’t mean I will give up.

I am willing to do everything just for him to love me again. I don’t care what will happen. I am going to have Pete back to me.

I promise to fix everything, to be stronger so that I can protect him. I will be better for him and will do my best just to have him back.

It doesn’t matter on what will happen.

Whatever he feels towards me at this moment, I will still make sure that I will have him.

Because for me, I don’t really give a damn on what kind of Pete is in front of me or what kind of person he is that I will meet.

I am willing to love every version of him that exists.

“Khun Vegas, someone wants to talk to you.” Nop spoke.

I close the book I am reading. “Who?”

“A former bodyguard of Khun Kan. He said that his name is Win.”

My eyes widened when I heard that name. He is also alive in this world?

“Let him enter.”

If Pete is alive then probably Win and the rest that we had encountered are also alive. Win died because someone murdered him after giving me those folders that includes the information of Pete’s mother.

“Good morning, Khun Vegas.”

I stare at him blankly, pointed the vacant chair and nodded on him.

How weird it is to face someone that you knew is already dead on the other side. The same face, the same well-built body and the same way on how he holds his tobacco.

“What is your intention?” I calmly ask.

“I heard that Khun Kan is dead.” The same statement.

I nodded. “Why are you here?”

“I will be leaving for good now, Khun Vegas.”

“For your daughter’s graduation?” I smirked as I cut off his words.

“How did you know?”

You told me yourself.

“Please tell me your intention.”

My eyes darted on the two folders he placed on the table that made me sit properly.

These familiar red and green folders start the fucking chaos.

“I will be leaving for good so I will also leave this information for you, Khun Vegas.”

“You may now leave.” I said as I grab the folders.

Seeing these folders just made my blood boil in anger. These fucking folders!

Win seems to be confused. “The green one consist of people your father…”

“I know. I know.” I impatiently told him. ”I am aware.”

He then bows his head. “I will be leaving Khun Vegas.”

“Win.” I called his name. “Take care.”

Make sure that you made it alive because the last time you handed me this, you didn’t had the chance to attend your daughter’s graduation.

I scan the red folder, looking for someone.

I saw the same photos, the same written information and even Win’s hand written notes are included. It is the same as it was.

I struggle to find her, trying to check every page until I came to the very last page and I didn't saw her.

What the fuck!

There is no record of Pam Saengtham- Pete's mother.

She's supposed to be included here!

What does it mean?