I kissed her forehead and carefully moved away, I put my pillow as a replacement and I can't help but smile when she sniffed the pillow first before hugging it. She always says that she loves my scent and she can easily recognize it. I went to my office and Enzo is sitting on the couch waiting for me. He handed off the files I asked from him.

It's the car accident file. She was almost beaten to death by that asshole, she also had severe genital injuries. I ripped the paper to pieces and threw everything on my desk. Enzo flinched and bowed his head, avoiding my gaze.

"Let everyone know that if they will not cut their ties with the brothers, I will treat them as my enemy too. Cancel all our plans for the next few weeks, We will plan and raid all of their transactions and warehouse. Double the training of all our men. Lily and I will join you in your self defense class tomorrow." I commanded.

"Yes Don." Enzo swallowed hard. He stared at me for a while and picked up all the things on the floor, "Did you guys have a fight again? I thought you guys already made up because you were in a good mood earlier." he cautiously asked.

"We are okay. Lily is sleeping peacefully on our bed." I closed my eyes and massaged my temples. My entire body is shaking from anger, I badly want to just go wherever they are hiding and skin him alive but I need to be smart and put Lily's safety as my priority.

"Is it about the talk? Was it that bad?" his eyes widened and pointed at the pieces of paper on the floor. "Did he plan that car crash to hurt Lily?"

"Did you check the file? I told you to not look and erase all the copies of it right?" I glared at him.

"No, I did not look. I just assumed because you asked for the file after you had a talk with her." he shook his head and raised his hand for defeat.

"I don't want you to ask any question about this again. You're dismissed. We have a long day tomorrow and your wounds are not yet healed." I sigh, it's not even close to what that fcking asshole did. I want to torture someone right now to release all this anger but sleeping beside Lily is more important than this.

Salvy spread strawberry jam on my toast and gave it to me. I took it and happily ate it. He also poured coffee on my cup and put some more toast on my plate before he started eating.

He fixed the pillow on my back to make sure I'm comfortable. "My angioletto you need to talk to William. He is worried about you, you don't have to tell him everything but try to explain to him what happened." he softly said.

I nod my head, I love having breakfast in bed with Salvy but I know I need to talk to William. I know he is feeling guilty, I don't blame him on what happened to me

Salvy held my hand and led me to the back of the mansion. William and Andrea were sitting on a bench. I frowned when I saw William's state, there were bags under his eyes and he looked tired. He did not join us last night for dinner and I know that he was purposely avoiding me.

"Talk to him. I'm right here when you need me." Salvy smiled at me and called Andrea so that we can be alone.

I sat beside him and he avoided my gaze. I awkwardly rest my head on his shoulder, I rarely see him like this and this is the first time that I'm the reason for it. "It's neither of us fault and I never blame you for it." I said.

"But I was the one who asked you to date me. Why didn't I notice it? I should have known. I always proudly say that I'm your brother but I did not do anything. All your nightmare was because of him? Did he always abuse you? I'm so useless. You endure all of this alo-" I grabbed his shoulder to interrupt him. I stood up and headbutt him.

"What the fck Lily Fiore?" he winced and checked my head for any bumps.

"Don't ever say that you're useless. I intentionally hid it from you and it took me a while to realize that I should not have done it. You're the best brother for me. All of this is in the past now. I might not be able to tell you in detail what happened with me and Matteo right now but as soon as I'm ready to share it, I'll tell you everything." I hugged him and after a few minutes he hugged me back.

"Okay, Just promise me one more thing. Starting today, you are not allowed to hide anything from me. If you ever feel that you're in danger or if anyone is trying to hurt you or if you just want to talk to someone. I'm here. I will always be here for you, Okay?" He pats my head and my heart relaxes when I see his smiling face again.

I nodded my head and remembered something. "I can ask you anything too, right?" I smirked.

He nods his head. "Are you and Enzo dating? Who is the top?" I eagerly asked.

"Not too loud. That horndog has his eyes and ears everywhere but to answer your question nothing happened yet." He covered my mouth and looked around, I also looked around us. No one is in the garden, Salvy really gave us some alone time to talk.

I removed his hand and giggled. "Yet? So you like him? I think you will be the bottom, I have a feeling that Italian men have big ding dongs." The image of Salvy laying on my bed covered in medical cream flashed in my head.

He eyed me suspiciously. "How did you know that Italian men have big packages?" his eyes widened. "Did you let him poke you?" he asked in disgust.

"Poke? I don't think Salvy likes poking people. He usually call people by their name if he wants to get their attention." I confusedly answered. I mean I don't imagine Salvy poking people's shoulder, he is too straight forward for that.

He uncontrollably laughs. "So that's a no." he says in between his laugh. I rolled my eyes and stood up, I can't believe I was worried about him.

Salvy immediately appeared out from nowhere and pulled me on his side. Andrea and Enzo followed behind him. "How did it go?" He asked.

I gave him a thumbs up and he smiled at me. "Salvy, do you like poking people? Because William asked if I had let you poke me" I whispered but I guessed they all heard it. William coughed while Andrea and Enzo tried to hold their laugh.

Salvy looked embarrassed for a few seconds and covered his expression with his usual poker face. "Why was he asking that? If he is afraid of Enzo poking him?" he smirked.

William blushed and Enzo laughed loudly. I looked at Andrea for answers, What is going on? She sighed and pulled out her phone from her shorts waistband. She showed her phone to me with the definition of poke. I hid behind Andrea when I saw it. It means sex, I asked Salvy if he likes having sex.

Salvy pulled me close to him, he was trying his best not to laugh on my ignorance. I pout and ignore him. "Do you want me to poke you my angioletto?" he seductively whispered and licked my ear. My entire face and neck blushed. I unconsciously held my breath and he laughed. "I'll be patiently waiting for you to let me poke you." He nibbled my ear and slowly stroked my spine, sending shivers to my body.

"All right love birds. Let's start the training. Before all the ants in the garden crawl on your bodies." Andrea rolled her eyes and put her things on the bench. I nod and clap my hand. This is the first time I'll be training for self defense, I'll be so good at it.

I'm currently being carried by Salvy to our room after training. My entire body hurts, why am I so weak.

"You're not weak, you're just not used to it." Salvy chuckled and kissed my forehead.

Did I say it out loud? I need to stop embarrassing myself in front of him. He tried to lay me down on the bed but I stopped him. "I'm s-still sweaty. I w-want to take a sh-shower first." I shyly say.

"Do you want me to help you clean up?" he smirked and his fingers played with the hem of my shirt. I blushed and my heart did some weird flipping.

"I a-uh eer." I stuttered, my mind went blank. I have this urge to just give in and let him "poke" me but I also have this urge to run away from him.

He kissed my nose. "I told you, I will not do anything until you're ready. I'll prepare a bath for you." he put me down on a chair and went to the bathroom.

I hold my chest to calm my heart and soul. I never enjoyed sex, I never even experience normal sex. I only have seen how a normal sex suppose to be in porn. This is the first time I feel so aroused for someone and I don't know what to do. What if he will hate me if he finds out that I don't even have any experience on how lovers have sex? What if I can't satisfy him? What if I'm not enough? After all, I've already been used and worn out by Matteo. Is he going to leave me? Or get someone else to satisfy him?

An image of Salvy kissing someone else popped in my head, I felt a painful sting in my heart and I swallowed a lump on my throat. Salvy came out of the bathroom and worriedly looked at me. "You look pale? I shouldn't have asked you to train today. I'm sorry." he said and hugged me.

"I-I'm okay." I smiled. He kissed my forehead and helped me stand up. I have to get better. I love Salvy and I will not give him to anyone else.