"Thanks uncle"I thank my uncle as me and my boyfriend get off from my car. Today marks my first month of class in college,my boyfriend is the head hazer in the third-year hazing team. It's been hard trying to adjust to the useless Sotus system they force us to follow.To make things worse,as we walked I tried holding his hand but he avoided it.Come to think of it,he's been avoiding any intimate contact with me ever since the first day. He talked to me about not showing any affection in public,so I had to listen. But of course,my lover radar is always on and I can't help but not to take care of him and look out for him,which annoys him. I tried holding his hand again but this time he just glared at me"What did I say about holding my hand.And remember,P'Krist.Not Krist,not teeruk not anything, P'Krist"He says and I simply looked down and ignored him the rest of the walk.

When we arrived at the canteen we separated ways as he had a hazing team meeting and I walked to where my friends we're. "Ai Singto. How was today?"One of my friends,P'Toptap,who was actually in Krist's class, asks and I shake my head. "Same as always"I say and they frowned. "I saw Singto try to hold P'Krist's hand but he jerked it away"Oaujun says and I frowned again. "It feels like as if those 3 years between you two we're thrown into the trash."P'Toptap says and I did my best not to cry. "Hoi,phaaw laew. Hey,that's enough. He doesn't need to hear those words this early"New says and I silently thank him. I appreciated what he did.Not that I was bothered by what they said,I mean in a way I was but not that it was a big deal, but still, I really didn't need to hear them say those.

They kept talking about alot of stuff but I remained silent. Then I decided to go up to the library and borrow some books since we didn't have any morning class. When I arrived at the library, I searched for the books I needed and brought them to the librarian's desk. "Sawadee khap. I would like to borrow thse books, I'll be returning them after classes"I say and the librarian smiles at me. "You're always borrowing books Nong Sing"She says and I just nodded. She then gave me a paper that I would have to return along with the books later. "Khop khun mahk na Khun Rina"I say and she smiles at me as I put the books in my bag. Then as I was going down the stairs my vision suddenly started to darken. I stopped walking and stayed there for a while but my head started throbbing, I felt dizzy.

Then suddenly I felt a strong impact on my head that sent me rolling down the remaining 7 steps and all I heard was "Singto!Stay with me"before I completely lost conciousness

TIME SKIP

"Ugh. I don't know what happened and why you ended up here"I suddenly hear a voice I knew too well. I opened my eyes and saw that I was in the school clinic. And the guy speaking was no other than my non-existent boyfriend P'Krist. But I pretended that I was still sleeping so I ever so slightly turned around to face him, but ofcourse my eyes we're closed. "Whoever sent you here,that person's gonna pay for hurting my lion. No one can hurt my lion like this"He says. I suddenly forgot why I was sulking and sad the moment I heard his voice and I tried my best to conceal my smile. He never shows any affection,it was always me.But when he does, I feel like my heart'll beat out of my chest and my face will explode,and I was feeling that today especially when he uses the word 'my'.

"But, I'm glad the nurse said you will be ok.Just rest, I'll be here"He says carressing my face with his thumb. Then I heard a sniff.WAS HE CRYING? How I wish I could open my eyes to see him crying but I needed to keep up the act to hear what he'd say. "I'm sorry I just arrived. I 'm sorry I wasn't there when Day brought you here. I wish it was me who brought you here. I wish I didn't act the way I did earlier, I would've been with you and this wouldn't have happened. It should be me lying there"He says while hugging me. 'I would take a bullet for you and not regret a single thing', I think to myself

"Just wake up already,please?"He says and a thought popped into my head if he would just say I love you."I love you"BINGO. "I love you too"I say pulling him onto the bed with me. "Hoi!You we're awake the whole time!How much did you hear?"He says and I pretended to think. "From you wondering what happened and how I got here until you saying you love me"I say and he blushes."Yuck,who loves you?"He says staring at me and I point at him. "Pssh. Me? Love you? Nah"He says while getting off the bed and sitting on the floor next to the bed. "What happened?"He asked and I laughed. "Why?Are you worrying for me?"I tease him and he stands up and pretended to leave."Hoi!I'm just kidding"We both laugh

"I don't know how it happened ok?I was going down the stairs from borrowing some books in the library then I suddenly felt quite dizzy and my vision started to darken so ofcourse I stopped walking down the stairs. Then I don't know,something like a ball hit the back of my head and I fell the last remaining steps. So I lost conciousness and woke up to you crying"I say and he just glared at me for a few seconds before laughing. "But how did you know Day brought me here?"I say. "Well"

FLASHBACK

When Day saw Singto fall down the stairs he immediately ran to him and since the boy still had his eyes open, he said "Singto!Stay with me!"But the boy's eyes dropped closed. He tried waking the boy up but he wouldn't budge. He asked his friend Ren to help him carry Singto to the clinic and he asked his other friend Pleum to find Krist. Pleum nodded and immediately started running to where Krist would most likely be, at the auditorium preparing for the freshman gathering after class. "Sawadee khap"He says greeting his seniors and he did the Wai as his seniors did the same. "Sawadee. What are you doing here?"One of the seniors approach and ask him. "I'm looking for P'Krist. Is he here?"he asked but the seniors shook their heads. "We tried calling him just now, he didn't answer"One of them says and he nodds. "Try checking the old school building behind the school"Another says and he thanks them before running out the room

When he arrived at the old school building he was panting. He felt like as if he ran from Earth to Mars. He looked around and spotted Krist under the shade of the old tree,reading a book. "P'Krist!"He calls out,running to the senior and tapping on his shoulder. "Oh,Sawadee khap 0304"The senior greets and they do the Wai to each other. "What's wrong?"Krist asks and the younger informs the older that his lover had fell 7 steps down and had lost conciousness. Krist was alarmed and began running to the clinic while Pleum stayed behind for a while to rest and catch his breath before running to the clinic.

"Where is he?"Krist says,barging into the clinic and immediately ran to where his boyfriend was. Singto had a bandage wrapped around his head and the doctor carefully took it off. The doctor left,telling Krist that Singto is ok. He just needed to rest for abit and asked Krist to wipe down Singto's arms,chest and legs with the cloth that was soaked in warm water. And He did,singing their theme song "Je Dai Mai Leum Gun"as he did it,filling his mind with the memory of Singto singing it and winning the singing contest back in highschool.

END OF FLASHBACK

"Oh ok"I said to myself while smiling at Krist. "What are you smiling at?"He asks and I just shake my head. "Khop khun na P'Krist. Thank you P'Krist. For taking care of me"I say kissing his hand which he immediately pulled away. "Yuck, I had no other choice"he says obviously blushing but I pretended not to see it and just chuckled at him. Then there it is,that smile and laugh that makes me fall in deeper than I already have. It's like a botomless pitt,you just keep falling-Even when you feel like you've fallen super deep already,you still keep falling-Sometimes,even after a whole day of negativity,just one smile from him can take all that stress away. After being mad at him for a whole day,just one smile and KABOOM. I forget why I was mad in the first place. Yes, thats how Bright Vachirawhipped I am for this boi

"Krist!"We hear a voice from the door and Krist immediately acted like as if something had fallen and he was just going to sit back down while I closed my eyes. "Yes?Is it time for the freshman gathering?"Wait what? What time was it?"Are you sick or something?We haven't even had lunch and freshmen gathering start after class"It was P'Knot,P'Krist's classmate."Oh yeah right. Sorry,I was here with him"He says and I slowly opened my eyes and pretended like as if my eyes are adjusting to the light."Oh,sawadee khap P'Knot"I say doing the Wai and he simply nodded. "Oh,Wife duties?"He teased and we laughed while Krist glared at us. "Yut diiao ni na.Stop right there"He says so we both stop laughing. "Dai. Fine"I say pouting and Krist just smiles at me. "Oho, I feel like I'm third wheeling here. Anyway Singto, if you're ok now some 4th year senior from the faculty of Theater Arts said she wants to talk to you"P'Knot says but I don't want to leave the bed. "I don't feel ok yet,I think I should rest. Who is she anyway?"I say sitting up and drinking some water

"I can't remembe-Oh!It's P'Prim!I can just tell her you're not feeling well yet"He says and I immediately swallow my water and return the bottle cap. "Mai pen rai. It's ok, I can go. I'm alright now see?"I say immediately standing up,which caused me to become quite dizzy at first but I got over it. "Tell her I'm coming"I say and thankfully I was in my uniform so I simply slipped in to the slippers we we're allowed to wear so that we don't stress our feet to much and just ran to the door. "Diiao. Wait, you don't even know where she is"P'Krist says,also getting on his feet,at the realization I just laugh and facepalmed myself. "Shes at the canteen. Don't worry about it,we'll tell the nurse"P'Knot says and I nodd before rushing out the door.

KRIST POV

Why was he in such a hurry to meet this Prim girl? He didn't want to at first but when he heard the name he seemed so excited. His eyes freakin' sparkled! Why am I so bothered? No, I'm not bothered. And no, I'm not jealous.....I'm just concerned. Damn right I am. But who is this Prim girl anyway.."Ai Knot, who's P'Prim?"I ask him and Knot just laughs at me. "She's Nanon,the 3rd year's Girlfriend"he says and I suddenly let out a breath of relief. Shia,why am I so relieved?It's not like I was stressed out in the first place....Fine,yes I'm jealous and yes I was stressed out. DON'T JUDGE ME OK? What would you do if your boyfriend looked so happy when he heard a girls name and even though he wasn't well he freakin ran to meet her? Who am I kidding, you wouldn't understand. Singto isn't your boyfriend

"Well,I'll get going now"Knot says,I follow him and we leave the room. I didn't know where I was going but my feet we're leading me to the canteen. And I wish they didn't. When I got there, there he was. The love of my life,hugging his so called "Senior" with a huge ass smile in his face,they looked like they we're having so much fun.With no other words I left.

SINGTO POV

"P'Prim!"I shout out and ran to her as my long and curly haired senior turned around to face me,with the same smile I had. "Nong Singto!"She says as we hug each other tightly. "Kit teung mahk!I missed you so much"She says as we break the hug."By the way, this is my girlfriend Love Pattranite Limpatiyakorn" And I smiled while doing the Wai to her."Oho.I guess pretty girls have to stick together huh?"I tease and they just laugh. "Why did you call for me?"I ask and they look at each other. "Well, we we're tasked to interview a freshman and since I was uncomfortable with asking a random freshman,I just thought about you"She says and I smile. "Oh,ok P.What is it about?"I ask and the conversation dragged on as she explained what the survey was for,me answering the survey questions and we chitchatted for a while then finally took a lot of pictures together

"That was fun"P'Love says and we just laugh. It's been awhile since I've had a nice laugh with P'Prim. We we're childhood bestfriends but we lost all connections when she and her family moved to Chiangmai when we we're 7.11 years later we are still bestfriends and it feels like she hasn't left,nothing has changed. We still have that relationship bestfriends have after how many years."Well, we have to go now. It was nice seeing you again"P'Prim says and I smiled while hugging P'Love and then her.I thought I saw P'Krist pass by,but what would he be doing here?The way to his classroom,from the clinic doesn't pass by the canteen so I shrugged it off. But the longer I shrugged it off,the more it bothered me.But why? My Krist senses were tinkling. Something was wrong, but what?

I tried calling him but he wouldn't answer. I tried several times already,but he wouldn't answer. I tried texting him,he's seen it but he hasn't answered. He probably wouldn't answer anytime soon. I decided to check his classroom,the auditorium,the basketball court,the clinic,the old tree behind the school,the hazer office and the principal's office,but he wasn't in either of those places. If I was Krist and something was wrong,where would I go to clear my head and get some fresh air?Then it hit me. I began running up the stairs to the fourth floor and climbed up the few stairs going up to the rooftop.When I softly opened the door,there he was. Sitting on the edge of the little porch thing. I walked toward him quietly and grabbed his waist to make sure he wouldn't fall. "Hoi!Singto! Don't scare me like that"He says and I simply sat on the chair,hugged him from behind and rest my chin on his shoulder.

"Why are you hugging me?I don't hug people who's hugged someone else"He says trying to break free from my grip but I held him tighter in place. "Don't even try"I say and he just gives up,right there on the spot."Don't even try to resist.I know you like it deep down"I say and I saw him smile for a second."What's the matter?Why wouldn't you answer my calls? And why are you up here crying?"I say and he sighs. "It's nothing. I'm perfectly fine"He says and I simply pout. He always answers my calls,no matter how busy he is. But now,out of the blue he just ignores them?That screams "something is definately wrong" to me.And him sighing but staying silent?Is another red flag.Gosh,when I get mad you know exactly what the reason is,but hen he's mad you have absolutely no idea what you did wrong. The downsides of having a Krist Perawat Sangpotirat as your boyfriend

"Come on.Talk to me"I say but he breaks free from my grip and walks away.Great,just great. He's being Arthit from that one BL series we watched. I had no choice,so I simply sat on the chair thinking to myself,what the heck did I do wrong?I didn't show any direct affection in front of people,I didn't address him as teeruk(darling)either,I also didn't secretly bring the huge KristSingto album like I usually would. I traced back to the time we got here.

1.I tried holding his hand. He didn't seem mad though?2.I talked with my friends. Nothing new3.I borrowed books from the library.Like I always do4.I fainted and was brought to the hospital. He seemed fine?He even talked sweetly5.P'Knot arrived and told me about P'Prim so I went to her. She's me senior, how can't I go?6.I saw P'Prim and P'Love. Had a great time with them,hugged her and left.

Krist got mad at me a little while after I met with P'Prim and P'Love.Could he be mad about me meeting up with them? I've met with alot of male and female seniors the entire week and he didn't seem bothered for and entire year until now. Was it because I met with P'Prim?But like I said, I've met with a lot of male and female seniors.They never bothered him,Why P'Prim and P'Love?They're dating,sure he doesn't know that but-"No. Could it-But it can't be. Is he jealous?"Shia" I swear at the realization-but ofcourse I smacked my mouth after-I began running down stairs and I'm gonna be looking for him. I so don't want to sleep at the couch tonight,it's fricking cold and lonely down there.

"P'Krist!"I ran to the table where he and his friends would usually sit. I didn't care if people we're staring,they weren't my concern. It was P'Krist at this moment. When he saw me he immediately stood up and left,running to God know's where. I was too tired to run after him so I simply sat beside P'Mike. "Why?What's the problem?Is there something wrong?"P'Tay says and I simply slouch down and frown. "That is the problem P. I don't know what's wrong"I say,leaning onto P'Mike "Let's start hoping that Toptap doesn't see you and then come after you."P'Tay says and I immediately sat up straight again,or should I say sit up gay?WHATEVER "Oh come on P!I have way too many problems already.I'm already stressed about having to sleep on the couch tonight. I don't want to stress about P'Toptap climbing my window and just jumping at me while I sleep on the couch. Have some respect,I hate you"I say pouting and they just laugh at me."You can't say that to the hazers you've been disrespecting for an entire year"P''Gunsmile says so I simply laughed with them.

"Hey listen. We may be your seniors but your like family to us now. If you need anything or you need something of your chest you can call us anytime ok?"P'Mike says and I smile."Yeah, if you want someone to smack him you know who to call"P'Tay says and I laugh at him. "Why can you smack him?"P'Gunsmile adds and P'Tay shakes his head, we we're a laughing mess. Like P'Mike says,they might be my seniors but I've been with them for 3 years and they are the best. Next to my own squad ofcourse, I wouldn't trade them for the world.If it was P'Krist,sure take them I don't care.No,I'm just kidding. I wouldn't trade any member of the family for the world.Especially the Peraya Family:Me,P'Krist and our adorable son Fiat. Normally P'Krist doesn't want to me consider him as family,he's technically our son in law so let's include my son's boyfriend,who is also my friend Oaujun.

Then the bell rang"Anyway,we have to go. We need to find Krist,if he decides to show. See you at the gathering,please come ok?I know I'm not supposed to say this but New told me to tell you not to let something personal between you two come against your studies ok?Personal is personal,studies is studies"He says and I nodded.I understood what he meant. If P'Krist decides to show later at the gathering,we both have to act like nothing's wrong. The same thing I've been doing this entire year. Pretend like we're "JUST FRIENDS" and "WHAT WE DO HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH EACH OTHER"I feel like I'm having a SarawaTine moment over here...I may have watched to many BL's already but who cares right?It's not like it's only me (Yes,P'Sing. We're guilty too)