I squint my eyes open and there's a bright light above me as I try to force my eyes open, everything feels different, stronger and vivid like everything is clearer, my senses are heightened and I can smell the people in the room, I can feel their... fear, longing and pain.

"Demonia!? Oh my god, call the priest!" I hear my mate's voice but I can't see her yet.

I can see shapes, something is wrong, I don't remember.. I fell, then I had the weirdest dream.

Someone touches me and I swat their hand away and growl at them in warning as I try to steady myself off whatever I am laying on, I hate this, I need to see, I need to have control, I don't know what is going on and that makes me..... angry.

"Please don't move, y-you hit your head when you fell.. wait until the doctor comes." Lilian tries to say but I shove past her shape as I stumble to the corner of the room where the large mirror stands.

I remember, it's all coming back to me, I... changed, shifted, but I was no wolf, I was something.. more, better, stronger, larger than any creature or wolf I have ever laid my eyes upon. I feel whatever it is inside of me, dragging its nail over my scalp, it makes my teeth rattle at the sensation, whatever is inside me has a mind of its own.

I can feel it, the hunger I once felt is alive and wanting to come out.

My sight starts to improve as I place both my hands on either side of the large mirror and stare at my reflection, in wait of what I try to control, I need to see it, I need to know for sure what I think is real, that she and the wish were real.

I sense Lilian, my mate behind me and I feel her emotions, she's scared. "You need to leave." I snarl out, not looking at her but focusing on my face.

"What?" She cries out frustrated. "Demonia you're scaring me! You died, I-I felt your heart stop, p-please sit and wait for the pr-"

I growl loudly out at her, no longer recognizing my own voice, it's much deeper, my growl made the room shake and made those inside the room with me and my mate scatter out of the room quickly.

Lilian stays, shaking in her spot, unmoving as she sobs quietly.

I rest my head against the mirror. "Please, I-I don't want you to see this." I swallow hard.

My skin feels as if it's stretching, ripping apart as if someone or something is pulling me apart from the inside, my face begins to change as I watch myself, I don't hear Lilian's cries anymore as I watch myself transform into what I dreamed was true.

Large canine teeth now stare at me as my jaw stretches and grows in size, the pain is excruciating but it doesn't last long until another part of my body is on fire and breaking, bending like it has a mind of its own, I'm growing larger, wider, something is controlling me as I change into this... new me, but I don't feel pain, I don't feel anything other than.. need, the need to consume, feed, take and break to my will, feelings I know very well but now it feels as though it's a part of me, living and breathing inside of me.

A voice inside my head speaks to me, in a dripping deathly tone.

'De..moniaa, we ..are ..one.. now.. to..gether we ..rule..' The beast says slowly as if it has never spoken my tongue before.

"Who are you? And what is happening to me?!" I demand the beast for answers in my head.

I can feel the beast inside of me, every single emotion as if we share the same body, his emotions become mine and it's hard to see who is exactly in control as I try to steady my breathing and hold onto my form as I bend and break to the beasts will.

"Don't you fucking dare take control of me, and don't fucking touch Lilian!" I snarl at the beast in my head and it snickers at me, almost amused by what I said.

'I will not hurt.. we thank mate.. and goddess, together we strong.. we must shift now'

"Wha-"

I feel my eyes and skull burn as I feel the beast take control, it feels as it something is burning into my chest but I can't move my arms with how much it hurts to move my arms, the beast within me has now made my legs shift into something... not human.. neither wolf, but monster, my hands are no longer my own as I see my reflection, they're larger, sharper, something out of a nightmare as I watch large claws come through the tips of my nails, out of nowhere, almost like magic.

That fucking white witch! What did she make me into? This is no wolf...

I'm a monster... some creature of terrors, I can barely look at myself in the mirror as I grimace from my newfound reflection, I'm something else now, I can feel everything and everyone around me, their heartbeats, their emotions.. every footstep in the palace I can now hear if I close my eyes, I feel my wings come through and knock over something in the room, my horns have become part of my form and I don't dare look at myself in the mirror, in fear I actually am losing my mind.

I did not ask for this, this is not what I fucking wanted! I-I just wanted to run with my mate, to be like her....

I didn't ask to become... this.. THING.

"...D-Demonia?" A small trembling voice whispers.

I whip my now large head around to stare down at my small mate, Lilian... she's.. scared of me, her tears have turned dry and she is now walking backwards from me, slowly, with each step she draws closer to the bedroom door.

"Wha- wh- how is this.. possible.." She mumbles out in terror, her beautiful eyes staring into my pitch-black ones.

I step towards her and hold my hand out, forgetting how large and sharp my paw is, she shrieks out as I almost cut her with a claw nail.

"N-No!" I breathe out and grab my hand. "Selene...." I start but Lilian moves backwards and releases a sob as she stares up at me sadly.

"Don't be afraid, not of me.. I will never harm you, I swear it." I promise as I get on my knees, my knees cause a dent in the floor as I kneel.

"I'm still Demonia, I.. my wish came true.. but I'm a monster.. I- she cursed me, s-she must have! You have to believe me." I look to Lilian desperately, trying to make her understand.

She swallows hard and holds her shaking hands as she stops moving backwards and takes a step forward, her face filled with confusion, fear and sadness as she stares at my new demon wolf form.

"Oh god, Demonia.. it is you." She cries out, and my heartbreak at the sight, my wolf whimpers at her sadness.

I lower my head and stare at my hands, I feel nothing but anger, pain and sadness overtake me as I come to the realization at this is now who I am, some monster whose own mate is scared of, the feeling is worse than death, to have to one you love most cower in fear of the sight of you, to want to run away rather than to explain, to-

I feel Lilian's small dainty arms wrap around me, I jolt back slightly as she breathes out onto my rough fur, her breath on me causes tingles to shoot all over my fur and body as if I had just been zapped by magic from a dark being, but in reality, it's the bond and our wolves meeting for the first time, meaning...she still feel the pull, and still wants me.

Her wet tears soak my fur as I listen to her silent sobs, her face pushed into my lower chest. "I-I was so scared." She sniffles out, her voice smaller than usual.

My chest clenches. "I'm sorry." I whisper out, my voice breaking slightly.

Her head shakes in my chest. "N-Not this, I thought.. I-I felt you die, I thought I had lost you, never do that again D-Demonia, I was so scared, n-not of you." She hiccups out, hugging onto me tighter as her fresh tears soak my chest.

I want to wrap my arms around her, not these fucking overgrown wolf arms, but my actual body, I need to hold her and tell her everything will be ok.

But I don't know that.

Nothing will be the same after this, I can feel it in my very being.

This beast, Sige, is now inside of me, I can sense every single thing it is thinking and feeling and I understand it, because.. I had once felt this.. pain, loss and anger, the need to control and punish, to overtake and be better, stronger, the feeling alone is addictive in nature, I got pleasure from demonstrating power whenever I felt this anger and pain, and I feel as if this creature wants me to accept that side of me, but.. I can't, I simply won't.

I can't go back there, it will consume me.

What I had said to Lilian was a promise, I want to change, I need to be better, to forget the past and focus on the present, for my unborn and mate, they are all that matters to me now, I must try.

I fear for what may come of me after today, the feeling being in this form has.. infected me with its desires, my young desires that I had buried deep down into my black soul, locked away with no key.. but now I feel as if whatever Sige is has crept open that box, I no longer feel in control of what I am, it's slipping from me and I fear for Lilian, for The Vale and our future if I can never control this side of me.

For reasons I do not know, I don't feel scared but excited, it should scare me but it doesn't.

This is all wrong.. it is inhuman, I'm slowly slipping, I can't let it.

"Lilian, listen to me." I say, my voice hard, lifting her chin with my large claw so she looks at me.

She is so beautiful, the thought of hurting her scars me deep, I must protect her from myself. "No one must find out about this, it will cause panic, do you understand what I'm saying?" I ask seriously, my eyes searching hers to see if she knows what I'm saying.

She frowns and looks up at me. "But Demonia.. this is a gift from the moong-"

"NO!" I snap out and move away from her. "IT'S A CURSE!" I spit out. "This... THING inside of me wants to hurt people Lilian, it's not who I am anymore! Do YOU understand?" I shout at her, my voice vibrating off the walls and I breathe heavily down at her, my large chest heaving.

I laugh out darkly as I catch my reflection in the mirror. "Your precious goddess offers me a gift, she tricked me." I laugh out and grab hold of the mirror and throw it across the room, the glass shattering makes Lilian cry out in surprise as she kneels down, holding her hands to her ears at the sound.

"How can you even LOVE me now?" I yell in her face.

I'm breathing heavily, my heart is beating against my chest painfully and Lilian has yet to say anything as she stares at me with wide eyes, holding onto her ears with shaky hands.

I laugh and grip hold of my head and turn my back to her, I feel my heart bleed at the thought of her no longer loving me, the thought of her leaving me...

I will never allow it, she will never leave me, I would rather kill her than let her leave me, I can't bear the thought of losing her, even just a bit will break me into pieces, she's my whole world, I love her too much to let her.

"Do not think such things... please, never say that again." Lilian sobs out and I turn to face her.

She stands up and puts her hand over her chest, which I hear beating faster than usual. "I love you, you stupid ignorant man!" She yells at me, cheeks puffed out and red.

I stare at her surprised as she glares at me. "Stop assuming everything for me! I love every part of you Demonia." She says sadly.

"You look beautiful and strong, you are exactly the man I fell in love with, this.." She hints at my form. "Changes nothing, I love you, forever, please never think of such thoughts again, I beg of you." She demands, her eyes soft but her voice is hard.

I feel my wings retract and my transformation shift as I keep my eyes on Lilian's, not breaking away as I transform back to my normal form, once that I feel myself again, less emotional and angry, Lilian runs into me and I wrap my arms around her and breathe in her scent, it calms me down and the beast inside of me who was angry about me controlling the shift back.

"I'm scared." I whisper into her neck as I inhale her scent.

My mate rubs my back with one hand whilst the other is in my hair. "Shhh.. I'm here, nothing is going to happen, I promise." She says, comforting me. "I love you, it's going to be all ok."

I hold onto her tighter in hope that she is right, I fear for the future if I can not control my beast, already getting a view of what the beast craves has me backed into a corner, this is not what I had expected to battle when I had accepted Selene's one time offer.

I have to break the curse, I must go back to how it was before.

At any cost.