I hadn't attended school in over a week. Exams were coming closer and closer everyday but i could not for the life of me find the motivation to study or go to school. A dark cloud had been floating above me that i couldn't escape, slowly sucking me in.

I hated to be that girl that turned into a complete and utter mess when she got her heart broken, but no matter what i tried, i couldn't let go. After years of falling in love with the wrong people, i had finally found someone who i could've sworn would never hurt me. I hoped so at least, but i guess hope breeds eternal misery.

The days went by slowly. I had barely left my bed and i don't think i have had any solid food for days. I couldn't get myself to do anything. I didn't want to do anything.

Ava had texted and called me multiple times, wondering how i was and why i had been absent at school. I never answered the phone or texted her back. She made it clear she wanted nothing to do with me, it's too late to check up on me now.

I had hit another low point in my life and somehow that always made me self destructive. Seeing people i should stay away from, doing things i shouldn't do and just simply doing everything that's bad for me.

After days i finally got out of bed and showered. I put on some nice clothes and did my make-up. I didn't have any plans as i was basically shutting everyone out, but i decided to try to make myself better.

It didn't help. The draining, depressing feeling came back within minutes. I didn't know how to stop myself from falling deeper and deeper into a massive black hole.

My eyes drifted to the coke i had stored in a box on my nightstand. I shouldn't, i thought to myself. Don't do it, i kept repeating, but the temptation was too hard to resist. It would make me forget for a few hours and all i wanted was to forget. I didn't want to live in my head anymore, just for a moment.

Before i could further convince myself not to go down this road a burning sensation entered my nose. My whole body tingled and i could feel my body relax as my thoughts slowly left my mind.

I changed into comfortable clothes and put on some music. I felt good again, i had missed this feeling.

A few hours went by and i was truly enjoying my own company. I was slowly dancing to the music, totally in sync with myself and the waves of the music, not a care in the world.

I heard two knocks coming from the front door. I turned my music down, confused as to who was knocking. It was already 3 am and I didn't invite anyone over so i decided not to open the door, not

to mention i was wearing shorts and a bra and i didn't feel like putting on a shirt just to open the door.

I turned my music back up and continued dancing. Not much later i heard knocking again. This time longer and louder. I got annoyed and turned the music down and walked up to the door. Whoever that was had to deal with me in a bra because i sure as hell wasn't gonna change.

I opened the door, still annoyed by whoever was knocking on my door at 3 am.

My heart sank to my stomach when i saw who was standing outside of my apartment. Two captivating green eyes looked at mine. I could feel my heart break all over again.

Her eyes drifted to my boobs. I rolled my eyes. "My eyes are up here." I said, trying not to let her show how broken i was.

She coughed. "Hi."

"Why are you here?" I asked, avoided eye contact.

"Just checking if you're still alive."

I scoffed. "Well, i'm alive." I said trying to close the door.

She blocked the door from closing with her foot. "Rachel, please."

I bit my lip. "What are you doing here Ava? Really why? You made it clear where we stand, i don't see a reason for you to be here." I said, trying to hold back my tears.

I looked at her. Her beautiful green eyes looked empty. She looked different. Her eyes didn't sparkle, her skin didn't glow. She looked sick, or sad, i couldn't quite tell. She was wearing shorts and a big black t-shirt. Her hair was up in a messy bun and she had her glasses on. Even in this state, she was breathtakingly beautiful and as always i couldn't stop staring at her.

I shook my head, taking me back to reality, or in this case to the woman in front of me.

"Can I come in?" Ava asked, still never taking her eyes off me.

I took a step to the side, without words telling her that she could come inside.

She walked past me to the living room. I closed the door and followed her. "Party?" She raised her eyebrow, pointing to the coke that was still laying on the table.

I rolled my eyes. "Whatever you want to call it."

"Why are you doing drugs alone Rach, you need to take care of yourself."

I shrugged. "You don't get to comment on that anymore."

She nodded and sat down on the sofa next to me.

"Why are you really here?" I asked.

"I wanted to see you."

"Why? You made yourself pretty clear, miss."

"Don't do that." She said.

"Don't do what? You ended things with me, breaking my heart into a million pieces, you can't just keep leaving and coming back when you want to. I can't handle it."

"I know and I'm sorry but i can't stay away from you. I try to, so hard, but how can i possibly stay away from you when you're on my mind every waking moment? I've barely slept this week because i couldn't stop wondering if you were okay. I worried so much. You could've been dead for all i know, you can't just ignore me all the time."

I huffed. "I'm fine okay, you can leave. No need to worry."

She moved closer to me.

"I don't want to leave. I don't want to be away from you. I'm in love with you Rachel. I'm so hopelessly in love with you it scares me to my very core. You're my student for God sake, i could lose my job. Not only that but you're 13 years younger than me. Do you realize how scary this is for me? I could lose everything. I want nothing more than to be with you, but i'm scared i'm taking advantage of you. You're in a bad place mentally and i should be there for you. I don't want to hurt you."

She put her hands on mine as she continued rambling.

"But despite everything i want nothing more than to be with you, even though maybe right now we can't officially do that, i don't want to stop seeing you. I don't want to have to stay away from you. I want to be the one you run to when times get hard. The one you go to when you're happy and i want to be the first one to hear about your day. I want to wake up next to you, hold you, kiss you."

She gulped. "I'm in love with you Rachel. I don't care about the risks if it means that i can't be with you."

I was stunned by what she had said. She had never opened herself up to me like that, not about her feelings for me at least. I looked at her, lost for words.

"I-i—i don't know what to say."

"Give me a chance, i promise, i'll do better."

"Will you really? Because i can't let you hurt me every time."

"I promise, trust me."

I tried to keep a straight face, wanting to let her suffer a little bit more, but i couldn't help but smile. "You're all I want, how could i possibly say no to you."

A huge smile appeared on her face, her cheeks turning pink. "Are you sure?" She asked.

"Just don't pull this shit again, just talk to me okay? We'll figure this out together and we'll keep us a secret for now." I said.

"Pinky promise." She said while holding out her pinky. I locked mine with hers. "Pinky promise."

She smiled and pulled me in for a hug. A wave of her sweet perfume infiltrated my nose and I immediately felt at peace again.

"I missed you." She said

"Then show me how much you have missed me." I said with a grin on my face.

She raised her eyebrow. "Oh, demanding much." She said teasingly.

"You can't blame me after not seeing you for so long. I completely forgot what your lips taste like."

"You want a taste?" She said, while slowly moving her face closer to mine. She played a little with the strap of my bra before tracing my collar bones with her finger. Her finger teasingly went up to my jaw, drawing little circles before her hand softly grabbed my face.

She brushed her lips over mine. My whole body started to tingle from her touch. I could feel my face heat up, i wanted nothing more than to kiss her right now.

I moved my face closer, trying to kiss her but she moved her face back, avoiding my kiss. Her lips moved to my ear.

"You're gonna have to beg for it." She whispered, making the hairs on my body stand up.

"I'm not used to having to beg for something, i usually get my way."

"Well for the first time in your life, you're going to want to beg for it." She said with a grin on her face. "Tell me how much you've missed me."

I liked what she was doing and i went along with it. "I missed you so much."

"Hmm, couldn't hear what you said. Repeat that will you?"

"I missed kissing you." I said, suddenly getting nervous by her presence.

She tucked a strand of my hear behind my ear and moved her lips closer to mine. "How bad do you want to kiss me right now?" She whispered.

"Kiss me before i lose it." I said.

I felt her smile on my lips before she pulled me in to kiss her. Her wet, soft lips on mine felt like coming home. Our breathing got heavier and heavier and i couldn't get enough of her.

I slid my tongue inside her mouth, slowly playing with hers. She teasingly bit my lip, making other parts of my body tingle. I let out a small moan.

She broke up from the kiss, placing her hand on my thigh. "Did i hear a moan there."

My face turned red out of embarrassment. "Shut up, you're making me horny."

She grinned. "Oh, i wouldn't want to do that." She slowly moved her hand up, tracing my upper thigh with her finger. She rested her hand on the inside of thigh, softly squeezing it while still holding eye contact with me. I again, let out a moan.

"Oh no, did i do it again?" She asked, teasingly. I groaned. "I hate you."

"Now do you really?" She asked, not waiting for an answer, pulling me back in for a kiss.

"You can't do this to me and not continue." I said, in between our kiss. "You want me to continue?" She said, moving her hand to my neck.

"Please, i'm begging. Take me right now."

She grinned, pulling away from our kiss. "Take off your bra." She ordered.

I was a little taken back by what she had said, not expecting her to react so quickly.

"Do i have to rip it off?"

I chuckled. "Want to see me naked that bad huh?"

"I have been wanting to since day one."

"Pervert." I laughed. I slowly took off my bra. I was scared she wasn't gonna think i'm pretty naked.

"God you're so sexy." She said, pulling me closer to her. I grinned. "Take of your shirt, it's not fair you're still fully clothed."

She took her shirt off, revealing two perfect sets of boobs still being held by a bra. The sight of her in her bra took away my breath. I was completely taken away by her beauty.

She removed her bra and my mouth slightly dropped. Her nipples were pierced and both had steel bars through them.

"I-i didn't expect that. You get hotter every time." I said, trying to sound confident. My hands moved to her boobs, cupping them with both my hands, my thumbs playing with her nipples.

She laughed. "Do i make you nervous, beautiful girl?"

"You-" I couldn't finish my sentence. She placed her hands on my back pulling my body closer to hers. She placed her lips on my throat. Her tongue making circular motions on my skin. She slowly went down to my chest, placing little kisses everywhere. Her right hand moved from my back to my chest, moving down to my boobs. I gasped at her touch.

"Do you want me to stop?" She asked

"Shut up, please don't stop."

She grinned and starting playing with my nipple. I let my head fall back, completely surrendering myself to her touch. She moved her mouth to my nipples and places her lips right next to it, sucking the soft skin until it turned red. I placed my hands on her back, pulling her in closer, begging for her to continue.

She moved to my nipple, tracing it with her tongue. I couldn't help but moan. She used her tongue to play with my nipple, while sucking and softly biting on the sensitive skin.

I lowered my hands from her back to her ass. I wanted to feel her as much as she was touching me, but she seemed to have other plans.

"Uh uh, i'm not done with you yet lady." She said.

"What are you planning on doing to me, miss."

"I'll show you."

She took her own pants of and threw them on the floor. She pushed me down on the sofa and removed my panties.

"Someone's is turned on." She said with a smirk on her face, feeling the wet spot i had left on my panties. I turned my face away out of embarrassment.

She grabbed my face with her hand, turning my gaze back to her. "Don't look away now." She said, ordering me to focus on her.

She spread my legs and gave me tiny kisses on my inner thigh, slowly moving further up. I could feel myself get wetter every time she got closer to my vagina. I could feel it slowly dripping down my upper thigh.

Ava noticed too. She grinned as she licked the wet spots on my thigh. "God you taste so good. Sweet really does describe you." She said while dragging her tongue closer and closer to my vagina. I grabbed her hair with my hands, not wanting to wait a second longer. "Fuck me."

"Oh, now how do we say that?"

"Please, fuck me."

"Good girl." She said as her tongue entered my vagina. I moaned, loud this time. The sensation i felt from her wet tongue entering me was indescribable. She moved up to my clit, moving her tongue from left to right, slowly speeding up space. I let myself completely give in, enjoying the pleasure she was giving me.

She started sucking on my clit. My eyes rolled back and i let my arms fall down next to me. I could feel that i was close. I panted. "Ah.. Ava, i'm so close, faster."

She moved her gaze up to me, now rubbing my clit with her fingers. "Please?" She said.

"Please, i'm begging." She grinned and sped up, rubbing my clit faster. I slowly rocked my body to her fingers.

I let out a loud moan, i was so close and then suddenly she stopped.

I looked down at her in confusion. "You're not getting it that easy." She said in a playful way. I stared at her in disbelief. "That's just straight up cruel." I pouted.

She smiled. "Maybe i just like seeing you struggle."

She stood up and ordered me to get up too. I took a moment to take in the beautiful naked, woman who was standing in front of me. She was so perfect, it almost felt like a dream. She grabbed my arm and pulled me from the sofa. "What are we doing?" I asked.

"Just follow me."

Hesitantly i followed her. I felt weird following her around my house, naked.

She walked up to my bedroom and turned on my LED lights. "Wha-." Before i could finish my sentence i felt a hand, followed by a burning sensation on my ass cheek. Tears filled my eyes but i let out a small grin from pleasure. I liked it.

"Look at that grin on your face, naughty girl." Ava said. She sat down on the bed, spreading her legs, ordering for me to sit down in front of her. I climbed onto the bed, tracing her legs with my fingers before sitting down in between her legs. I could feel her wetness on my lower back and i couldn't help but smirk.

"I guess i'm not the only one who's having a good time." I said to her.

"Shut up." She said. She grabbed my neck and pulled it backwards so she could look me in the eye. "Spread your legs, and put your knees up." She ordered.

"What if i refuse."

She smirked and tightened her grip around my throat. "Be a good girl and do what i say."

I did as she pleased and she moved her hand down to my vagina. She rubbed my clit with her fingers and i let my head fall back on her chest.

"Look at me." She said. I locked eyes with her. "I want to look you in the eyes when i make you cum."

She slid a finger inside of me, and my whole body tensed up. Her thumb still rubbing my clit as she slowly stroked the insides with her finger. She gradually increased her speed, making me squirm from pleasure.

I let my head fall back into her neck, moaning with every stroke i felt inside of me, pumping in and out, slowly but steady.

"You're so sexy under my touch." She whispered in my ear. She held my leg steady with her hand and teasingly nibbled on my earlobe.

As she sped up, stimulation my clit i could barely hold it anymore. She rubbed her finger back and forth, making me closer to an orgasm every stroke.

"Be a good girl and cum for me." Ava whispered in my ear, grabbing my throat tightly with her hand.

"I-" I couldn't finish my words, because her fingers on my clit sped up even more and i couldn't get the words out.

"Say my name."

"A-ava, i'm cu-" My whole body trembled as i reached my orgasm. My whole body tingled and i let out a loud moan. I tried to be quiet but the ecstatic feeling was too much, i couldn't possibly be quiet. My breathing was heavy from the sensational feeling. I let my head fall back again, looking Ava in her eyes.

You could see the arousal in her gaze. She moved her fingers to her face, without hesitation putting them in her mouth. She closed her eyes as she let out a small moan. "Hmm, sweet girl."

I pulled her in for a kiss, eager to taste her.

"I wanna know what you taste like." I said, not holding back anymore. She grinned. "You'll have to wait."

"That's unfair, you just got to have every part of me."

She chuckled. She grabbed my face with one hand, forcing me to look her in the eyes without being able to look away. Her other hand went down to her vagina. I could hear the wetness when she slid her fingers in. I could feel my whole body tingle at just the sound of it. She bit her lip, slowly moving her hand back up.

"Open your mouth." She said. I obediently did what she said and opened my mouth. She put her fingers inside. I could taste her sweet wetness. God i wanted nothing but to eat her out right now. I closed my mouth and sucked off her soaked fingers, still never breaking eye contact. I couldn't help but let out a small moan when she slid her fingers out.

She smirked. "Know you now what to expect next time."

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hiiiii, sorry it took me almost a week to update i have been so busy. soooooo i've never written smut before i hope it doesn't suck hehe. hope you enjoyed this chapter