Many drinks and hours later i could barely stand straight. I had tried to down as many drinks just to help me forget about Ava, but nothing seemed to make me forget.

I hugged David goodbye. "See ya tomorrow, champ." I said, slurring my words from the alcohol i consumed. "See ya sexy." He replied, probably just as drunk as i was.

I slowly made my way home. I didn't want to walk but luckily it wasn't too far. I wanted to take my car but David reminded me of how drunk i was so taking the car probably would be fatal.

I sat down on the side of the road. It was finally cooling down and it had now finally reached the right temperature. Still warm, but no sun. Just how i like it.

I couldn't stop thinking about Ava. I tried and sometimes it even worked but she seemed to make her way back into that tiny brain of mine every time. I let out a tear. I didn't want to believe that she was actually pushing me away after kissing me. She was the one person who was there for me and helped me, and now she did the same thing everyone always does. Push me away.

My phone lit up. Struggling to find my phone i finally got it and saw Ava had texted me. I rolled my eyes as a single tear left my eye. It was past midnight and now she decided to text me?

A: Can we please talk?

R: I don't want to talk to you. Like i said, you're no better than everyone else.

A: Don't say that, please can we just talk.

R: So you can tell me that you went too far and that this was never supposed to happen? Safe it. I got it.

A: Please?

I put my phone away, i didn't want to reply anymore. I didn't want to hear it. I didn't want to hear her say how she made a mistake, or how we could never work. How it went too far and it needs to stop. It will only hurt more to hear her say it.

I opened the door to my apartment and immediately walked up to my bedroom. I was tired and couldn't wait to get to bed and sleep today off. I put my phone on the charger and closed my eyes.

Ava. Us dancing. Our kiss. Her holding me. Pictures flashed through my head as i closed my eyes and drifted off to sleep.

"Hello sweet girl." I heard Ava say. I turned around to look at her. I grinned. "Hello beautiful lady." She laughed as she pulled me in to dance with her. There we were, standing in a big empty hall, the lights focused on us as the music slowly started playing. I places my hands around her neck, slowly swaying to the music. "You're the most beautiful girl i've ever seen." She said. Butterflies entered my stomach. "As are you, miss." I said to her. She slowly traced my throat with her fingers before kissing my neck slowly. Her warm, wet lips on my skin made me tingle inside. She placed tiny kisses all over before softly sucking on it. "Aren't you scared?" I asked. "I don't care, as long as you're with me." She said while moving her lips to mine. She traced my lips with her tongue before pulling me in for a kiss. "I can't get enough of you." She said before she pulled away from me. Suddenly we were no longer alone, the hall was filled with people, the music sounded harsh. I looked around to see where Ava went. "Ava?" I anxiously looked for her in the crowded hall. "Ava?" I said again, this time a little louder. A familiar smell infiltrated my nose. I looked to the left to see Ava hand in hand with a woman. "Oh there you are." I said, not sure what was going on. She had a weird look on her face. "Sarah, that's Rachel, a student of mine." She introduced me to the woman next to her. Confused to where this was going i shook the woman's hand. "Hi." I said. The woman smiled and kissed Ava. "Ava, what-" She cut me off. "We're going home now." My heart dropped a little. "But i thought-" She laughed. "Oh silly girl, you're nothing to me." Her and Sarah both laughed and walked off, leaving me

heartbroken and alone. I walked over to the bar. "Can i have a tequila shot?" I asked. The man nodded and handed me my shot. I downed it immediately, wanting to forget about what just happened. I was confused, what was happening? "Missed me?" I heard a mans voices say right behind me. I turned around. "James?"

I woke up, sweating from head to toe. I sighed. God, that nightmare felt a little too real. I rubbed my eyes and got out of bed. I looked at my phone. 06:00. I decided to make myself some breakfast, not wanting to bother to go back to sleep, knowing i'll probably have more nightmares.

I didn't want to go to school today but i knew not going would get me in too much trouble. I was already too much behind and i would miss too much if i stayed home.

School was almost over, but as always i had spanish before i could go home. I entered the class with a long face, not wanting to see Ms Lopez at all.

David slightly nudged my arm. "Cheer up buttercup, it will be alright." I smiled at him as we walked to our seats. I sat down, immediately making eye contact with Ms Lopez. She looked tired, but still so beautiful. I wanted to look away so bad but her eyes were magnetizing, holding me in a chokehold.

I eventually looked down when she started her class. Her voice gave me butterflies but also reminded me of my dream last night. In some way it was exactly how i felt. I felt let down by her and it showed in my dream.

I doodled in my notebook, barely paying attention to what the woman in front of the class was saying.

"Rachel, pay attention to me, not your desk." She said in a firm tone. I scoffed. "Sure." I said quietly, hoping no one would hear it, but she did. "Don't give me an attitude now, stay after class." I rolled my eyes at her and continued doodling. She only did this to talk to me and i knew it.

The bell rant and i quickly got up to get my stuff and make my way outside before she got the chance to stop me. As always i was slow, so as the last person in the classroom i rushed to the door, trying to making my way outside when a body blocking the doorway stopped me.

I gulped, suddenly standing extremely close to Ms Lopez. "And now you're gonna listen to me."

I bit my lip. "You can't just keep me here."

"Well, then i'll give you detention. Now we have the whole hour."

I sighed and sat down at one of the tables in the middle of the classroom.

"Look at me." She said.

I looked up to her, not knowing what to say, or how to behave so i kept quiet. She grabbed a chair and sat down right in front of me.

"You're running away from me." She said

"How am I running away from you? You kissed me and then stopped talking to me."

"Rachel, I couldn't talk yesterday because i have some serious things going on that I can't talk about. You refused to talk to me. You're the one pushing me away."

I felt my face turn red, suddenly feeling embarrassed by my own actions.

"People always push me away, i figured you were doing the same."

"I wasn't."

"Well then what is this between us?" I asked, anxious to hear what she was gonna say.

"What we're doing isn't okay. You're a student, i'm your teacher. Not to mention you're still so young, i don't want to take advantage of you."

I bit the inside of my cheek, trying to keep myself from crying. "Then why did you kiss me."

She looked down. "I shouldn't have."

"But you did."

She looked back up to me. Her hand searching for mine. "Rachel, i just-"

I pulled my hand away from hers. "So this is it?" I asked. "Whatever was going on between us is over?"

"It has to be." She said. I couldn't hear any emotion in her voice. She sounded cold and distant, something i had never heard in her voice before.

I grabbed my bags and walked up to the door. I couldn't believe her. She knew what she was doing, she knew i was her student and she still she did it. I told her how i felt about her, she told me how she felt, she knew we were crossing a line, but she did it anyway, knowing i was falling for her and now she ended whatever was going on between us.

It felt like my heart had been stabbed a million times. The woman i was so madly in love with, the one person i thought would never push me away just did. In the past few months she had become my safe place, the person i could count on, the person who cared for me, made me laugh, made me feel loved. There were times where i felt like i had found my person, but it all came crashing down within seconds.

I knew you should never put your happiness in one person, but i did and it came back to bite me in the ass. She picked me out of my darkest place and i could slowly feel myself going back there. With her, i felt the happiest i had ever been and i struggled to get that feeling without her.

I walked home, with an overwhelming feeling of emptiness in my heart. I felt stupid for feeling this so intensely but no matter what i tried to feel better, it didn't work. I knew there was only one way to cope.

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this is a draft, so i'll be rewriting this tomorrow, making it a little longer and better written because this was poorly written lol, but since i'm already late, ppl are waiting and i promised a new chapter every two days so i thought i would publish it x