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2 weeks had passed and i was finally released from the hospital. I still wasn't fully back on track so i needed to go back for check-ups, but i could finally go home.

My friends visited me almost everyday after finding out i was in the hospital not much later after it had happened. They were worried out of their minds because they thought i had run off, only to find out i got drugged. They were so sweet, and made me a huge hospital survival package. I got lots of cards from several people, making me feel so happy.

Ms Lopez also came by everyday. She sometimes even got in after visiting hours, not wanting to be seen by her students.

In those 2 weeks i got to know so much about her. She told me all about her family. She has a brother and a sister. Her dad is apparently some big shot guy somewhere, and is quite famous in the industry. By what she had told me, she comes from a powerful family. That explained why she's rich.

She told me all about her life before teaching, all the ups and the down. She completely opened herself up to me, and it was beautiful to see. It was beautiful to see such a strong, intimidating, powerful woman open up to me. I didn't know why she did it though, i just assumed it was out of shame. She blamed herself for what had happened to me and wanted to make it right, even though i told her a million times that it wasn't her fault.

I packed all my stuff from my hospital room and waited for Ms Lopez to pick me up. She insisted on bringing me home, even though David and Sam had already offered, so i agreed. I didn't mind staring at her a little bit longer.

I was scared to go home. Getting drugged and almost dying in the hospital had brought up so many of my trauma and added more to it. I had nightmares almost every night. The hospital assigned me a therapist, but i had never told her about this.

"Are you ready to go?" Ms Lopez asked me, standing with my bags in the entrance. "Sure am." I smiled and walked with her to her car.

"Are you excited to go home?" She turned her head sideways to face mine. "I am." I said, hesitantly. She looked concerned. "I know i have never asked but, where are you parents?"

I hated that question, because they didn't die or anything they just wanted nothing to do with me after i had spun so out of control with my behavior and everything in life really.

"They're just not in my life." I smiled as i continued to look outside of the window, counting all the red cars i saw. "I don't really want to talk about it."

Ms Lopez put her hand on my thigh. "That's okay."

I blushed. Her touch still did things to me that i wish it didn't. I was still falling for her even though it was hopeless. She had made it clear she didn't like me like that. We decided to forget about when i asked her to kiss me, even though i could never forget it. It was engraved in my brain, always reminding me how stupid i was.

We arrived at my apartment and Ms Lopez helped me get my stuff inside. I was still a little weak and got tired quickly.

"Let me make you dinner." She said. I laughed. "Bold of you to assume there's anything in my fridge that's still edible after two weeks." She chuckled. "Fair enough. I'll order us some food and I'll stay for dinner so you don't have to be alone right away."

I smiled. "I would like that." She sat down next to me. "What do you want?" I knew exactly what i wanted. "Sushi." I said. "Please, i've been craving sushi for weeks now." She laughed. "You can have all the sushi you want."

I changed into more comfortable clothes and sat down next to Ms Lopez on the sofa. The bell rang. "I'll get it." She quickly said and walked up to the door. I got a blanket and put it over me, waiting for Ms Lopez to come back with the food.

"Here's your sushi." She hold up the bag with a smile. I sat back up and tapped on the empty space next to me on the sofa. "Don't mind if i eat it all." I said. She laughed. "You can have it all pretty girl."

"I'll leave some for you." I opened the bag and got to eating right away. I was hungry and I hadn't had normal food in over two weeks. Ms Lopez laughed at the way i was eating. "What are you looking at." I asked her while continuing to eat my sushi.

"You're eating like you haven't had food in weeks it's adorable." I chuckled. "Well, it feels like i haven't." We both finished the food as we watched tv.

"Well i guess it's time for me to go." Ms Lopez said. I didn't want her to go. I was scared to be alone after so long. "Stay." I said, sounding anxious.

"Oh Rachel, i-" I didn't let her finish. "Please?" I asked. "I've been having nightmares every night for the past 2 weeks, please just stay until i fall asleep." She hesitated and I didn't blame her.

"I'll stay." She said. I felt a sense of relief when she agreed to stay. "Thank you." She smiled. "If you have something to sleep in, i'll crash on the couch."

I blushed. "I sure do." I walked up to my room and grabbed a big shirt and a pair of shorts from my closet. "Here you go."

She changed into the clothes i gave her and sat down next to me on the sofa. I was tired but not ready to sleep yet. I cuddled up to her, not knowing what she would say but also not really caring. We had hit a weird point in our relationship. Whatever we had going on it was more than just a teacher student relationship. Maybe we were becoming friends, i didn't know.

"Can i ask you something?" I asked her. I didn't care anymore. I had already made a fool out of myself so i had nothing to lose.

"Sure." She said. I sat back up, facing her. I wanted to be able to look her in the eyes.

"I know we said we would forgot about the party.. where i asked you to kiss me, and trust me i want to forget, i've never been more embarrassed in my life, but i can't forget. I can't forget when you're still always around, taking care of me, flirting with me so i just want to know, was i really so delusional to think that maybe there was something there? Was i really so stupid to ask?"

I expected her to be surprised by what i had asked, or maybe shocked or upset, anything, but she wasn't. She looked at me and sighed. "No you weren't." She sounded so calm it scared me a little.

"Then why didn't you kiss me?" I asked, crossing several lines again. I knew i wasn't gonna like the answer but i couldn't help myself. "I just can't Rachel." She turned her face away from me, again.

I was starting to get upset. "You know what, Ava, then please stop. Stop with the flirting, stop with helping me and going out of your way to be there for me. Stop caring so much about me. You've become my safe place, the one person i am comfortable around and trust with my whole heart. I don't care if i'm embarrassing myself. I've fallen for you and don't act like you don't know that. You've been the one person who has been there for me for months now. You're the most beautiful person i've ever seen and we've build such a strong bond in such a short time. Of course i was gonna fall for you, so please. Stop if you want nothing to do with me. Stop."

I stood up and walked away. I hated how she make me feel so loved yet so unwanted at the same time. A tear fell down my face as i walked to my room. Maybe i went too far. Maybe i really was delusional to mistake her kindness for something else.

"Wait." Ms Lopez said. She grabbed my wrist. I turned around to see what she wanted. We held eye contact for a second, standing in silence, both not saying a word.

She looked nervous, different than i've ever seen her. Maybe i made her upset, or sad, maybe even mad. I couldn't tell.

"What are you doing to me." She said before pulling my body closer to hers.

Time stopped when i felt her lips press against mine. I wasn't sure if i was dreaming or not. My heart pounded and i could feel my knees get weak. She placed one hand in my neck while the other was still set on my face. I wrapped my hands around her neck, completely giving in to her kiss.

Her lips were warm and soft and had a sweet taste to them. I parted my lips slightly, allowing her tongue to slip inside. I felt her lips slightly curl before our tongues met. The feeling of her smile against my lips gave me butterflies.

She pressed me up against the wall with her body, breathing heavily as we sped up. I was lost in her kiss. I couldn't get enough of her.

She softly bit my lip, making my whole body heat up. My lips started to tingle as she traced my lips with her tongue.

"Your lips taste better than i could've ever imagined." She said while moving her lips to my jaw, giving my tiny kisses all the way to my ear. She softly bit my ear lobe before sucking on it. My heart almost jumped out of my body. I closed my eyes and i let my head fall back a little while she moved her lips to my neck.

I slid my hands under her shirt, pressing my hands against her back. She took the lead and i was completely consumed by her touch.

Her tongue and lips on my neck felt sensational. She grabbed my hair and softly pulled it, making me want more and more. She pressed me into her even closer and kissed me again, passionately and hard before pulling away.

"Goodnight." She smirked and walked back to the living room.

I stood there, speechless, tracing my lips with my fingers. They were a little swollen from the kiss. I could still feel her lips on mine even though she had already left. I let my body fall on my bed.

Oh.