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Only 2 minutes had passed but it felt like hours. People were yelling over the music but i couldn't hear what they were saying. I only had eyes for Rachel who was laying in my arms, unconscious. I tried to feel her pulse, to check if she was still alive but i was too drunk and so shaken up, i couldn't tell.

"Please move, paramedics are here." I heard someone yell behind me and an other group of people. I quickly moved away, allowing them to do their work. They tried to talk to her, asking her if she's okay, shaking her, trying to get her to answer but nothing worked. I was hopeful that maybe Rachel would say something to them. Maybe she was just so upset with me that she'd rather play dead than reply, but that wasn't the case.

The paramedics didn't get her to answer, so they carried her onto a stretcher. I wanted to walk with them to the ambulance but i wasn't allowed to.

I turned around in shame. This wouldn't have happened if i didn't walk away. I felt stupid and guilty. I could've been more mature about it, but i reacted like a child and walked away.

"There is no heartbeat, get on here and please hurry to the ambulance." Someone yelled at one of the paramedics.

My heart sank to my stomach. I looked over to check if they really were talking about Rachel. As hopeful as i was as quickly that feeling was taken away when i saw a paramedic on top of Rachel, giving her CPR while they were making their way to the ambulance.

I went into full panic mode. I needed to help her, be there for her. This girl has been through so much shit, and i promised i would help her and be there for her. I promised her and i wasn't gonna break that promise.

I grabbed my stuff and made my way to the bar before calling an uber. "I have to leave, my friend got drugged, at least that's what I think, and i need to be there for her when she wakes up." I looked around to see my friends reaction and they all agreed i should go.

I gave them a smile and turned around. "Wait, Ava?" I turned around to see Sarah looking at me with a confused look. "Not even a goodbye kiss?" She asked.

"Right." I said. "I'm stressed." I gave her a kiss and walked off.

I arrived at the hospital about an hour later. I walked up to the desk and immediately asked for Rachel Young. I looked around to see where her friends were but i didn't see anybody. I was wondering if they even knew what had happened.

"Take a seat." She pointed to the waiting room. "Someone will come see you later."

I waited anxiously in the waiting room for someone to walk up to me and tell me that she's fine and alive, anything, but 2 hours later and still no one."

I grew impatient and stood up to ask why it was taking so long when a doctor walked up to me. "Are you here for Rachel Young?" He asked me.

"Yes, i am." I replied. "You can see her now, walk with me." He said. I followed him to her room. I was so happy to be finally be able to see her and to tell her how sorry i was. I wanted to hold her and keep her safe.

We arrived at a room but before i could enter the doctor stopped me. "Has anybody informed you on what has happened?" He asked

"No." I replied, not knowing what to expect.

"Well, we found different kinds of drugs in her body, so we're thinking she got drugged at the party. We also found some other chemicals in her body that we're not sure of what it is. All those combined caused her to pass out and go into cardiac arrest. Right now we're waiting for her wake up, but we're not sure when or if that's gonna happen. The first 24 hours are crucial, so prepare yourself."

I nodded. I was taken back by what the doctor had said. For some reason i expected her to be awake, so hearing that she might not even wake up was hard to hear.

I walked into her room. My eyes filled up with tears when i saw her laying in the hospital bed. She looked so small and alone in that big bed.

I sat down next to her, not knowing what to say since she wasn't awake to hear it. i grabbed her hands and decided to let everything out.

"Hi sweet girl." I said with a smile on my face. I rubbed her hand with my thumb. "I know you can probably not hear me but if you can, please wake up. It's not fair that you're in here and the man who did this is just out there. I wish i could've protected you. I wish i never walked away but you scared me with what you said and i didn't know what to do. I walked away and left you alone." Tears were now falling down my face.

"I promised i would be there for you, i was gonna make sure to keep you safe. I promised and i failed. I wasn't there and to make it even worse i was the reason you were there. You probably think i don't even care for you, when i so deeply do."

I sighed, scared of being overheard by the wrong person, or by Rachel herself.

"I knew that you had a little crush on me pretty early on. I didn't mind, lots of students do and i never care because it's innocent and it's not like i would ever have feelings for a student. So when i noticed your behavior around me i figured it out. It was cute and it was funny seeing you get nervous to talk to me. It was playful and fun."

I gulped.

"But with you it quickly became different. I of course had always known that you were outstandingly beautiful but there was so much more to you. You have a story that makes you one of the most impressive people i've ever met. You're so strong and i'm so amazed by that. You're so mature in some ways and i so desperately wanted to get to know more about you. I've always been attracted to you, ever since i first saw you. I've always felt drawn to you for some reason but i've realized i'm falling for you. I'm falling for my student and that is scary. I should fight this feeling, but i don't want to. I don't want to have to walk away from you."

I buried my face into the palms of my hands. I had finally told her, even tho she wasn't awake to hear me. Maybe that was for the better, but at least for now i got off my chest.

I was tired and i desperately needed sleep but i didn't want to leave her, again, but i had to. I decided i was gonna come back after i've had some sleep.

"I'll come back later, sweet girl." I said. I gave her a kiss on her forehead.

Before leaving i left the nurse my phone number in case she woke up.

I called my brother to ask if i could crash in his guest room for a few hours. He lived closer to the hospital and i didn't want to take an uber again. He said yes and even offered to pick me up.

I had slept for maybe 4 hours before going back to the hospital. I needed her to be fine, i needed her to be awake. I hadn't heard back from the hospital and that scared me. I could only hope from this point on.

I walked into the hospital and the girl at the desk must have recognized me, because she immediately stopped me.

"Were you here for Rachel Young a few hours ago?" She asked me.

"Yes, i was." I said. She smiled. "I have some good news for you. Follow me."A big smile appeared on my face. She guided me to Rachel her doctor and he broke the news to me.

"Rachel is going to be absolutely fine, she's a strong girl. She is very weak right now but you can see her for a few minutes."

"Thank you so much." I said, trying to hold my excitement. He pointed at the room she was staying in and i made my way there.

Before entering i took a deep breath. I was nervous as to what she was gonna say, what state she was in and if she even wanted me there.

I opened the door. I stood still at the entrance, looking at here, unsure of what she was gonna say.

She turned her head to the door. We both didn't say anything so i slowly walked up to the bed and sat in the chair next to it.

"Hi." i softly said.

"Who are you?" She asked me. She looked confused. My heart stopped for a second. The doctors didn't warn me about this.

"I-" I didn't know what to say. "I am" She quietly laughed and stopped me. "I was just joking miss, hi."

I let out a sigh of relief. For a second i thought she had lost her memory. "You scared the living shit out of me missy."

"How are you feeling?" I asked her. "Never been better." She replied. My heart broke. You could hear the pain in her voice. She wasn't okay at all, pain was written all over her face.

"Rachel i am so sorry this happened to you. I should've been there, i should've helped you, this should never had happened."

"Hey, hey, this isn't your fault. Don't blame yourself i'll be fine." She said.

"No i should've never walked away from you."

She turned her head, not wanting to face me as i brought up the moment she wanted me to kiss her.

"I'm sorry for saying all those things to you. I shouldn't have, you're my teacher."

"No Rachel, i—" I stopped. I wanted to tell her how i felt but i decided against it. I smiled. "Don't you worry sweet girl. Let's forget about it." I took her hand and we just sat there for a while until she fell back asleep.

But i didn't want to forget about it because in reality it's all i could think about.