True P.O.V

My entire life has been a mess in my eyes. Everything never went the right way for me, everything seemed like it was always going to lead me into the darkness, where no one would save me, as I honestly believed I was a hopeless cause. Kind of messed up how they only generally seemed to care after I attempted suicide. Well, everyone but him. He cared before, he still cares now. No, it's not Kyle, Kyle maybe my best friend but he still believed the most used lie of a depressed person.

"I'm fine."

It's simple to say those words, its the effect the words take that are life changing. Listening to those words now, makes me wonder how anyone ever could believe them. They sound so, fake in my mind. Then again, I only ever told two people those words, and they never seemed to second guess them, never ponder if it was the truth, to wrapped up in there own life to see mine was falling apart, and those two words, never made it any better.

I can't my life hasn't not gotten better because it has, but one thing, one amazing thing is standing out to me. One thing I never thought was going to happen, one thing I've seen, but never really felt. Love.

Which was probably why I'm confused now.

Alister is kissing my neck, even after I flung batter and blue berries at him, he's still kissing me, well my neck but it's apart of me.

He is my boyfriend though, so I guess it's natural.

I tighten my legs around his waist, holding him closer to me. My back against the wall, near a door that I very certain either lead to a large bathroom, or a huge closet, which I didn't doubt he had, he has one, the rich bastard. It makes me kind of envious considering I live in a small closet like space so it's kind of sad considering his bathroom is probably bigger than my room. I should probably focus on him though.

His lips flutter up and down my neck all the way to just below my ear, he was obviously trying to find my weak spot, everyone had one, I did too and after a few nibbles around the lobe of my ear, Alister found mine. He knew it too, because I let out a light whimper, and felt him smirk against my neck, before he attacked said area with force, withdrawing a moan out of me. If he contiued with this, I was going to ge hard, which was easy, I mean look at him! He's a sex god, and the mafia thing only add's to it, that and the fact I'm not afraid of him. What's to be afraid of? His generally short brown hair is just long enough now, from where he's failed to get it cut, to grip. His brown silver hinted eyes are breath taking, and though he's kissing my neck like no one ever has, I can assure you, they are lit up with lust, darken with passion.

He continues to assult my neck, leaving marks, most likely as a sign of possession, before after a few tender hickeys, he pulls back with a satisfied look in his eyes. It warmed my heart to see him happy by just putting marks on me, Alister isn't really a smily person, his career partically denys him the chance to be relaxed, to show true happiness. He generally has a blank look on his face, a blank slate, he isn't like that in here, right now. He's happy. I made him happy. Well, my life is completed.

He looks me directly in the eyes, and I simply couldn't look away. His face is perfect. His eyes are perfect. He is perfect. He closes his eyes and leans his forehead against mine, somewhat shocking me as I hadn't expected it, it feels like a sacred thing.

"Can I kiss you?" Alisters asks me, his breath fanning over mine. My heart jumped and spead up, the butterflies in my stomach started up. He was asking for permisson. No one else asked for permission, even if it was a kiss, they took, without asking. HE was asking. If anything, it made me like him more than before, more than ever.

"Yes," I breathed back, and saw a small sweet smile appear on Alister face, before he ducked in to claim his prize. My lips. I felt his soft lips crash against mine, and it felt perfect. They fit together as if they were made for each other, molding together, we didn't fight for dominance, we both knew who was the dominant in the relationship, why fight for something when you knew you'd lose regardless? I'm not a person to give up, but is it really giving up when you lost before you started? I don't think so. So I let him lead the kiss.

We simply kissed for a few minutes before Alister licked my bottom lip, obviously begging for entrance, which I denied deciding to play with him. It was going to be fun!

Alister growled into the kiss before pinching my ass, making me squeak out. He used that squeak to sneak into my mouth, exploring like he owned the place. I moan into the kiss, wanting it. Wanting more. Who was Alister to deny me more? He wanted more too, I could tell.

He gripped my ass hard before pulling me away from the wall, making me gasp and wrap my arms tightly around his neck, not disconnecting our lips, and I tighted my legs around his waist feeling his length against my ass. He walked into the room next to use, and I was correct, it was a bathroom. We kissed until he sat me down on the beautiful counter, and disconnected his lips from mine. I whine softly, wanting his lips back, who was he to take his lips away from me?

I pout at him, and he just quietly chuckles at me, before walking over to the shower. He opens the glass door, before reaching inside and starting the warm stream of water. Before he closes the door to allow the water to warm and so it doesn't get all of the floor before he walks back over to me, as I hadn't moved a inch from where he sat me down on the counter. He wraps a arm around my waist and rubs his noise in my hair before he leans down further to bite my ear lobe before muttering in my ear.

"Take a shower with me." He whispered in my ear, making me moan quietly. I nod at him making his grin strongly at me, before kissing me again, while slipping the shirt off of me, when it was obviously his as it was a good set of sizes larger than mine. I looked at him, and he got the message by pulling his own short sleeved shirt off his body, and flinging it in the bathroom, behind him. I reach down to his pants and push them down and he kicked them off his legs and they ended up behind him like his shirt. I allow him to yank my pants off as well, and I moan when his hand accidently brushes against my hard on inside my pants.

I look up at him, gazing into his eyes, feeling safe, protected. I wanted this, the first time I truly wanted this and it felt amazing to know I was in control.

I slide off the counter and slide my underware down, leaving me completely naked and I turned us around and pushed him against the counter and kissed him, one hand on his chest, the other yanking his pants down as well.

And boy was I impressed. His was bigger than mine, and for half a second I became concerned that it wouldn't actually fit, then flung that idea out, it would fit, may take alittle preping, but it would fit. I kissed him hard, showing him I wanted this, since I couldn't say it out loud. To embarrassed to say it out loud.

All I could focus on was him, ignoring the shower going off in the background, or the fact that Kyle and Luke were having sex, all that matter was Alister.

He put one hand on the back of my neck and the other opened a drawer and pulling something out, before flipping us over again, this time my back was yet again against the counter where he dropped his arm from my neck and tapped my thigh obviously hinting that I should jump up and I did, wrapping my legs and arms around him. He walked us over to the shower, and with his other hand, opened it and stepped in with me still wrapped around him. The water instantly poored over me and him, warming me up, as it had started to get chilly being naked in the bathroom, the one place that was made to be freezing cold. With the water washing over the both of us, we looked each other in the eyes, water dripping around us, our hair getting soaked, allowing it to drip down in our faces. It actually looked good on him.

He took whatever he grabbed earlier, yes it was still in Alisters hands. After the clicking sound and a small squirting noise I knew it was something in a bottle, and considering the situation were in, it's probably lube. Which was confirmed when the same hand came down towards my ass, and the cold liquid was rubbed against my crack, forcing another moan out of me, which made Alister groan as he slammed me against the clean shower walls, running his nose up and down my neck as he gently pushed his first finger inside of me.

It didn't hurt, just felt weird, like it didn't belong, but I knew the prepping was necessary for this situation so I allowed him, tugging Alister hair with a moan to let him know to keep going, to hurry up. He began to move the finger in and out, before pushing another finger in with the first. This time it caused a small burning sensation, and to distract me Alister began to kiss at my throat again. He began to scissor his fingers, causing a soft moan to blurt out of my mouth, and he began to move in and out, while scissoring, and then he hit it. My prostate was hit by his middle finger, causing the loudest moan I've ever made in my entire life to come forth, which made Alister groan as he began to move the finger fast and faster. Before adding the third one, which created yet another burn but I ignored it, focusing on Alister lips on my neck. They sucked at the delicate skin, nibbling at it, licking it. I almost didn't realize he pulled his finger out, until I realized I was empty, and craving something bigger. Longer. I let out a small whine at the emptyness before Alister chuckled at me, and I peaked one eye at him, with a pouty look on my face that didn't last long as he rubbed his length against my hole, causing a moan to escape.

Using the wall to hold me, he took his other hand and gently wrapped it around my length, giving it a gentle tug, making a moan escape. I couldn't get harder. I was already filled with pleasure and he hasn't even truly started yet.

"Ready?" He asked gently, looking me in the eyes, making me look at him, before I smiled at him.

"Ready."

He smiled at me, releasing my length to push my bangs off my face, the soaking wet hair, sticking to the rest of my hair upon contact before he kissed my forehead, and he pushed his length at my entrance before his head was sucessfully in, and he slowly pushed the rest in, and I let out a desperate moan, at the stretch it was causing. A burning sensation followed the length until it was seated in. I felt full, and I knew that tomorrow I would be unable to walk.

I rested my head against the shower walls try to adjust to his size, and he rested his forehead against my shoulder blade, taking shallow breaths.

"Fuck your so tight." Alister mutter against my shoulder, causing my cheeks to flame up and I experimently rotated my hips, which caused Alister to moan loudly.

"M-move." I said quietly after a few minutes, deciding that dragging it out would do neither of us any good.

Alister let out a quiet sigh, before pulling his length out slightly before slamming it back in, causing a moan to escape my lips. It felt so good, it easily over powered the pain. He did that motion slowly again and again, before he sped up, and this time he was aiming for my prostate. He's a good aimer and he hit it again and again, each time making a moan escape me each time he hit it right on. Alister, reached out and wrapped his hands around my length giving it tugs, causing my stomach muscles to tighten up, and I knew my release was close as he continued to give my length a and hit my prostate.

"I'm, I'm a-about t-to-!" I tried to tell him but he shushed me.

"I know, me too." I had known he was about to as he thrusts got sloppier as he went on.

I looked back at Alister looking him in the eyes, and I cummed. My length shot my semen out coating his stomach and mine before the shower water washed it away, and it took no more than three more thrusted before Alister froze and came inside of me. The warmth was pleasant, and he thrust until he was drained. He remained inside of me, taking deep breaths, before he gently pulled out, and his semen dripped out as well, making me slightly miss his length and the warmth that came with it. I let my legs drop from my waist and crashed my head against his chest, a relieved sigh escaping me.

We stood in silence until Alister grabbed a wet rag and began to clean me, especially the areas he tainted.

We finished cleaning each other off, and he turned the water off before reaching out of the now open door and grabbing a fluffy towel and wrapped it around me, booping my nose, before hugging me to his chest,

"You are amazing." He said as he kissed the top of my damp head.

I looked up at him in passion. "You are too."

He grabbed another towel and wrapped himself as well, before taking my hand and we walked out of the now steamy bathroom and into his bedroom, drying ourselves off before climbing into his bed, forgetting clothes and fell asleep, cuddled together under the covers.

Not caring that it was 11 in the morning.

Why care, we had each other and that's all that mattered.