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"Mommy!!"my niece screamed as she ran over to her mom who had just walked in with my brother Leon.

I smiled before turning around to finish eating my food.

"Well you can stay here as long as you need babe, your father and I don't mind."my mama said to me and I nodded.

"Thank you."

"You don't have to thank me or him, you're still our child Shay."

"How you doing mama? Where ya old man at?"Leon asked my mama as he walked into the kitchen to hug her.

"There he is right there and I'm fine."she said while pointing at him who was walking down the stairs.

"Aight, wassup."Leon said while looking at me.

I just smiled before looking down.

"How you doing?"

I spoke quickly, "Good."

"Daddy who's that girl."the curly haired little girl asked her dad as she looked at me.

He picked her up.

"That's your auntie, my sister."

"What's her name?"

"Ask her."

She stared at me before putting her finger in her mouth.

"What's your name?"

I smiled at her, "Shay, what's yours?"

"Awi."she smiled.

"Girl tell her your full name."her mother said.

"Ariana Noel Fischer."

"You got a pretty name, I like your name."I said and she laughed before running away.

"Yeah that name's gonna go a long way."my dad as he walked into the kitchen.

"Shay!? How you doing?"he looked at me and said.

I finished up my last bite, "I- I'm fine."

They all got caught up in a conversation not even noticing that I had escaped and went back to the room I was staying in.

I closed the door before going to sit on the bed.

My phone caught my attention and I picked it up off of the charger.

The first thing I saw was...

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Ofn when I find you gang ima beat yo ass😈

50 Missed Calls

I sighed while scrolling through my Notification Center.

TWIN NEM💃🏾🤞🏽❤️ 25 min ago

Yeah bitch we're concerned. Are you safe or what?

Girl wya? Von is going crazy, we can't keep his ass tamed for long.

I decided to text the group chat back and let them know that I was safe.

They were asking me where I was and shit but I couldn't tell them exactly, so I played it off.

I don't trust Booka or Muwop, so I couldn't actually let them know the real.

"Uh Shay!"I heard a knock at the door.

I jumped and threw my phone down, "Yes?"

"Are you busy? You mind if I come in?"I heard my dad say.

I hesitated, "N- no come in."

He walked in and closed the door.

I watched him as he came and sat next to me on the bed.

He chuckled, "I remember the first moment I saw you. You had a head full of curly hair, chubby cheeks, and those big pretty brown eyes of yours. Your mama was so tired and warn out after birth, she just left me to hold you. And I remember that whole day I wouldn't put you down. That was actually the last time I had saw you."

"Why didn't you take me with you?"I asked him.

"There was no way I could've raised three children on my own."

"On your own? You were old enough, you had money. My mama didn't have anything or anybody except for my grandmother. It wasn't even three at the time, it was two. Why did you continue to get my mama pregnant knowing damn well she couldn't properly take care of three kids?"

"I mean people slip up, it wasn't my fault that I couldn't control myself.

"Okay so who's fault was it!? Why did you leave me in that kind of environment? I understand that 'couldn't have raised two children on your own' but you had money. You knew I was your child and you didn't do a damn thing about it. You left my mother and my grandmother, who were already living in poverty, to take care of me."

"So you gone put all of the blame on me huh? I'm not the one who left you with your grandmother. I'm not the one wh—"

I stood up, "Who what!? You're damn right, why the fuck would I blame her for everything!? Even when I got older you still could've made some type of effort to care of your child!! When she left, I should've been able to fall back on you as my fucking father!! When my grandmother died and I was left alone, you should've been there!!! When I had my first fucking heartbreak you should've been there!!! Before I went to Miami I should've been able to call on you and her!! I needed you to protect me and you weren't there. You didn't do shit, at least she fucking tried."

I sat down on the floor with my head in my knees pouring my heart out.

This whole situation I was in just hurt me to the fucking core.

I'm having a hard time trynna give my parent's a chance, I'm pregnant with two fucking babies, and Von's doing me wrong on top of that.

What more can a bitch take like I'm so tired.

"Can I be honest with you Shay?"he asked me.

"What the fuck are we lying for!?"

"I was young and caught up in my own parent's world. Shit whatever they said went. When they told me that I couldn't bring no more children in their house, that was it. I knew it, I knew I had fucked up. Shit I thought about you everyday. I felt bad and I still do til th—"

"That still doesn't change the fact that you grew the fuck up, or did you? Or the fact that you still could've sent something or did something. All of this shit that you're saying are excuses bro. Just fucking admit that you were wrong and fucking apologize. Don't even do that, 'cause I forgot you still haven't grew up. Don't even worry about it, you can get out or I will."

"Shay you can say what you wanna say baby, no matter what, I'll always love y—"

"Get out!!!"

I heard the door close and I climbed into the bed and cried myself to sleep.

It's gonna take me a while to forgive him.

I'm still hurt by the fact that he knew about me and still didn't do shit about me.