My mom explained everything to me, and I think my mouth was hanging open the whole time. I could feel my blood starting to boil. I never shot a gun or held one a day in my life, but I felt like shooting a Nigga in his dick and in the middle of his head but I'm too pretty to go to jail. My left leg started shaking from being anxious and fucking mad!

"Mom, what the fuck!" I shouted standing up. Everything she was saying started settling into my brain. I started grabbing two fist full of my hair, repeating "what the fuck" over and over. I couldn't do anything but cry. My knees got weak and I just fell to the floor, crying. My mom got up and came over to me whispering "I'm so sorry, as she held me as we cried together.

Bitch,

Marlon was a low-down dirty dog. Like no, really... As my mom broke down how she knew Marlon everything just started to sound like a setup to get back at my dead father. Who builds their life or live their life day to day just to one day get their enemy back for some bullshit that was done? A fucking psycho! Even though I didn't want to believe anything she said I had to go off of what she said. I know we agreed on not going to the graduation party, but I had too, I couldn't let this go.

I sat at my desk looking out the window trying to gather my thoughts. It had been a day since my mom told me about Marlon, I went to bed so damn early I was up getting a workout in around 5am. I mapped out exactly how I plan on ruining the party I just hope it all goes well.

My mom decided she was going to take a day off to go get a massage after ruining my life, I guess that's what I get for sleeping with a grown ass man. But fuck it I'm about to go off to college and I'm about to go out with a bang! The party starts at 6pm and it was already 5:30. I picked out my fit for the night, a cute black jumpsuit and some black glass slipper heels. Uninvited should always show up fresh as fuck! Plus, Jackson was going to be there, and I know I can't show up looking any kind of way.

I had two objectives when going to this party, confront Marlon dirty ass and possibly talk to Jackson... that's if I can even find him. I could hear the party coming into the neighborhood I reached Liah's street and cars was on both sides of the street before reaching her house, seems like the whole school and others was invited to the party, everybody but me. But I'm here anyway. While everyone was trying to see if they were on the guest list, I bypassed the front lawn and walked into the neighbor's backyard. Leigh and I always snuck out the house by hopping the fence and running down the side of the house. I took my heels off and hopped over, after getting myself together I ran behind the shed to put my heels on and also peep the scene to make sure no one was paying attention. When I started walking towards the side of the house to make my way into the side door by the kitchen, I noticed Leahs mom standing at a table talking to some of the boosters... and when I say boosters, they weren't your ordinary boosters. They will steal your watch without you knowing, if it's worth time. I didn't want to look too long because I know people can feel when someone is looking at them at least I can. But it was too late, one of the boosters got her attention and our eyes met each other's. I could see the invisible steam coming from her ears. Because not only was I not supposed to be here, but the theme of the party was obviously the college Leah choose to go too. While everyone else had on gold or purple we had on black... guess we both was dressed for a funeral. Relief came over her face when her eyes shifted away from me, I followed her eyes and my eyes landed on Marlon. My body immediately went numb, and I felt like I was going to throw up or shit on myself. To prevent either I ran past Marlon, to the side door and locked myself inside the bathroom just off the kitchen. I finally took a deep breath in and slowly let it out. My mouth started watering I hurriedly crawled over to the toilet bowl and lifted the seat before throwing up. The Evans always kept complementary mouthwash just for parties and situations like this. So, after I gathered myself, reapplied any makeup that needed retouching, and fixed my hair. I took more deep breaths to get my mind right to confr— "Ayo, open up its Jackson" my heart dropped when I heard his voice. I haven't heard it since prom weeks ago. I opened the door and he stepped in. He looked me over and then lifted my chin with his finger. We were staring in each other's eyes I felt like he was looking deep in my soul, my heart was racing because I didn't know what he was thinking. His eyes weren't looking like the soft eyes he always looked at me with. They were actually cold. I saw nothing. My eyes started to water because I felt like he no longer felt anything for me. He released my face to reach behind me and lock the door never taking his eyes off of mine. I was barely breathing at this point. I couldn't figure out if he was going to kiss me or choke me. I already knew he read my journal and I just couldn't even think about what he read. "Turn around" he whispered deeply. His deep voice vibrated through my body and made me feel butterflies all over again. I obeyed and turned and faced the mirror. He pulled my hair back that I had hanging on the sides and put it behind my ear. He then whispered, "Look in the mirror." Our eyes met again, and he started to lick my earlobe with the tip of his tongue, I bit my lip and started to moan. "Shh, I don't want you to say nothing keep your eyes open." He resumed back to ear and then started going down to my neck, making circles and then sucking the same spot he outlined. Taking his left hand and putting it firmly around my throat while using his right hand to unzip my suit. Revealing my breast, hmm no bra? he asked. My pants fell to the grown, and no panties? he stated obviously. "You want to be a nasty slut huh? his hand tightened a little but still allowed me to breathe. His right hand started exploring my body starting with my breast, pinching my right and then my left nipple bringing them to attention. Then sliding down to my belly button and paused before reaching my vagina. Bringing his tongue back to my earlobes he licked and then bit me. I winced but never took my eyes of him. He met my eyes again and softly popped me on the lips of my vagina. "You gave this away to someone who didn't mean shit to you hm?" I felt the coldness through his whispers as he continued to look at me in the mirror talk. "You want to act like a slut, be fucked like a slut or do you want to be one? You want to play games? Let's play." Jackson let go of my throat and grabbed a fist full of hair yanking my head back towards his chest. "Turn around and suck this dick." he demanded. I got on my knees and started sucking like it was my last time and it probably was, so I had to make it worth it. He started fucking my mouth, fucking through all my gags until he exploded down my throat. With his hand still gripping my hair he pulled me back up to face the mirror. "Bend over and spread them legs." My juices just started running down my leg. He let out a moan while pushing himself into me. It felt so good to have him in me again I couldn't help but to fuck him back, but he stopped that. "I'm doing the fucking." he stated. And he did just that, it was hard to not moan and every time I did, he choked me or smacked my ass. until we both came at the same time. After cleaning ourselves up we held another deep staring contest. It probably would've lasted long if there wasn't a knock at the door. He opened it slightly and walked past whoever was standing there.

The door opened up further and Marlon was standing on the other side staring at me with hungry eyes. The peacefulness I felt with Jackson went out the door with him and fear entered the room and my heart. I started to slightly panic because my plan wasn't to confront him in a tiny ass bathroom. I braced myself for whatever he was about to say or do. Come join the party since you decided to crash it. he smirked. I actually got you something it's in the man cave he paused, I promise I won't bite... or at least try not to. He stated while licking his lips. Even though I didn't really want to go there with him I knew I had too if I wanted to go through with my plan. I nodded and followed him. When I stepped out the bathroom, I could see Jackson and Leigh in the kitchen I don't know if he saw Marlon, but our eyes definitely met again when I glanced at him. I don't know if he saw the panic in my eyes, but I know I felt the panic in my body. So instead of following Marlon I went back outside the same way I came in. Luckly for me it was time for the speech of the night from Leigh's mom. Those that could fit around the stage they had built for tonight gathered and clapped for the lady of the evening as she graced the stage. I'm not going to lie she definitely looked beautiful with her purple sparkly gown. She has her way of stealing the crowd's attention no matter where she goes.

But my focus had turned to Jackson, I had peeped him in the front when she came on the stage, but I didn't see when he left that spot. My eyes started scanning the crowd looking for him, but I could no longer see the front of the crowd. I wasn't about to go up to the front, so I turned back around and went back inside. The house was pretty much empty besides the chefs cleaning up their dishes. I checked my phone for the time it was already 8. I haven't accomplished my goal, so I headed towards the mancave. I walked in and I suddenly felt uneasy, the lights were dimmed but I could still make out what was in front of me. I saw a gift bag sitting on the table in front of the couch. It must have been the something he had for me. I went over and removed the paper that was inside of it and pulled out a black lingerie set. I threw it right back in the bag and headed for the door when Marlon appeared out of nowhere. "You didn't like the gift?" He asked with disappointment in his voice. I turned around and stood on the wall near the house speaker. "You didn't take the hint that I wanted nothing to do with you after that night? I shouldn't of even came there in the first place. But to make matters worse you drugged me? "Look it wasn't that much you were acting way too stuck on Jackson I had to get you warmed up to how you were in the beginning." He started walking towards me. "Don't." I stated putting my hand in front of me. "Do not come any closer to me, I know who you really are." Now was the time, I placed my free hand on the speaker system for the house which connects to the inside and outside of the house. He turned his head to the side and asked, "What do you mean you know who I really am?" I felt the knob click on the speaker... showtime! I felt my phone vibrating but now was not the time, I needed to get my point across! First off let's begin with you being after me for fucking revenge. You're a very calculated person. Like how did you even know he was going to have a daughter? huh? Or it probably wouldn't have mattered if I was a girl or a boy. "What are you talking about?" He asked me while looking shocked with the information I already exposed. "Mike Levi, do that ring a bell?" I stared at him, and he didn't blink once. So, I kept talking and my phone continued to go off. "Mike, was my father but you know he unexpectedly died when he was on a work trip." When I knew I had his attention I moved away from the door and started to walk towards the fireplace, his eyes following my every move. "See unfortunately I had to ruin my relationship with people to find out who you really were. A married straight man is what you want to be, but you're actually bisexual, right? My daddy told my mom about his college days before they met and how he was just experimenting, and you were an experiment gone wrong."

I could feel the tension in the room grow and from the way he was standing with his fist bawled and anger growing in his eyes I knew I had him.

"Mike just wanted his dick sucked and you wanted your ass fucked. Sounded like you were the throat king on campus and thought he was going to be the one to actually fuck you?" I started laughing. He started charging towards, but I grabbed the fireplace poker stick and pointed it towards him. "Don't think about it." I moved around the couch and near the door. "You're sick for using me as a piece of revenge because you couldn't get no dick!" With the stick still pointing towards him he started walking towards me then he stopped and sat on the back of the couch and started clapping. "Yay, you figured me out." he said sarcastically. "Yeah, I remember Mike but don't flatter yourself you weren't the only piece of revenge I got I mean... your mom knows the dick is mesmerizing, the apple doesn't fall too far from the tree.

He had me... I was stuck and lost for words. My eyes started to fill up with tears. I opened the door and found the nearest room to go into. I ended up in the guest room bawling my eyes out in the bathroom. I was just in disbelief and wasn't sure how much was true like as if the shit couldn't get worst... I don't think I can take anything else this shit is wicked. So many questions that I didn't want the answer too was running through my head. At this point the mascara I had on was completely wiped off and my lipstick was fading away. I started fixing myself up to look half presentable after being embarrassed. I didn't know if people left or if anyone even heard what happened, but I just wanted to be gone. I was heading out the bathroom when the door to the room started to open. All I could get out was a "oh shit" before hiding in the closet without fully sliding it close. "Jackson, have you seen her?" I couldn't see her, but I knew it was Leigh and obviously Jackson. "Did you hear what the fuck she just said, what he said?" She sat on the edge of the bed. "I heard, but your mom cleared the party out real fast you sure she doesn't know about it?" The room was silent for a moment and the Leigh spoke, "I'm really not sure, I would think she didn't know but obviously it's been some sneaky shit going on and I just don't know what to think." Jackson sat beside her on the bed and grabbed her hand. "You know I got you, it's a lot going on but since shit started getting weird, I been here for you it ain't gonna change. In a couple months you'll be in college and all this bullshit will be behind you. He kissed her forehead and stood up with his hand out for her to grab it. They hugged and then separated. She sighed before speaking, "Ima go find my mom, thank you for being there when I needed you it's been a short time but I'm appreciative." She leaned in kissed him on the cheek and walked out.

Jackson stood there for a second before walking towards the bedroom door. I waited to hear it close before getting out the closet, but the closet ended up opening before I could do it. Jackson stood there looking down at me and I was looking up at him. He extended his hand to help me up. "What are you doing?" He asked. "Umm, I was in the bathroom and was about to walk out but y'all walked in and I ended up there." I said pointing towards the closet. "Nah man what the fuck are you doing dawg? You blasted that shit all over the neighborhood basically, you didn't have a better way going about it?" "I went about it the way I wanted too, now everybody knows just how disgusting he is, and you never know, maybe I wasn't the only person at the party with that secret but it's out now. I'm ready to get out of here." I turned to leave but he grabbed my arm to turn around. "You want to leave after you had your mom's information blasted as well? You do harm and then you want to leave?? He asked me. "I know that but that's information she should've told me when she told me everything else that night! I don't care who feelings are hurt because mine been hurting as well, I know what I did was not right at all, but it's done now I can't take that back. I fucked up that shit hurts Jackson, I'm just ready to get away. I was going to wait but there's no need anymore. I don't have anything here." Tears started streaming down my face because I knew I wasn't going to talk to my mom anymore and I knew me and Jackson were over I felt it. Jackson picked my face up and wiped my tears. "You look too beautiful tonight to be crying, even though our relationship is broken I never said I wouldn't be here for you. I'll always love you Asha we just need sometime apart to heal from this high school shit. I'm going away to play football overseas, but I'll keep in contact. Maybe down the line our paths will meet back up." He planted a kiss on my forehead and pulled me into his arms. I started to cry more but I pulled myself together enough to pull out of the hug. I gave him a kiss on his lips and said, "See you later" and walked straight to my car ignoring everyone calling my name and drove off. 

1 month later....

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