I shouldn't have came to the party.

As soon as we got here Karsen was taken away from my side, and even if he asked me to come with him where all the music was but I couldn't.

I preferred not too.

It was a much too loud and crowded for my liking.

Thankfully I found Brent and his friends, and were with them till Brent and I went outside, both drinking cold drink, since he was the driver tonight and I just didn't know where to get alcohol around here without feeling like... out of place since i've never been to Matt's house before.

So when I needed to go to the bathroom after a lot of liquids, it was a very tough time finding it, and even tougher waiting for the line to significantly lessen.

There were so many bathrooms here, since there were a lot of bedrooms, but people were in their probably fucking and the doors were locked so, yeah, we had to wait out here.

So now I was waiting in the hallway for the bathroom, which was not fun at all, especially when I was alone, wondering where my so called pathetic excuse of a friend who seemed to love kissing me was.

He probably was drunk, fucking one of the girls in these bedrooms and here I was in the hallway, in the need of a emptying my bladder.

Finally the line was gone, and I was about to walk in when the girl came out, finally.

I quite literally sighed in relief.

That is of course till a couple beat me to it, pushing past me and slammed the door right in my face just when I was an inch away.

For a second, I almost burst out crying like my bladder dared to but I stopped myself, breathing in for a few seconds and then out before resuming my leaning on the hallway wall, my head falling back as I groan loudly.

"You okay there?" A familiar voice asked and I looked down the hall.

Karsen looked back at me with a small secretive smirk, hands in his hoodies pockets and I rolled my eyes, "I need to pee but a couple pushed me out and is now reproducing in there." I mumbled.

He walked over to me, passing me, and he gets to the door, forming a first before knocking on it hard and my eyes widened when he opened the door handle, looking in to the people, not even so much as caring about their possible sex fest, "Did you not fucking see that my girlfriend was waiting to use the bathroom?"

My jaw drops.

Literally.

My girlfriend.

Holy shit. He was always nice and it was sweet for the most, but this? This was kinda... hot.

"Theres a bedroom, down the hall to the right, the doors are open." He told them, not really giving them any other options.

The two scrambled out, the guy who had lipstick on his shirt giving Karsen a nod which he returned barely and I rolled my eyes at the exchange, ignoring the, my girlfriend, part, and looking to the inside of the bathroom.

"Its probably all- contaminated, in there." I mumbled as I moved under his arm and walked through the little space, getting inside of the bathroom, "But, thank you anyway." I said, looking down to the inside of the door, wanting to scream when I see no key, "Theres no lock inside here Krist."

"I'll wait out here."

I nodded and closed the door, sighing softly when I did my business and washed my hands after, wiping the liner beneath my eyes that seemed to smudge before I exited the bathroom.

Just as he said he'd wait he was still waiting, leaning on the wall, typing away on his phone before he looked over at me, smiling gently and I just stared at him, lips in a line.

"Are you okay?"

"Im fine." I say.

"I mean the party? Are you okay with it?"

"Its okay, I think my non existent extroverted person meter just finished though." I mumbled as I pushed both sides of my hair back behind my ears.

I walked over to his side and he poked me with something.

I looked to him, looked down and he held out a key.

"Matt let me use his bedroom key, its the one thats locked, you can go in there if you wanna."

I blinked down at the key.

"Are you gonna come with me?"

He rose a brow almost cheekily, "What do you wanna do?"

I glared at his flirting, "Nothing, actually, i'll just take the key." I snapped, grabbing the key from him, "You can go."

Like you did before.

"You've left me alone the whole night anyway." I muttered the last bit to myself, crossing my arms over my chest as I walked down the other way of the wall and came to a room with a big M, on it.

Definitely Matt's room.

Probably from when he was younger.

I unlocked the door and walked in, closing it behind me and locking it again and turning around.

I put the lights on but when it was far too bright for my liking I put it back off and decided to open the curtains to let in some moon light, letting in the little light that would come from outside and thankfully no one could see in here since it was tinted.

I sighed and walked over, falling back on the bed, looking around and finding his boyfriends guitar laying on the floor, his en suite and a lot more of junk just laying around, and something that looked a lot like a video games put in a tower between textbooks and normal reading books, also some music books that were probably his boyfriends, not his.

Oh this was definitely Matt's bedroom.

After sometime of just laying there, listening to the music downstairs and staring at the ceiling I heard a knock on the door and turned to look at it.

I just laid there again, looking back up for a moment till the knock sounded again.

Maybe its Matt.

I stood up with a loud groan, stretching my limbs and walked over to the door, unlocking it and opening it just for my eyes to meet a green pair.

I huffed, narrowing my gaze on him, "What?"

"You're so delightful." He mumbled as he pushed past me and got in the room, "I brought alcohol." Karsen said, dropping back to the bed and I rolled my eyes as I moved over to him, grabbing the bottle and downing some before I passed it over to him.

I laid back on the bed beside him, "Where'd you go?"

"Cherry."

I scoffed loudly, not meaning to let the scoff out but it comes out anyway and he looked to me after taking his own gulp of alcohol, "What?"

"Nothing." I say quickly.

"No, tell me." He pushes.

"No."

"Addy."

I keep quiet.

"Adrienne."

I huffed softly. "It's so damn obvious she likes you."

"So?"

"So its weird, im here with you but you wanna be with her, I could've just went home Karsen."

"Not- not because you don't want me to be with someone else?" He asked me and at that I looked to him beside me, "Im not that pathetic Karsen." I mumbled.

"You're not at all."

"Which part?"

"You pick." He said, his eyes burning holes into mine.

I looked away and up to the roof, "I understand why you do it."

"Do what?"

"Have sex so often." I said with a roll of my eyes before he passed me the alcohol bottle again and I gulped some down, passing it over to him.

I knew how good it felt to forgot everything when we were kissing.

I bet sex worked perfectly.

"So what, do you fuck guys in private or something?" He asked me and it almost made me choke, but I refrained from doing so.

"Im actually a virgin." I told him with a shrug, holding a hand out for more alcohol but he didn't pass it to me.

I looked to him and his eyes were a little wider than i'd like to admit. And he was staring at me.

"What?"

"You're a virgin?" He asked, almost like it was unusual.

"Yes?"

"So you haven't had sex?"

"Well thats what a virgin is, is it not?" I asked him with a quirk of a brow and he snorted, "Yeah- but- its like...its college." He says, scratching his brow and he paused before saying, "So not at all?"

I shake my head. "Nope."

"Why?"

"Don't really have time to do fuck people when you're trying to live Karsen." He had no idea what I meant.

"I did."

"Of course, because you're you." I muttered, massaging at my temples.

"Im me?"

"Yes. So smart, so handsome, so sporty, so funny, a people person, you're so damn fucking perfect, aren't you, Karsen?"

"You sound..."

"Jealous?" I asked.

"Resentful." He finished.

I hummed, licking over my lower lip.

There was a small part of me that always did resent him.

"Envious." I murmured as I laid my arm over my eyes, my chest lifting as I breathed and now I was warm with a soft ringing sound in my ears.

I was definitely drunk.

"I think you're smart too." He said, pulling my arm down and I looked up to him beside me, shoulder to shoulder, "Really?"

He scoffed, "You are smart Addy, you know it too."

His eyes met mine directly when he said, "And beautiful, you're so beautiful, so smart, you're fucking talented too, hell you paint beautifully, you talk beautifully, you're sarcasm is actually amusing, even that glare of yours is cute and I like that you're picky with the people around you because not everyone deserves to be around you."

In that moment it felt like this wasn't real. No one has ever been this sweet to me.

"Thats the nicest thing anyone has ever said to me." I admit, half in shock and daze. He was so close to me right now.

"There's so many more nice things I want to say to you... so many nice things I want to do to you." He murmurs, leaning down closer and when his forehead presses to mine my chest rose even higher, faster, quicker.

"Like what?" I whisper, wanting nothing more than for him to kiss me like he had earlier, protectively.

"Like, that I don't want Cherry."

"Then who?" I asked, my stomach somersaulting.

"I want you." He told me, tipping my chin back till our mouths almost touched, "I want to do more than fuck you."

My lips parted.

Yeah Karsen has flirted a fair amount of times with me, but his never- well- this.

"I especially want to kiss you again."

"Y- you heard the part where I said im a twenty two year old virgin, right?"

"Yep." He replied, kissing beside my lip, "And now you have time to fuck... one guy." He joked, smiling and I smiled too without meaning to.

One guy. As in just him.

"You're just trying to fuck me Krist."

"Maybe, is it working Addy?"

I had no idea if he was joking.

"N-no not at all." I spoke and he hummed at my sarcasm, moving his lips to my jaw instead. I felt the tip of his nose trail up my jawline till he finally kissed my ear which made me shiver.

"Did you lock the door?" He whispers.

I barely nodded at his words, too focused on him to care about a stupid door.

And that's when he pulled me onto his lap.

I gasped when his lips pressed to my neck, kissing my flesh, tongue tasting.

My eyes widened when his hands came up to mine, pulling my hands up till it was on his shoulders and his slid down me, pressing on to my waist.

I was nervous, really nervous till he sucked on a spot below my ear and my worries seemed to wash away. My body pressing into his as I mover closer into him.

He tugged off the jersey from my body, pulling it off till the flimsy material of my thin singlet was all I had on along with my skirt.

He tipped my head back down and his lips grazed mine, our eyes meeting and I let my hands move back around his neck, "Are you gonna kiss me yet?" I asked him, sliding my hands into his hair when his eyes moved from my lips and to mine, "Or do you want to stop?"

He smirked, nudging my nose with his own, "Kiss me first Addy."

Surprising myself.

I did.

I leaned in and pressed my lips to his.

His lips were so soft. As always.

I felt everything drown around us for a second.

No sound, no feeling.

Just our kiss which was not our first, but it felt like it, it felt like we hadn't ever kissed before but it was in someway needy, this kiss was from pure undeniable desire.

I knew so much, I always have. I knew I envied him for the longest time which only made me resent him, I knew everything, so much, but when we kissed I forgot every single thing.

We were just two people in a bedroom.

And this kiss was just a kiss.

He pulled me closer to him by my waist, my knees slowly digging further into the bed as the rush of blood hit my body, warmth enveloping my entire being, from my hands to my toes.

My hands moved to his jaw , deepening the kiss till he moaned softly against my mouth, "Open." He murmured, "W-what?" I asked breathlessly against his lips. "Open your mouth Adrienne."

I hesitated but I did, parting my lips just for his tongue to slide inside my mouth and he sucks lightly at my own, a groan leaving his mouth when a small gasp left mine, "Fuck baby." He whispered softly into my mouth and I whimpered, not meaning to but I couldn't control what sounds I made or what I did, or even felt in this very moment.

Our lips moved in sync again, lips parting, opening, closing, tongues tasting, all at the same time till he moved back, both of us breathless, staring at one another with our lips slightly parted.

Before I could speak and ruin this moment he leaned forward and kissed my worries away, my tense muscles melted beneath his lips and he picked me up, turning us over and laying me down on the bed, hovering his lips over mine till he pressed our mouths together again.

Our kisses grew so much more passionate, lips parted, tongues meeting, licking and bitting till he moved back and down my neck.

With a quick flick of his fingers he unbuttoned my skirt and I looked down to where he pulled them down my thighs.

"Want me to stop?" He asked and I shook my head, "Don't stop." I pant, still staring at his fingers that pulled my skirt down to my thighs, my panties coming to sight and I looked back up to him, "Please keep kissing my neck."

He did, he kissed me harder on my neck, and I wish I could imprint the outline of it there.

I bit my lip, wiggling out my skirt till I was able to kick it off around my ankles and to the floor, his hands trailed up the sides of my legs, up beneath my shirt like it always did, his warm hands running up my even hotter skin.

"I love how warm you are." He murmured into my ear and I gulped, even this I wouldn't let him win, dirty talk was gonna be for both of us, "Im warm everywhere."

He bit lightly on my ear lobe and I grinned, "I know what you're doing." He whispered, "And its not gonna work Adrienne."

"We'll see." I told him as I moved closer to his ear, tugging his shirt up, "Take your hoodie off for me Karsen."

"Fuck you're a little demon." He mumbled as he leaned back and pulled his hoodie off from the bottom up, dropping it to the bed and I giggled softly, a small smirk on his face when he leaned down and captured my lips against his all over again.

My head tilted back against the pillow and I bit on his lip, sucking it into my mouth as I fumbled with his jean button, he groaned into my mouth, pushing my hands back and pining them down to the bed and I whimper softly.

"Since when were you so damn bold?" He asked, taking both of my hands into one as he pulled my top of my body. "I want to be good at this too." I told him honestly, smiling till he looked down to my body when the shirt was off of me.

His eyes running down from my toes to my head but this time I didn't feel as hesitant for him to see me naked this time, "You're the worst smartass." He murmured jokingly as he kissed me again, "How could you hide this body from me?"

I lick over my lower lip , "It was never hidden, you just fucked everyone but me."

"Jealous?" He asked softly, "Don't be, you're my girl baby." He murmured into my ear, "All mine, and I'll take such good care of whats mine if she lets me."

My body burned, a needy sigh leaving my mouth without my permission and he smirked against my ear before he let go of both my hands.

He was always sweet, always nice, but he was equally as dirty and we both knew it, "Im better at this." He says against my cheek, kissing my skin softly.

"Fuck you." I breathed and he sighed as he undid his jean button, "All in time Adrienne, all in time."

I rolled my eyes, watching him get his pants off before he picked me up, pulling me further up the bed and I was in the middle of the bed when he kissed me again.

My hands sliding up into his hair and tugging softly at the roots when he pulled my panties down my legs, biting on my lip and I moaned his name softly.

He ran his hands up my thighs and my eyes widened when he touched my very private area, specifically because I knew how wet I was there.

He hummed, slowly circling my nub between his fingers and I bit down on my lip at the sensation, "I thought I had to use my tongue first but fuck, you're drenched and ready already." He told me and I wanted to hide my face, hide the evident fluster, but I knew he'd know I was shy and he'd say how cute it is and not at all, bold.

I wait for him to get my panties off my body and when he did he kissed my neck, "Back up."

I arched my back up, pressing my chest to his and he unclasped my bra, throwing it off of me in one swift motion and my eyes widened as I laid back on the bed, "You did that awfully quick."

"Practice."

I glared and he smirked, running his hands down my jaw, rubbing over the skin there, "You make jealousy look so good."

"Shut it Krist." I hiss softly before he kissed me again, I slide my legs around his waist, pulling his body closer to mine and he lets me.

His eyes trailed my body and he groaned softly, "You're really perfect." He told me, kissing at my jaw, rubbing his hands down the curve of my breast to my naked waist.

"Im hard just thinking about how good you'll be in bed too." He murmured and my breath caught in my throat, "You know me, ms perfectioni- fuck." I breathed when I felt him hard and, big, very big, and between my legs.

"What was that?"

"Nothing." I blurted out, not wanting him to know how extremely turned on I was, and partially how nervous I began to feel.

He hummed unconvinced as he got his boxers off and opened my legs wider, kissing my mouth once more.

"It'll hurt a little."

"I'll try to scream softly." I joked and he smirked against my mouth, "I didn't say that baby, I want you to let everyone know who's fucking you."

"I think they'll assume my only friend is fucking me anyway." I tease, trying to stop his flirting that made my cheeks grow red and breathing shallow. "I thought Brent was your friend?" He says, the jealousy clear as day in his tone, "Do you fuck all your friends Adrienne?"

"You're special." I tease and he smirks, humming, "I love being special, especially to you."

I hum, kissing him again, a gentle open mouthed kiss.

"Maybe you should say my name." I murmured when I move back as I felt the head of his cock line up with my entrance and I almost choked when his tip grazed over my throbbing clit, my eyes fluttering closed.

"Why?"

"B-because."

"Because what baby, tell me."

Fuck!

"Because, its me you're fucking tonight." I breathed and he hummed. "Or maybe not just tonight." He says softly back.

I feel his cock grow when he slowly begins pushing into me, and honestly, it felt like he was splitting me in half.