Life was weird.

I really believed Adrienne didn't want me too after what she had said in the bathroom the night after we stayed together in the tent , and at first, even if I acted unaffected, I couldn't stop thinking about it, how she'd told me that she didn't want me, all she wanted was to be wanted.

That's it.

'I just wanted to be wanted.' She had no idea how badly she actually was wanted by me. No freaking clue.

Then she was drunk and she was jealous, she was so damn jealous. Then she went to the bathroom with that guy, but she didn't smell like him, and she didn't look disheveled, her dress kind of smelled like alcohol and I believed her spilling the alcohol on him because her spilling things wasn't anything uncommon, and she had a damp spot on the top of the dress.

Hours after entering the club we were in an alley and she was kissing my neck and touching me, her hands up my shirt and in my hair.

I thought she didn't want me, but that was until she was rubbing herself on me, till she put my hand up her dress, my fingers inside of her sweet, sweet pussy, her lips on mine, her moans in my mouth and fuck I wanted more of her, badly.

She shouldn't have done that. Because now I knew she wanted me just as much as I wanted her, and I was determined to get her to admit it when she was sober, determined to have her with me in more than friendly ways and to finally make her mine for real, not just for these little ounces of fun.

Except that today she hadn't talked to me, since she wasn't at the lake house when I woke up, she'd already left. And I overthought it, wondering why she hadn't woke me up and kissed me goodbye in the morning or something.

I groaned at the thought of her soft kisses, able to vaguely imagine her body under mine, her lips on mine, her body against mine, her moans and whimpers and fuck her legs wrapped around me as I entered her would be a dream.

A fucking dream.

I needed to have a taste of her everywhere, and if she wanted me to i'd be the happiest fucker in the world.

"Karsen." Summer says my name, looking back to me in the backseat of the car and I look up to her and away from my phone after sending Addy over thirty random emoji's that she hasn't responded to yet.

She's probably ignoring me or something, which wouldn't work for long, i'd see her in a few hours again and talk her ears off.

"You've been staring at your phone for an hour straight, isn't your neck hurting?"

Yes, it was hurting like a bitch, but I needed something back. I needed her to at least leave me on seen. I was desperate for any sort of acknowledgment, and clearly she wouldn't be giving it to me anytime now.

We slept in the same bed last night, having not done anything sexual but I held her and she let me hold her, but when I woke up around 11am with a headache, partially hungover, she wasn't with me in bed.

But the shower was used and the bag she'd used with a few of Summer's things was no longer beside mine in the room.

Then Summer had told me she had already left early with Jake and Matt an hour before I woke up, successful in her mission of avoidance.

I was probably just gonna give her the benefit of the doubt and act like it hadn't happened too, but soon, that bullshit would be over.

I'll make sure of it. Im gonna get my girl.

"It hurts but I'm fine."

She hums, eyeing me, "You ready for your game tomorrow?"

Nope. Not at all. Im actually freaking out over her, just silently, but still my freaking out is happening inwardly.

We went on this lake house trip to clear our minds after our first loss but it wasn't helping that my mind was just on Adrienne at this point.

She was in the front, back, center of it. I breathed her, exhaled her, lived her. She was all I was able to think about and maybe it wasn't such a good thing, but I didn't care, I was falling into a spiral of Adrienne.

Adrienne. Adrienne. Adrienne. Adrienne. Adrienne.

That was my mind now. She consumed me. Completely.

"Im fine, not ready not not ready." I mumble absentmindedly.

"So you're... confused." She asks a little warily and I shrug.

Precisely.

Minutes pass by and I put my phone off and beside me, going through a game plan i'd drawn out since there was nothing else to do till we get home.

But a second later my phone buzzes and I grab it to see Adrienne's name on the screen, I unlock it in record time, looking to see that she'd sent an emoji of a glass.

And the glasses of water is full.

And I can't help but smile.

Fuck.

Her.

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I didn't have time to see Adrienne today, which fucking sucked balls but I had to go to practice before tomorrows game and I knew she'd understand why I didn't immediately drop my bags and speed off to her house.

Of course she'd understand.

She prefers to work alone anyway but I'm genuinely surprised that when its 8pm and Chance and I are walking to a pizza place to meet Summer, she's not at home.

Adrienne is there too.

Her legs are crossed under her in the booth and she leans back against the glass window and she cocks her head to the side at something Summer says, a smirk on her pretty red stained lips, her curls in a low ponytail.

Her lips look bruised red, like they've been kissed way too much, I haven't kissed her since last night, but I bet its still that, it could pass as cherry lip stain but its not.

Its from when we kissed, from me nibbling on her bottom lip, licking, kissing, sucking.

I love those lips.

So beautiful.

I think red was my new favorite color now.

"Hey you." Summer says over to Chance beside me as we walk to both girls and I look over to Addy who blinks, swallowing hard before she smiles at me.

She only smiles at me.

I think.

And I really like that her smiles were reserved for me.

I slide into the booth beside her and she's about to put her legs down to the floor but I just pull her legs back up, and onto my lap.

I like touching her. I like feeling her close to me. I like her.

She keeps her leg there and I rub my hand over her calve in which she almost trembles, a small shiver over her body and only I could tell because I felt it on me. Fuck, I liked that she reacted to me in every way, touch, look, kiss, everything, she had a reaction to it, to me

"We already got pepperoni pizza and cheesy pull garlic bread, but if you guys want anything else then..."

I shake my head and Chance does too. I just wanted pizza, and maybe a taste of the girl beside me but I was probably not gonna get that right now, but all in time.

All in time.

I choose not to remind her of what happened between us last night, I plan on talking about it to her tomorrow after I win the game so i'd let her have a peaceful night tonight.

"You coming to the game tomorrow?" I ask her softly, and she looks over to me, lashes long, face pretty as ever, "I don't know, I need to do some stuff with the project, theres only two weeks left."

My lips twitch down.

What did I expect? She let me finger her and kiss her and now we were together and she should come to all my games? We'd go on dates? She'd stay over at my house? We'd have quickies in my car? Go to classes together? Cook together? Stay together?

I know I'm being fucking stupid but that's exactly what I wanted from her.

I wanted to play every game knowing I got to go to my girl after, to kiss her senseless every time I got the chance, to go home with her and celebrate in our bed, just Adrienne and I.

She made it better, she made everything so much better.

"Do you want me there?" She asks softly, almost a whisper and I look away from her finger nails painted red, long and shaped, and a part of my ached to feel those nails run down my shoulders, into my hair, down my jaw, digging into my back, scratching my back.

"Maybe." I always want you near me Adrienne.

She bites her lip, that fucking lip.

"I'll think about it, but don't get your hopes up Mr Krist."

Oh well, too late, my hopes have already shot through the roof, Ms Faye.