Bringing his small fist to his chest he hisses out in pain and holds onto it tightly. With watery eyes he looks up at Henry, regret fills him and he gulls in fear.

'Stupid. Stupid, Tyler. You shouldn't have punched him!' Tyler scolds himself. Henry rubs his shoulder where Tyler punched. Last year on his eleventh birthday Henry said that he would give him a massive present, a good one but what ended up being in the gift box terrified Tyler. There was a whip and a knife. Henry tried to make Tyler choose between the two and when he didn't choose, Henry got out both. Then on his Tenth surprisingly nothing really happened.

"You have some guts boy," Henry chuckles. This time Edna isn't here to protect him. She's out visiting her sister, she wanted to take Tyler with her but Henry made sure that he stayed.

"Is this amusing to you? Seeing your son in pain, shivering in fear and laying on the ground surrounded in his own blood." Tyler clenches his eyes shut.

"Yes, it is very amusing actually," Henry chuckles.

"Well you deserve ten times the amount of pain that I have dealt with from YOU!" Tyler again scolds himself from saying all of this. It's only giving him more the reason to hurt Tyler. But Tyler can't help but blurt his feelings out, to let the monster before him know that this is not what a father does.

"You've got a backbone now boy? You have some guts to actually say that to ME. I have all the power, that's the funny thing. You say something utterly stupid, I punish you for it and the more that you say, the more I punish you for." Henry's evil grin forms onto his face.

"Do it. Hurt me. But deep down everyone, including you knows that you're a coward. Hiding behind this mask and taking all that pain and anger out on the only person you know that can't fight back. But I will get stronger and you are going to regret everything you've done; to me, to mum. I'll kill you myself."

"Well good thing you are just a sad weak little boy."

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My eyes gaze around looking at all my vampire friends who are in the main pool in the middle of the pool. I'm just sitting on the grass watching them and realising that maybe being a human isn't so great after all. It especially isn't great when practically all of your friends are vampires. There's the temptations to kill me, the cravings, just everything. I don't think I can handle this lonely feeling.

Now you probably think that I'm being a big baby but we all have that baby side in us. I just wish that I could hide it all. I don't know how Tyler does it. How can a person hide their pain so easily? Well I guess you can if you're a vampire, there's a switch in your mind that you can turn off whenever you want to; unfortunately I have to feel, because I'm just a human girl.

It's late in the evening but there are lights around, Christmas like lights in the trees as well as fairy lights, lights wrapped around the big lamp poles. They even went as far to build lights in the pool that change colours, red, pink, purple, blue, yellow. They look like they're having so much fun, using their incredibly fast speed to tackle people into the water, splashing around, playing dodge ball in the water. I'm so lonely.

But I guess it's my choice. I was born to be human after all, wasn't I? Or maybe I was made to be born human and die a vampire. Sighing I run a hand through my light brown long hair, puffing my cheeks out I let out a breath of air and stand up. My eyes meet Tyler's form in the pool, I would tell him that I'm going to bed but he looks like he's having fun. I make my way up the hill to Tyler's house, I open the door and taking two steps at a time up the stairs I walk straight to Tyler's room.

Immediately I jump into the bed, wrapping the covers around me and breathing in Tyler's musky scent. I close my eyes and try to fall asleep but I doesn't seem to be working. I pop my eyes open and look at the clock, it's 8:32 pm no wonder why I can't fall asleep. I usually go to bed around 11-12. So instead I decide to turn on the television, the movie pirates of the Caribbean appears straight away. It's only like ten minutes into the movie so I shrug to myself and lie back.

The door bursts open and I jump up in surprise, Tyler's panicked blue eyes turn into relief and anger. "What the hell, Shae!" He yells at me. I furrow my eyebrows, what did I do wrong? I haven't said or done anything.

"What?" I ask in confusion, he slams the door closed and strides towards the bed. His body is still damp from the pool and he only has his board shorts on, water runs down his chest and as he looks down at me water droplets fall from his black hair. I shake my head and come back to the situation at hand that I don't really know of.

"You left without telling anybody! I was so worried. I looked up and noticed that you were gone, what happened? Why did you leave? You should of told me," I raise an eyebrow at him. Sometimes he treats me like a child and it's really irritating to me, I may be like nine hundred and something years younger than him so technically a child to him but I'm not a child to the human world.

"Sheesh Tyler I'm not a little kid anymore, I can protect myself. Plus, I carry this baby everyone," I pull out a small wooden steak and a few pencils from my pocket. "And I didn't want to bother you, it looked like you were having fun. I felt a little lonely as usual," I would have got in the pool but Mother Nature always has bad timing.

"Well good, you're prepared. Oh and why do you always feel lonely, nothing's changed; yes, Samantha is a vampire now Shae but that doesn't change who she is." My brows shoot up sky high.

"Technically it does. She was a human Tyler and now she's a vampire, practically everything about her has changed. She's stronger, faster, healthier, dead." You know, I really don't know if Tyler is dead or alive since he was born a vampire so does that make him alive?

"You need to stop this pity party Shae, just because you're the only human doesn't mean that you are lonely or that no one cares about you because we all do. Stop thinking about poor old you and think about how Sam might feel about this, you just done understand," he snaps.

I point to my self with both hands, "then help me understand! I don't get any of this. But Tyler, you don't understand either so don't be a hypocrite." I shake my head. I'm so sick of these vampires thinking that they're top shît and just cause they're older they think they know everything when really they don't!

"I've tried! But all that happens is you doing your little pity party for yourself over and over again. Poor me, oh poor me. Poor Shae! Just shut the f*ck up and consider other people around you feelings!" I gasp in surprise and stand, I shove his chest.

"You're such a f*cking jerk. I hate you!" I spit, I walk past him and slam open the door then push it shut harshly. Storming to a random room I open it and I'm glad to see Amy, she looks up and gives me a sad smile. I'm surprised that Edvard isn't sleeping with her. She opens her arms welcoming me into their warm brace, I walk into her arms and I just try to contain the tears, I try to contain my weakness and pain. I just try to contain my pity party like Tyler puts it.

Like I get it, I had my pity party because I'm feeling lonely but people actually feel and they can't turn it off. I'm aloud to feel! I hate it when people judge you for being human. Weak, pathetic, whiny, sook, baby. WELL YOU KNOW NOTHING!

"Just let it all out," she whispers tightening her arms around my frame. I shake my head, my lips quivering. That was like our first big fight. I don't want to cry because it's just making Tyler's point true. I'm weak.

"No."

"Oh c'mon he doesn't know what being human feels like. It hurts like sh*t. It's okay to feel Shae, you're the only human in our group and there's some disadvantages like you not being able to do what we can do. I get that, kinda." She shrugs, I chuckle and feel a salty tear trailing down my cheek and landing on my upper lip.

A bang next door making me jump back from Amy, I hear angry stomping feet in the hall and the door swings open. Tyler scowls and storms up to me, I back away. The look on his face scares me.

Amy pushes him back, "Tyler, calm down." He snarls at her, does he have any control at the moment.

"You should not disrespect me! You're mine," he growls pushing Amy away, she trips and falls on the floor. Using his vampire speed he gets to me quicker and pulls me to him, I place my hands on his chest.

"Let go of me," I struggle to free from his grasp. He raises his hand and I flinch closing my eyes tightly, but nothing comes. I open one eye to see and feel his hand on my cheek, his eyes show pain.

"Why would you think that I'd ever hurt you?" He catches a tears that falls from my eye and uses the pad of his thumbs to wipe my cheeks from any tears. "I'm sorry love, really I am," if he thinks that I'm going to let him off that easy than he's wrong.

"I need space," I mutter, his face shows regret and he shakes his head.

"Please," he pleads hugging me tighter like that if he let go, I'd just disappear. I push at his shoulders and he pulls back obeying to my wishes.

"I just need some space okay?"

His jaw clenches not liking the idea but he sighs, "fine." He grumbles walking towards the door, he stops when he stands in the doorframe and he turns his head to look at me. "I love you."

I smile, "I know you do and I love you too but I'm mad at you."

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