I was in my room now with Alice and I was scared. I knew she was going to pounce.

"Okay,Bella. Why?" I opened my mouth to tell her but a sob came out.

"Alice..." I cried clinging onto her. After about,I don't know,an hour?,of crying I sat up. "I can't do it anymore Alice." I said,not audible to people. "Can't do what,Bella?" She grabbed my hand and held it tight (for a human,not for her. "..........live." I whimpered out. She took me in her arms and rocked me. "Yes,yes you can. You have to." I shake my head,the tears coming all over again. "You don't have to tell me about today but,you have to live,Bella." She lifts my chin so I'm looking in her unusual colored eyes " "for Charlie. For Jacobs. For me." I nodded and collapsed in her arms. She was rubbing my back while I cried...again. I fell asleep like that.