I walked towards the high school with my books in hand. The school wasn't that far away from where I lived by myself and I could keep an eye on Rukia. She isn't a reaper any more and it kinda pains me because what she has done is a serious crime.

I grip my books and hide in an alley way, my eyes tear up as my thoughts and memories of Toshiro pops in my mind. My books begin to slightly rip from the pressure of my gripping them, with my white pale hands.

A blinding light shown from my left side and a quickly turned my head away. People appeared and the light was gone. I turned back and my eyes widen.

White hair

Serious face

Short statue

It's Toshiro

My eyes tear up as his eyes met mine. His eyes widened and he started taking a step towards me and I took a step back.

"Don't come any closer to me Captain Hitsugaya" I glared at him and his eyes widen. I finally gave up on trying to be his friend and be by my side when he basically called me a monster.

"(Y/N)...I"

"No! Just stay away from me you monster" I turned on my heel and ran away. My eyes blurred and the thought of seeing my ex friend hurt. I ran all the way to school and sat down in my home room chair. I wiped my eyes and looked out the pale glass windows.

Toshiro

Why did you have to stab me in the heart?

Why did you have to show up when I didn't need you anymore

I was finally doing well without you

Without the thought of you

So why

Now

Toshiro's POV

Her beautiful hair

The cute little outfit

The surprised look in her eye

She was still the same

(Y/N)

"Monster" was all I heard before she ran off and left me behind.

I am a monster

I abandoned her when she needed me most

I left her all alone in that cold cell

I almost let her be killed

Was my work that important

Did I really care for it more than her

Was I that selfish

Tears started willing up in my eyes and my strong statue began to crumble as she turned around the corner.

My knees buckled and I feel to the floor and my eyes spilled the tears they needed to spill.

I missed her so much

I

Love

Her

So

Much

But

It

Will

Never

Be

The

Same