I'm having a baby! We're having a baby!

My nerves were shot I never thought... I didn't expect that I would.... wow , I don't believe that this all is happening so fast.

Am I even going to be a good mother? What if it needs something and I cant... ugh why does this have to be so complicated.

On one hand I love the fact that I'm having Xzavier's baby and that we are going to get married and start our lives like we planned , it could be great having him and this baby. On the other im scared... I'm scared that if I have this baby I'm not going to be any good as a mother , I'm still a teenager I only just turned eighteen a day ago and now I find out that I'm three weeks pregnant! Talk about a day.

After I've talked to a doctor that wasn't my mom nor dad about pregnancy and appointments that I would need to attend to check and see if I'm doing well I finally am able to go home. Xzavier was right beside me the whole entire time asking questions and over the top excited and I was too ,but it was still apart of me that wasn't sure.

"Your Okay to walk" my vet concerned fiancé asked me with worry evident in his eyes.

"Yes baby , I'm fine"

"Are you sure you don't want me to carry you because-"

"I'm fine , it's not like I'm going to pull a muscle and hurt the baby" I said it to be dramatic and sarcastic but instead that only caused panic to rise because his face went pale and he swooped me up with no problem.

"Xzavier!" I squealed as he held me in his arms , I wiggled around trying to get down but he still didn't put me down so I just let it go until we got to his car where he not only sat me down but placed my seat belt on me carefully.

"Okay ,first I'll drop you off to your parents so you can get some clothes but after we're going to that doctors office" I sighed knowing that he was right, the doctor at the hospital told us to go as soon as we were able and to Xzavier that meant now but I needed a shower first , I smelt of hospital.

I haven't really thought of how this will affect my parents and told my mom that we weren't sexually active and now here I am pregnant. It was so awkward hearing my dad telling me that I was pregnant, I can't believe that i didn't notice this before probably because of all the drama that was happening I forgot but still I should know my own body and changes.

My father for one looked as if he seen a ghost and my mom was a mix of emotions. She cried and she smiled and told us congratulations but than she was deep in thought, I have to say me and her shared the same feelings towards his whole thing.

Going inside of my home Xzavier carried me up the stairs and went as far as taking me a shower and putting on my clothes, yes it did feel good but still he needs to chill just for a day so I can wrap my head around this. When we finally get inside of the doctors office I had to sign a packet of papers and wait for my name to be called, this took thirty minutes of Xzavier going on and on to everyone on the phone about us being parents. It was so adorable seeing him this excited about our baby.

We finally got called back to a little area where it looked to be doctors and a lot of pregnant people, some where teenagers like me and some where grown women. I didn't know whether to be happy that I wasn't the the only young person here or to be scared of what's to come.

"Are you Autumn and Xzavier?" I lady came up to us , I know she knew who Xzavier was because who doesn't.

"Yes"

"Come with me" she lead me to a restroom where she handed me a cup and told me to pee inside. Ugh this is so embarrassing, I've never had to do this before but it's for the baby so I had to.

When I was finally done she took the cup away from me and went somewhere leaving me and Xzavier both confused and nervously waiting. When she came back she lead me and Xzavier to a room and told me to lay down on the bed and to wait for a doctor.

"Where is this doctor I'm ready to see my baby" Xzavier paced around the room every now and then rubbing my belly.

"Be patient baby it's not the end of the world" I laugh at him as he continues to pace the floor.

We wait in silence for a few moments every moment was torture for Xzavier I could see it in his eyes and demeanor as he fisted his shoe and paced the floor.

"I'm sorry to keep you waiting I'm Dr.-"

"We just want to know how our baby is doing so please can we skip all of this and save it for another time" he gave a pointed look at the doctor, I couldn't believe him we were only in here for about twenty minutes and he was acting as if he waited for hours.

"Xzavier! Stop it" I gave him a glare and sent an apologetic smile to the doctor.

"I'm so sorry about my fiancé he's just really impatient" I said the last part through gritted teeth as I look at him.

"It's fine I'm sorry that I took long but another mother needed me" I nodded in understanding while Xzavier crossed his arms over his chest. He's such a baby.

The doctor then proceeded to lift up my shirt but not without Xzavier stopping him.

"What the hell are you doing?!" He shouted at the doctor while pulling my shirt back over my belly.

"We're here to check and see how the baby is doing meaning I'm going to take a sonogram" I could tell the doctor has heard all of this before but it didnt help that he was a man , Xzavier looked ready to knock his head off.

The doctor than pulled my shirt up and placed something cold and clear onto my stomach. I still couldn't believe I was pregnant because my stomach was still as fit as ever how could a baby be in there?!

The lights turned off and he pulled a monitor on the side of me and grabbed a cord connected to it to rub in the clear substances on my belly.

"Do you hear that?" He asked both me and Xzavier , I payed close attention to the little thumping sounds coming from the monitor.

"What's that" Xzavier asked as he stared at the screen.

"That's your baby's heart beat"

"Really?!" Xzavier was filled with joy as he looked from my stomach to the monitor. I was amazed to hear such a thing coming from the monitor.

My baby's heart beat was like music to my ears. Tears of joy flowed out of me as I smiled at the monitor and Xzavier.

"When will we find out what the gender is?" I asked enthusiastically as I watched the monitor with awe.

"Kitten ,its a girl" Xzavier said as if it was the most obvious thing in the world.

"You don't know that, it could be a little boy!" I never really thought about having kids but right now I would really like to have a boy.

"Doc tell her it's a girl" me and Xzavier gazes turn to the doctor who looked at us both smiling.

"We won't be able to tell what the gender is until she's at least sixteen weeks or so. But mostly when the mom suspects what the baby might be it's usually right"

"Really?!" I ask , so I could know what my baby is before even really knowing.

"That's no fair , kitten I want a girl. Please let it be a girl" Xzavier begged me and I laughed at his pouted lips.

"I'll try just for you" I tease him but he seemed as if he believed me.

"I've seen many couples but you two are adorable, you seem like soul mates" I smile at the doctors words and look at Xzavier. He's right Xzavier is my soul mate , I couldn't live without this man.

When the doctor took his leave he gave me a card that had a scheduled date and time for my next appointment with him in two weeks around this same time. Xzavier saved it into his phone so I won't forget which was a smart thing to do.

We make it back to the car and for some reason I'm exhausted and hungry as ever.

"I'm hungry Xzavier" I whine out

"Okay kitten I'll hurry home to cook you something" my whole mood brightened when he said he'd cook for me , no one knows how much I crave his food. He's a great cook I couldn't resist.

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"What the hell is this?!" I spit out the food Xzavier was feeding me

"Oatmeal" He says confused. That shit tasted like something died in my mouth and the after taste was even worse , I'd commit my own murder than to eat that again.

"It taste like shit I don't want that!" I push the bowl away from me and gag when a whiff of it fans my nose.

"It's good for the baby kitten you have to start eating healthy"

"I don't want to eat healthy Xzavier I want a burger and some fries right now!" I throw a tantrum because he wouldn't give me what I wanted.

"No" he simply said , I was shocked at his answer. He really said no? He usually gives me what I want and now he's saying no! Oh hell to the fuck no.

"What?" I narrowed my eyes at him trying to see if I heard him correctly.

"I said no the baby needs-"

"I WANT A FUCKING BURGER AND FRIES XZAVIER AND I BETTER GET IT OR SO HELP ME GOD ILL RIP YOUR FUCKING HEAD OFF!" I meant every word I said to him , I wanted a burger and fries. I craved it actually and he was going to give it to me one way or another.

"Kitten... you have to eat healthy I want to give you what you want but not this time all you have to do is-"

"Fuck you! I'll get it myself" I Stand up and walk right out the door , not before grabbing his keys.

He can't just tell me what I can and can't eat , yeah I'll eat healthy for the baby but I won't sacrifice my taste buds and I know the baby wouldn't want that nasty shit anyway. Just the thought of it made me gag a little.

I got to the drive through of McDonald's and took in the smell. It was like heaven calling out to me, I just needed a little taste of this just a little and I'll be okay and apologize to Xzavier later after I've eaten.

Sounds like a plan.

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