Breathe. Breathe. Breathe.

I need to focus on my breathing or I fill like I'm going to faint, my heart is hurting and my bone ache. I've said so many bad things to Xzavier and I didn't believe not one of them I just can't stand our constant fighting.

I wonder what happened to the good times where people didn't bother us and we were just having fun with one another. This has to be the worst birthday of my life, I know I'll come around once I'm calmed down from this aching pain inside of my chest one from being accused of intentionally kissing Jason and the other for leaving the love of my life in pain.

"Ahhh!" I screech holding onto my chest just wheee my heart lays , I try and hold in the pain but it gets worse every second that I stand here.

I need him , he needs me but we need a break from each other. Oh fuck how my heart aches for him to just hold onto me and kiss me until I fall asleep in his arms.

Tonight was suppose to be the best night of my life , it's my birthday and Xzavier proposed to me in the sweetest way possible.

Xzavier I need you so bad.

Suddenly I start to hyperventilate not able to breathe at all, my eyes go wide and I try to catch my breathe.

"Xzavier!" My mom suddenly comes through the door and to my aid.

"Honey what's wrong"

"Can't. Breathe." I finally choke out while holding onto my heart as it clutches painfully.

"Ahh!" I shot again as it feels as if someone is slowly squeezing it.

Even though I'm in pain all I want is to see his face , I hate when we fight but it seems as if every week we do this but this time it's different I'm his fiancé I need to get out of my ass and go to him and apologize for being such a bitch towards him.

I try and get up from the floor but fall back down miserably with lack of air and aching bones it's hard to move.

"Your going to the hospital honey don't move" I could hear the pain in my moms voice as she tries to keep Jacob calm , he reaches out for me while sobbing but I can't do anything. Dad picks me up bridle style and places me in the back seat as him and mom rush to get to the car.

"It hurts sooo bad mom" I cry out while holding my chest.

"I know sweetie we're almost there" she tells me , I could see it in their faces that they were both scared shitless watching me on the floor howling in pain.

It's a pain that I can't describe I've never felt this way before not even the other time when we broke up. This time it was more stronger and prominent than before.

As we reached the hospital dad hurried to my side and grabbed me, he carried me in and took me straight into the emergency room.

"My daughter is having trouble breathing we need help!" He shouted and all the nurses came rushing when they realized who my parents were"

"Doctor-"

"We need a room ASAP , Claire go get my scrubs I'll be ready in a few" he told the nurse who ran by our side.

"I'm afraid that's against-"

"Does it really look like I care this is my daughter now hurry!"

Just as they started to move me in a stretcher my heart aches worsen then it did all night as I was pushed down the hall into a empty room.

"Mom , I need Xzavier please can you get him now" black dots take over my vision but I try to blink them away.

"I'll try sweetie ,I'll try"

"Ahh! I need him mom I need him now" sobs leave my mouth uncontrollably but I try to refrain from falling out of consciousness and into a deep sleep.

Before I could say anything else my limbs went numb and I took in the darkness that overcame me.

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When I wake up I'm in a hospital bed and I hurt a little less then I did when I got here.

"Good morning Mr.Black your finally awake" a nurse comes in and sits at the edge of my bed, I felt a little uncomfortable with her sitting so close to me so I sit up myself.

"Hold on there don't want to hurt yourself again now do we" She smiles and touches my leg.

Not this shit again.

I move her hands from my leg and place them back onto her lap. She giggles a bit and send me a flirtatious smile.

"Your very handsome you know that, I'd like to get to know you" she flirts terribly as if I would go for someone like her when I have Autumn.

Autumn.

"I have a fiancé and I'd like it if you'd leave me alone" I blurt out while getting off the bed grabbing her rings from my pocket and waking out of the room , I don't know where I'm going but my feet are just taking me down the hall to this room where I hear faint noises.

"Jacob?" I whisper out in surprise.

"Honey he isn't answering his phone and I called his parents they haven't seen him." I hear Autumn's mother say.

Wait why are they here? Is someone hurt?

"I need him mom please" that's all I needed to hear my kitten say before I barge inside the room , I look at the cords hooked up to her and how puffy her eyes are. I don't take another second looking at her before I rush and hug her body to me.

"I knew we'd fix this kitten"

"We always do" she whisper back to me as we hold on another as if our lives depends on it.

"I was acting stupid when I did all those things Xzavier I never meant one thing I said I need you" she cries onto my shoulder as I stroke her hair and shush her while kissing her temple.

Her father then walks into the room in scrubs and he looks as if he were up all night long.

"We have some.... news about your reports autumn" he says to her , his face is twisted with emotion but he soon blinks them back and continue.

"You hit the ground pretty hard last night but it didn't leave any damage other than a minor headache and also..."

"What is it" her and her mother said curiously and I'm curious also on how she hit her head.

"Your pregnant" the room falls silent and so does my heart , I can't believe my ears she's pregnant.

How? When? What?!

"I'm what?!" She screams , she gives me a worried look while I shed tears pool in her eyes about what her father just said as I blink back the tears that threaten to leave my eyes.

"We're going to have a baby" I whisper to her , I couldn't be more joyful at this moment. I've always seen myself with autumn and our kids but who would've thought that this would happen so soon , not me of course.

"We're going to have a baby?" She ask me and I nod with a smile on my face. I take her hand in mine and kiss it while placing both of her rings back to its rightful place on her finger.

My future wife and mother of my child, the most unexpected thing happened and I can't help but let a couple of tears slip once I finally take in that she's pregnant with our child. Life couldn't get more better.

"I have to call my parents" I quickly say , I kiss her and run to call my father.

I can't believe we're having a fucking kid , our kid, one that we will show unconditional love and affection towards. I'm going to be the best fucking father I can be and I know my sweet kitten will be an amazing mother.

Oh fuck this is really happening, we're having a baby!

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