I watched her walk away from me with hurt evident in her eyes. I fucked up big time why would I bring up such a sensitive situation when I knew she never meant to kiss him , hell she couldn't even remember that whole night she was so drunk.

Fuck I messed up badly.

I'm finally let go by my father and a group of men when autumn is nowhere in sight anymore. I have to find her and beg for her forgiveness.

"Now son don't go and do anything you'll regret"

"And What is that dad , you basically held me back while my fiancé walked away from me. I could've fixed this and you held me back!" I seethed , how could he just let her go I could've held her and told her how sorry I was.

"She needs time to think about everything you didn't make it no better bringing up what happened with your brother" of course he says this , I remember when I told him about what happened how upset he was but he was rational when he knew that they both were drunk and regretted it terribly.

Picking up both of her rings I shake my head and head for my car , she couldn't have gotten far and I have a good idea where she might be anyway I need to hurry before Matt tries to talk to her again.

Pulling up to her parents beach house I don't bother shutting my car door I hurry and barge onto their porch where I find my kitten balled up crying her eyes out. How fucking stupid am I.

"Kitten im sorry" I kneel down beside her hoping that she'll let me touch her like I normally do when she's upset.

When I reach for her she pulls back instantly as if my touch burned her skin from the inside. My heart clenched as she scooted away from me and to the far end of the porch.

"Kitten" I say softly trying to touch her again , I don't care if she wanted me to or not I was going to hold her and tell her I'm sorry u til she accepted it.

"Leave me alone Xzavier" she cries out , I could see how puffy and red her eyes were from crying.

"I'm sorry Okay I never meant to say that it just slipped-"

"Yes you did admit it you've always felt like that from the night it happened when you said you forgot about it and that it didn't matter that was all a lie! I didn't even remember that night and if I had I wouldn't have kissed Jason because I'm not that type of girl who messes up brother's relationship with one another I would never!

But you don't trust me and now I see that your a liar and you can never get over the fact that it happened but instead of telling me how you felt you hide it all away from until your true colors spilled Xzavier but now you know what?! I'm done I've had it up to here with our rocky relationship and now I don't think I could ever-" I cut her off from her rant , I pick her up and hold her in my arms rocking back and forth soothing her.

"Don't say that kitten were perfect okay i fucked up I did and I'm sorry I let that get the best of me when it shouldn't and I'm sorry" I tell her while rocking her still as she struggles to get away from my hold but I don't let her go.

I wont, I can't.

"Xzavier just go I don't want to see you"

"Stop it kitten I love you so much it hurts to see you like this"

"Yet we're always like this if it isn't one thing it's the next and I'm tired of dealing with a broken heart on a daily basis I'm done-"

"No! No! No! I'm not letting you do this to us again, you aren't going anywhere and I'm not letting you push me away we're in this together okay"

"I don't want this anymore please let me go Xzavier!" She struggles harder and I tighten my grip on her as tears leak out of my eyes.

Fear creeps in my chest painfully as I take in what has happened , she wants to leave me and I can't let her. I love her to much to let her go.

"Please kitten lets just forget about tonight and we can go home and lay in bed together. We can do anything as long as I'm with you I don't care" I plead to her but it doesn't seem to be working.

"Let me the fuck go! I'm tired of this I don't want to be with you anymore!" She finally gets away from me, I go after her but she runs faster sprinting towards the ocean.

"Autumn , kitten please I'm begging you don't leave me when I need you the most"

"Stay the hell away from me Xzavier!" Her voice was demanding and angry I knew she was mad but I didn't know that it was this strong. I was taken aback at her voice it broke my heart to see her look at me the way she did as if I was nothing.

Suddenly I fished for the rain, it always helped us through times like this but as I wished and hoped it never came and all I was met with was the rage of autumn.

"Autumn don't do this we can work this out , we can be better I can be better kitten I will I promise I will for you"

"You'll do whatever I say?" My mood brightens as I smile at her.

"I will , I'll do anything you ask kitten" I told her quickly, she thinks for a while until she finally answers.

"Stay the hell away from me from this day forward I never want to see your face again Xzavier! Don't come by my home and don't talk to my friends , make it as if you never met me because that's how I'm going to act towards you. It's time we call this toxic relationship and leave each other before one of us gets hurt worse" she cries as she tells me this , I couldn't help but break down in tears from hearing the words that left her mouth.

"I can't stay away from you! I won't stay away from you! I will always be here, what happened to always and forever?!"

"Nothing last forever" I felt as if someone tore out my heart and stabbed it with a knife as I watch it bleed out in front of my eyes.

I stood there frozen at her words , I couldn't control the tears nor the shock that is evident on my face as I fall to my knees and stare at her with longing. She approaches me and kisses my lips softly but I still stood still not daring to move I was to shocked to react to anything right now. I wanted to beg and plea and kiss her passionately but I couldn't love a muscle.

"This is goodbye Xzavier, forever" she declares before she leaves but I continue to stay there rooted to my spot.

This won't last forever I'll have her back. This won't last forever I'll have her back. This won't last forever I'll have her back. This won't last forever I'll have her back. This won't last forever I'll have her back. This won't last forever I'll have her back. This won't last forever I'll have her back. This won't last forever I'll have her back. This won't last forever I'll have her back.

I chant over and over again in my head. I finally am able to love and once I do my heart clenched and I to the ground , this Undescribable pain settled in my chest making it hard to breathe. I knew this would happen if she left me again it hurts so bad I can barely move.

I pick myself up the best as I could and rush to the hospital lacking air and consciousnesses. Making it to the lobby I collapsed on the ground before I could even check myself in.

I need her so much that I feel as if I'm going to die. Something in her voice held so much finality that it made this all to real.

She can't leave me.

"Sir are you okay , can you hear me"

"Autumn please get Autumn I need her now" I start to hyperventilate and gasp for air as I try to tell the nurse who to call for me.

"Who's autumn sir does she have a last name"

"It's..."

Everything goes black and all I could think about is my beautiful fiancé.

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