I don't know how we ended up in his room again. I lie awoke staring at the ceiling , I don't know if we're going to get through this but the only thing I could do is hope for the best.

Sighing I try to sit up but Xzavier's grip on my waist is deadly , he squeezed me so tight to his chest I don't know how I was able to breathe while I slept.

Finally pushing his arm away from my waist I push my legs to the side of the bed. He springs up from his sleep and grabs me again.

"Xzavier"

"W-where are you going" his voice was sleepy but held so much worry. I wanted to cry all over again but my head slightly hurts from the amount of crying I did just yesterday.

"To the bathroom I'll be right back" I assure him but he doesn't let me go.

"I'll go with you"

"Xzavier no I can-" before I could say another word he picks me up and walks me to the bathroom , I had to pee so bad I didn't care that he was standing there anymore and just went.

After washing my hands he carried me back to the bed and laid his head on my stomach while his arms wrapped around my waist.

This is going to be a long day.

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Now at eight p.m I lay in bed with Xzavier while he holds my waist and I play in his hair. The whole day he's been following me non stop , I couldn't even walk down stairs without him trailing me like a lost puppy.

We didn't even talk to each other that much just a couple of words here and there but I didn't mind it one bit though , the only thing I cared about was how we were going to work this out and what would happen if we didn't end things now.

While he watched a movie I was busy on my phone texting Sarah about the situation. She was happy that I got into my school but sad that she was going to a local college here instead of with me.

I know if she wanted to she could've came but her eyes were always on staying in her home town and living a happy life with the person she was going to marry , I envied how she had her whole life planned out without a complication. Well that's if Derek had something to do about it.

As I texted sarah , Xzavier rubbed his hand up and down my thighs. I know what we're doing isn't healthy when really I just broke up with him , I didn't want to leave but apart of me is telling me that I should let it go before this gets out of hand.

What am I going to do.

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I blankly watch the television in from of me as I lay on Autumn's stomach , I don't know where we go from here now but I'm sure on one thing.

She isn't leaving me!

I can't even bring up that contract anymore , I've been went to my lawyer and go all of that thrown out the window when she first told me that she loved me. It was going to be a surprise but now I'm regretting that decision.

I have to think of a way to keep her to stay, she can't leave when our future should be here.

My choices were either to go to college or take over my fathers business after high school , I chose the family business because I thought she was staying here. She never mentioned leaving , especially not half way across the country!

What if I have my parents pull some strings and get her kicked out so then she'll have to stay and-

"Xzavier" her sweet voice calls out to me , I look up my eyes meeting hers.

"Yes?"

"Could you get up please" once she says that I become more alert to where she's going , I grab her and cradle her in my arms.

"Xzavier please"

"Where Do you want to go I'll take you" I couldn't help but to sound miserable because I was , the love of my life was planning on leaving me how else am I suppose to act.

"Can you please don't do this , we aren't even together anymore. I think it's time that I left"

"No! You can't leave I told you already!" Different emotions fill me , I couldn't decide what to feel right now.

Sad, angry, lonely, clingy, hurt , misery... that's what I felt at the moment , I was scared to let her go. My worst fear is happening and all because of what?!

"Okay well can you make some something to eat I'm hungry" she gives up. I know she loves me and that our love is real but now we're getting older meaning our futures are coming into reality.

I pick her up and walk down the stairs into the kitchen , searching around I didn't know exactly what she wanted but I guessed hamburger and fries will do as I start with the hamburgers she jumps from the counter I sat her down at and wraps her small arms around my waist.

I smile loving this feeling of us being together, it's the greatest feeling I've ever felt.

"Kiss" she steps on her tippy toes and puckers her lips with her eyes closed. I smile down at her adorable face and kiss her awaiting lips.

We stay in a heated kiss for a long while before she finally pulls away.

"I love you Xzavier"

"I love you to kitten" I peck her lips again and return to cooking.

Soon I hear the living room television turn on and plays in the background while I continue to cook.

"Kitten!" I check to see if she's still in there.

"Yes!"

"I'm almost done put a movie on!" I call out to her , I finish up our meal before plating it for the both of us.

I put her second hamburger on my plate because she usually likes to eat my food instead of her own.

I walk into the living room as I hear noises I'm guessing is from the movie that she stares. It was dark but I still could make out some of the things in the living room.

Putting our plates on the coffee table I don't see autumn.

"Kitten!" I call out to her, maybe she used the bathroom.

I waited a little longer until I couldn't take it anymore, I began looking around the whole house calling her name but never got any answer. She wasn't here!

I pick up my phone and dial her number, my heart dropped and my breathing became frantic knowing that she left me.

She left without even saying a word , why would she leave me.Please pick up the phone kitten PLEASE!

I've called her ten times and every time she didn't answer. I was beyond pissed , but I was hurting inside I couldn't breathe right and my mind went wild. I need her to calm me down before I have a panic attack soon.

How could she leave me!

"Hello"

"Kitten! Where are you!" I was happy that she answered but nervous.

"I told you I had to leave Xzavier I can't stay. We can't stay with each other I'm ending-"

"No! Don't you dare say that! Where are you I'm coming to get you , we can talk this out"

"No we can't"

"Please, please , please , pleeassse! Don't do this kitten we're perfect together"

"We're growing apart Xzavier. I'm moving to London and your staying here , I don't want to go through this later it'll only hurt me more I'm sorry Xzavier"

"No! Don't say it!" I didn't care that my tears were streaming down my face anymore , all I wanted to do was have her in my arms again.

I wanted what we had to last forever but now she's slipping away from me and it seems as if I couldn't do anything about it.

"Bye Xzavier" I could hear her sobs , it broke me to hear her say that. I refuse to let her go this can't happen.

"No kitten don't hang up just tell me where you are and-" the line went dead and so did I , I couldn't take this anymore something had to be done about us.

We needed to fix whatever this is and work together as a couple , I can't have her leaving my life.

I'm finally happy with everything in my life and now this has to happen.

Fuck!

I grab my car keys and rush to her home or anywhere , I have to see her and she has to forgive me and take me back. We aren't done , I'll never let my kitten go I will fight for her until the end.

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