My dad remained crying onto my shoulder I couldn't bare to think the worst happened.

"It's okay dad just tell me what happened" I soothe him , he gets up and a smile is etched onto his face. I couldn't be more confused right now.

"Your brother's here" my eyes widen and I rush into the hospital room , my mother sat up on the bed holding onto a healthy looking baby boy.

Tears stream down my own face as I smile at the sight before me , I thought the worst happened but really little Jacob was ready to finally come into the world.

"Come here and say hi to baby Jacob" I walk slowly to the edge of the bed and take a little peak at my baby brother.

His lips were pouting so adorably and his little hands were in his face , he was so beautiful it didn't make any sense how adorable he was. I stare at him with awe and adoration he was oblivious to the people surrounding him as his eyes were closed shut.

"Hi baby Jacob I'm Autumn your sister , anything you need I'll be here always" I kiss the top of his head , his skin was so soft and he smelled so good it actually compared to Xzavier's smell.

"Do you want to hold him?" My mom ask me weakly , she looked exhausted her eyes were droopy but she contained the smile that was on her face as she held baby Jacob.

I gently took him from her hands carful not to drop him , he was so little it was weird seeing him this tiny and holding his fragile body in my arms. It gave me a great feeling being able to see him after so long.

Xzavier walks into the room and telling my mom congratulations before coming and sitting next to me , my focus was only on Jacob as he made little movements and stretching his arms out. I still couldn't get over the fact that he was so small.

"Why were you bleeding mom" I finally ask the question that's been on my mind every since my dad told me about it.

"The doctors said that something was wrong and that my bag burst before it should have , they did an emergency c-section because the cord was wrapped around his neck. He was losing air" I could see the tears stream down her face as she told me but then she looked at Jacob that lay in my arms and smiled.

"He's here now and that's all that matters" I agreed and took a glance at Xzavier, he admired the little baby in my arms. I don't think he blinked yet.

"You want to hold him" I ask

"I can't"

"Yes you can"

"I might drop him" instead of having a pointless argument with him I place Jacob in his arms and watch the horrific look on his face as he stared down at him.

Jacob eyes opened up for the first time as he and Xzavier had a staring contest with each other it was so cute. I took my phone out and snapped a picture of the scene in front of me , they were both so adorable.

Jacob lips turned into a smile showing off his gums and I heard Xzavier awe at him , the scene was to much I thought I was going to cry all over again. But now I felt jealous that Jacob didn't smile at me yet , I wanted him back.

I made grabby hands for him and Xzavier handed him back to me , I cooed and made funny faces at him. He just looked at me weird but that didn't matter I knew sooner or later he would be able to laugh and once he does he'll definitely laugh at me.

Meanwhile when Xzavier stepped out to talk with my father my mother called me over to her bed.

I walked over to her and she pointed at her bag that sat in the corner of the room , I retrieved it and brought it to her.

"Look inside" she said eagerly.

"What's this" I pull out the envelope, it was from the college I applied to, I look confusingly at my mom who just smiled back at me.

"It came today and I couldn't wait to tell you but then your brother was coming so I grabbed it on my way out"

I didn't think I was going to hear from them so soon but here is the letter and I couldn't help but to feel extremely nervous.

"Open it" she demands , she looked more nervous then me at the moment.

I slowly opened the letter and read through it. My heart drop as I held a sad face on the verge of tears , I looked at my mom and she looked anxiously at me.

"I'm sorry honey-"

"I got in mom" I told her softly, I could see the happiness in her face as she took the letter from my hand and started to read it herself.

"I'm so proud of you honey"

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After our eventful day at the hospital my mom decided she and Jacob needed rest , it took so much for me to leave my mom and Jacob's side but my dad and Xzavier convinced me that I could see them tomorrow so I agreed.

Later on I post so many pictures that I took of Jacob on my instagram and everyone loved him already. So many women commented and told me how adorable he was, yup my little brother is already a ladies man.

Getting back to Xzavier's home we both decided to lay on his bed in the same position we had before my dad called, today has been a very long and eventful day. Who would've thought that Jacob was coming so soon.

I guess that's a good thing since now he'll be at my graduation and my upcoming birthday, I can't wait to just hold him again.

"Jacob is so adorable" I speak while Xzavier massages my butt. It was relaxing so much so that I dont want him to stop.

"Yeah he is"

"Do you want a family someday" the question just popped out , I didn't think before I said it and now he's going to think I'm trying to start a family this early.

"No" he answer was so simple and plain it didn't sit well with me.

Who doesn't plan on having a family later in life.

"I wasn't taking about now just down the line when your old enough" I rephrased it for him so he understood what I was coming from.

"I have you and that's all I'll ever need" he kisses my head , I sit up on his chest and stare at him blankly.

"Do you not want kids?"

"I don't" he tries to pull me in for another kiss but I stop him.

Even though it is his life and he can do whatever he wanted to with it he says he wants a future with me and if so I do want kids ,I saw a different person inside of that hospital room that couldn't keep his eyes off of Jacob. I thought he would want kids at least someday but I guess not.

"Why wouldn't you want kids?"

"Because I just don't why do you have to make such a fuss about it" he snapped back at me.

Just then I got up from him and sat beside him on the bed , if he thinks this is over then he's wrong.

"Because dipshit i want kids someday , a family" I explain to him , he huffed and got up from the bed walking out of the room.

So being me I go after him so we could continue our discussion.

"Xzavier why don't you want kids?"

"Because I don't now leave it alone Autumn" the way he said my name felt like a bullet to the heart , it's only few times he calls me by my name and when he does it doesn't near sound as the way it down now.

The tone he used held so much hate and aggravation I was shocked that he could even speak to me in such a way. Angry tears rolled down my eyes , I wanted to slap him in the face but I was better then that I wouldn't put my hands on him.

Unless he asked for it.

"Kitten im-"

"No your right , if you don't want kids it's not my place to try and convince you to , I'm leaving anyway" I stomped back upstairs to retrieve my duffel bag , I can't be mad at him when I was planning to leave all along.

I knew it was a good chance that I would be accepted and now here I am trying to argue with Xzavier instead of spending the time we have together.

"What do you mean your leaving" he stomps right behind me moving closer.

"Your bound to find out anyways"

"To find out what" his voice raises and I could tell he was getting angrier.

"I'm moving to London after high school" I finally said , I feel as if a weight was lifted from my chest as I told him that.

It was silent for a while as we stared at each other , different emotions showed through his eyes as he looked at me in disbelief.

"No your not" he simply said.

"Yes I am , I've dreamt of going to school there and I will I didn't expect to tell you like this but I've been accepted and I'm going"

"Your not leaving me kitten"

"I'm leaving Xzavier" I sigh and grab my duffel bag along with my other clothes while pushing them inside and heading for the front door.

I was planning to call Sarah to come and pick me up and take me home , Xzavier needs to calm down and process everything.

"What about me! So your just going to leave without even considering how I'll feel about the situation!" His voice boomed behind me , I kept walking until he snatched my bag from my shoulder and threw it across the living room.

"I didn't expect for this to happen , I didn't mean to fall in love with you the way I did but I can't take that back and I don't want to! I want to be happy Xzavier and it's clear that what I want and what you want isn't going to make either of us happy so why not just end it here and now!"

"Is this about having a kid? kitten I'll have a thousand kids if it meant I'll get to stay with you!"

"You never even gave me a reason why you didn't want them!"

"Because I love you, seeing how scared your mother was today terrified me. I don't want that happening to you nor our child I don't want to lose you and I would never want to lose my child!" My eyes watered and tears streamed down my face, he didn't want kids because he thought something bad was going to happen.

"Xzavier women have kids everyday , yes some may not be lucky but others are who says we aren't going to be lucky" I ask him , he sighs and runs a hand down his face.

I could tell he wanted to cry but he controlled his tears and put on a strong face.

"I want kids, I want a family with you and I'm willing to try"

"It's not that easy Xzavier, I'm leaving for London maybe we should just end what we have now before it gets worse"

"No! Your not going anywhere , I won't let you go kitten!"

"Xzavier I can't-" he gets on his knees and hugs me to him tightly , I pat his hair while my tears streamed more harder.

"Don't say that.. please don't say it! I love you autumn I swear I do, don't leave me okay we can get through this together I promise we will kitten we just have to take time and think over our options" his voice cracked at the end of his sentence, he looked up at me and I could see his tears finally stream down his face.

My heart clenched and I couldn't control the sob that escaped my mouth when he buried his face into my stomach, holding so tight as if he was afraid to let go.

"We have to-"

"No! No! No! Don't say that , we are going to find a way I promise we are! You can't leave me autumn! Please , please , please don't leave me! Please kitten I can't live without you!"

"Xzavier"

"No!!" His sobs were now louder and his grip was tighter then ever as he gripped my body.

"Xzavier please dont make this harder" I sob also , I finally kneeled down to face him. I picked his chin up and could see his reddened eyes and his tears that stream without care.

"I'll do anything for you , I'll change however you want me to. I can do whatever you want kitten just PLEASE! Don't leave me , I don't want you to go"

He was hysterical and a sobbing mess but so was I. I decided that I've had enough once I embraced him into a tight hug. We lay down on the living room floor as I rocked his body and we both continued to cry in each other's arms not caring how we looked at the moment.

How could this day go from happy to sad to absolutely shit.

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