I stare up t the ceiling of my room thinking about nothing in particular just how cruel life is sometimes.

"Hey bro what you doing" Mandy jumps onto my bed laying next to me.

"Just thinking"

"About"

"Nothing" I tell her and continue to look up not in the mood right now.

"Your lying , I'm your twin I know when something is wrong with you just tell me"

I contemplated on telling her what I really was thinking about but why bother trying she'll find out anyway.

"It's autumn"

"Xzavier's girlfriend, she seems nice and really pretty"

"She's gorgeous but I can't be with her M"

"Of course you can't she's with Xzavier"

"I don't think she even wants to be with him though , their so opposite and the first day I met her I could tell she didn't like him" I tell my sister truthfully , I know she isn't going to judge me seeing as we tell each other everything even the most embarrassing of things.

"Didn't you see how jealous she was when she saw me with Xzavier that day. I think she likes him if not loves him"

"SHE DOESNT LOVE HIM!" I shout now sitting up into my bed.

I can't get autumn out of my mind it was love at first sight. And I don't believe in that but I know how I feel and I can't help it.

"Calm down J , Look we'll figure this out all you have to do is try and fight the urge to make a move on her. Xzavier would never betray you like that and I'm not going to let you do that to him"

"She's amazing M, I swear when I'm with her I feel this weird feeling in my stomach that makes me squirm"

"Butterflies? Awe my brother has butterflies. I've always wanted you to have someone who you cared about this much but now she doesn't belong to you J , We'll find you another girl you can feel that same way about" she says , I sigh and fall back onto my bed thinking about a certain beauty that just can't leave my mind.

Autumn.

Autumn.

Autumn.

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Once I wake up I quickly run into my parents room to find my mom.

She lays in bed still Asleep holding onto her belly. I walk silently around the bed getting into my dads side of the bed and placing my hand onto her belly.

Jacob immediately kicks non stop at my hand , I smile feeling this is quite weird but I now have someone to take care of.

"Autumn you've woken your brother up."

"I'm sorry mom but I could not help it , he's kicking"

"That means he likes you"

"How do you know that?"

"He's in my body I know"

I roll my eyes playfully at my mom but get up from bed. She sits up and I quickly make my way to her side.

"Mom I'll make breakfast for you and I'll call one of your friends to help you while I'm at school but when I get home your stuck with me"

"Honey I can do it"

"No mom little Jacob needs rest and you do to I'm going to take care of you"

She smiles and kisses my head with tears in her eyes. I didn't mean to upset her , shit now how do I fix this.

"I'm sorry mom I-"

"No it's okay I'm just really happy I have you baby your going to be a great big sister" I smile and make my leave getting ready to make breakfast for a very pregnant mom. I know pregnant women are very hungry because their eating for two so I made an extra plate just in case.

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I walk out the house once one of my mom friends come over to take care of her while I'm gone.

I began to walk all the way to school until someone beeps a horn stopping me.

"Hey autumn!"

"Jason?"

"Get in I'll drive you to school" he says , I clearly didn't want to walk so instead I got inside his car and buckled up.

"You look absolutely gorgeous today"

I look down at my outfit and smile knowing that it was simple but pretty.

"Thank you Jason , you look hot as always"

"Tell me about it" he smirks at me , we both then break into a fit of laughter the whole ride to school.

I get out of the car and wait for Jason to make his way around to meet me. He throws his arm over my shoulder and walk inside the school doors.

Jason walks me to my locker and stays there waiting for me to finish. I didn't even notice when Xzavier came up behind me grabbing me by the waist.

"Hey kitten"

"Hi"

"I came over to pick you up but you weren't there" I was about ready to say something before Jason beat me to it.

"I drove her to school"

"Oh well thanks bro but I got it from here" Xzavier places kiss after kiss down my neck.

I felt very uncomfortable while Jason stands there and stares at me while Xzavier kisses along my neck. We don't break eye contact even though I wanted to look away his ocean blue eyes held me captive.

"Hey autumn" Brittany makes her way over to us. She snatches me away from Xzavier's hold making him groan and reach out for me.

"If you two don't mind I'll be borrowing her for a while , nice outfit by the way you look hot" she tells me eyeing me up and down.

What I'm the actual fuck is happening.

"She isn't into girls britt" Jason snaps at her.

"Doesn't mean I'll try anything unless she wants me to" she send me a flirtatious wink and pulls me along the halls away from the two brothers.

*****

I feel empty not being near my kitten. She's somewhere with Brittany and even though I've looked around this whole fucking school I still haven't found her.

When I get my hands on Brittany I swear I'm going to-

"Xzavier" I hear my kitten call my name. I look around until my eyes land on hers.

"Where have you been it's already lunch"

"I was in class as you should've been"

I roll my eyes grabbing her waist bringing her into my chest. Her scent is so comforting everything about her is perfection I can't help but feel for her like I have no other person. She makes me happy and very sexually frustrated but happy.

"Don't leave me again okay?" I whisper into her ear.

"I can't promise you anything" I groan placing my head in the crook of her neck , she smells so good I'll never get tired of this.

"Are you hungry kitten"

"Well it is lunch" she laughs , I hold onto her waist walking her into the cafeteria where students linger around.

"I'm supposed to be somewhere actually"

"Where"

"Well I told Jason I'll have lunch with him today" I roll my eyes not caring if she had lunch with the president she want going anywhere without me.

"Let's go met him than"

"I don't really think he invited you it's for me and him to get to know each other"

"If I'm not going than you aren't" I tell her , she kisses my lips with her soft ones and I quickly without hesitation kiss her back. I can never get tired of her lips they are perfect and mold into mine perfectly just the way it should.

"Don't you trust me Xzavier"

"Yes"

"Than you go sit and have lunch with your friends and I'll go with Jason"

"But I want to be with you kitten" I don't even care if I sounded like a kid I felt like one at this moment I couldn't bare being without her.

"Just this one time... baby please" I smile at her calling me baby , I think this is her second time actually saying that to me. It made me feel special like I was finally growing on her , sooner or later I knew she would accept us being together and forget about the stupid contract that I made her sign and we could actually start something.

"Just this one kitten but I'll miss you so much" I kiss her lips repeatedly not wanting her to go. But this is my brother we're talking about I know he only sees her as a friends and he wouldn't try anything. If I trust someone with my life it'll be him.

"Okay bye" she kisses me once more before walking away from me. Damn how did I get so lucky , I can't believe I didn't know how sexy she was after all these years in high school.

That outfit she's wearing today makes her look sexy but classy. She always looks so perfect without even trying.

I make my way over to a empty table and watch it fill up with my friends and other people I don't care for. All I want right now is my autumn sitting in my lap while she eats her food.

"Where's your girl?" One of my close friends Brian ask me.

"She's out with a friend for lunch"

"Thank god I couldn't stand the sight of her" amber says , my blood boils but it's soon turns into an evil laughter making the whole cafeteria silent.

"You know amber I've put up with these little slick comments you've made about my girlfriend for way to long , I thought I could be nice about it but you just couldn't let up"

I watch as her face pales at my outburst. My friends laugh at her fear while the rest of the cafeteria remains silent knowing what will happen if they make a move while I'm speaking.

"Everyone knows nothing gets past Xzavier right?" I question waiting for her to answer.

"Y-yes but Xzavier I'm so-"

"Save it you've brought this on yourself"

I stand up on the table in the cafeteria getting everyone's full attention knowing exactly what I would do to this bitch who just wouldn't leave my kitten alone.

"Autumn as you all know is the most beautiful girl in this entire school but amber here doesn't think so. So now amber I'll help you understand. Everyone as you all know amber to be on the cheerleading squad and she so happens to sit at our table"

"Xzavier don't" I laugh at her fearful voice and continue with my speech.

"One night I was taking a walk in the park it was really late and I say a couple having sex on the playground. Sick I know"

"Xzavier"

"My curiosity got the best of me and I went over to see amber here riding the fuck out of who you might wonder?"

"Xzavier please!"

"It was her father! Not her stepdad which would've been better but her actual birth father who would've thought" I laugh as the whole entire cafeteria makes disgusted faces.

"I never told anyone about it because it wasn't my business to tell but when you mess with what's mine secrets will be released and I know every single last one of your secrets so do me and my kitten a favor and don't ever bother her unless you will be destroyed. Oh and amber I know after this your father is going to jail so tell him farewell for me" I jump from the table and sit back down into my seat.

Amber runs from the table somewhere else as the whispers start to flood in.

"That nasty bitch" Brittany says with a look of disgust on her face.

"Oh and Brittany, don't even think about trying to have sex with autumn she's mine"

"We'll see about that" she smiles and continues to eat her food.

I laugh at her she's always been this way trying to get the best of the best. I consider Brittany as one of the guys because out of every girl I This school except for autumn she's cool.

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