It's been two weeks since the plane crash and as much as I want to cry out I can't. Areum keeps asking me about our parent's and I keep lying to the little kid every time. Worst- Jungkook comes home being completely drunk and keeps trying to screw with me. We were both sexually frustrated since it's almost been two year without having sex or any kind of make out. The last time we had sex was two days before our mother announced she was pregnant with Areum, and after that we had decided to stop having sex.

These nights Jungkook comes home drunk and when I ask him he tries to grab my ass or tries to touch me. As much as I'd want him to do it I keep pushing him away thinking about Areum. He's getting drunk to let out his anger and control the need to have sex, which completely makes me sick to the stomach.

Areum was fast asleep on my chest while we were watching SpongeBob. I heard the keys jingling and even after good five minutes nobody came in. I laid Areum on the couch and went out to get the door knowing it was Jungkook.

I opened the door, "Woow... Did you see that?" he giggles "I can do Magic..." He was drunk, more than the usual this time. "Get your ass in" I said and walked away to the couch.

I carried Areum to her room and laid her on her bed. "Good night baby. Sleep tight." I kissed the top of her head and left her room.

The minute I left the room, I was pinned to the wall beside the door. Jungkook's breath started suffocating me due to the strong smell of alcohol.

"I can't do this anymore baby. I want you, I want to kiss you like I used to, and I want to hold you close to me. Please let me have you tonight." A low moan escaped my mouth as all this time his hand roamed all over my body, while the other had my arms pinned to the wall, paying the right amount of attention it deserved. I missed this; I missed this attention on my body that only he could give.

"Please baby..." he whispered and bit the soft skin on my ear. I placed my palms on his chest and tried to push him off me, "Jungkook we can't. Areum's sleeping and-" I was cut off when he moved and placed his lips so close but not touching mine yet. I gulped and moved my gaze back to his eyes.

He no more seemed drunk and I no more felt a suffocating feeling in my lungs. "Let's go to my room."

And, he didn't wait for my reply as he smashed his lips on mine. The kiss was rough yet passionate. His soft ones on mine felt like it was meant to be on each other. He licked my lower lip, asking for my permission; I didn't move my lips and denied his request. He slapped my ass cheek gaining a gasp from my side, of which he took the time to force his tongue into my mouth. At this point I was kissing him back too, my hands tangled in his dark locks.

In no time we were inside his room.

"J-Jungkook" I called him in between my heavy breathe. "Hmm..." He just hummed in response. I took my hands off him and cupped his face bringing them close to mine. "Promise me you'd stop getting wasted. Promise me you won't come home drunk ever again. Promise me this will never happen again."

He looked at me with hurtful eyes and simply nodded. I smiled softly at him and kissed him ever so lovingly. He kissed me back with the same love and held me closer. "I love you Ji." He said and started taking my clothes off my body. He placed me on the bed while I was still in my under garments when he started stripping too.

He leaned back on me and kissed me, grinding his hard member on me. I had turned into a moaning mess while Jungkook took all the time to mark my body, kiss it and caress them.

He unclipped my bra and threw them somewhere, he touched the ink that I had on the rib below my breast, of his name; 'JK'. He went down and kissed it and sucked it.

He pushed my underwear to the side started rubbing my swollen nub. I arched my back at the feeling of his cold fingers on my core and moaned when he inserted his finger in. He was teasing me while doing it ever so slowly, driving me crazy as I squirmed in his hold.

"J-Jungkook..." I moaned, pulling him close to me. "Yes baby?" I could tell he smirked on my skin even though I had my eyes shut tightly. "I want you... ah..." he fastened his pace while his thumb started rubbing my swollen clit.

"What's the secret word baby girl?" he whispered on my lip and pecked them. I opened my eyes only to be met with his beautiful ones. "I want you, please... Ah...ah..." I shut my eyes tightly again as he curled his fingers inside of me. He kissed me, "Open your eyes baby" he said while taking his fingers out. When I opened them, I was met with Jungkook licking his fingers clean. A blush crept its way on my cheeks.

He slowly pulled my soaked panties and threw them, while I pulled his boxers down. He was huge, not that I didn't know but I was sure, I was going to be in pain due to the long time duration since we last had sex.

"I'll go slow on you baby. I know it's been really long" He kissed me and placed his tip at my entrance. I arched my back at the sensation and pulled him closer to me. He slowly entered; Jungkook kissed me again making me forget about the incoming pain. When he was completely inside, he stayed there until I adjusted to his hard member. "You can move"

He pecked me and started moving in and out of me. His pace was slow but it reached the right places. "Faster Kook" I moaned into his neck, "As you wish princess" he said and started moving faster.

Time passed and we were both a moaning mess. I had already had my orgasm bursting once but Jungkook had no plans to stop what we were doing tonight. His pace was animalistic, his hands massaging and pinching my breasts, his hair stuck on his forehead as beads of sweat kept trailing down our bodies.

After one last hard thrust Jungkook pulled out and came all over my stomach. He collapsed beside me, both of us panting and gasping for air.

Jungkook leaned on my side and placed the hair that covered my face, behind my ear. He caressed my cheek and kissed me one last time. "I love you baby" he said and pulled me close to him. "I love you too Kook" he smiled and kissed my forehead and pulled the cover over our sweaty bodies.

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I woke up early due to Jungkook's snores. I stretched my legs and winced at the pain in between my legs.

"Hey, your ass is rubbing against my dick right now. So, can you stop? Or else we can have another round you know" I was startled by his hoarse voice. A light dusting of pink crept on my cheeks out of embarrassment. Then it all hit me when Areum's cries filled the house; we shouldn't have done this.

I quickly got up from the bed ignoring the terrible pain down there, grabbed Jungkook's shirt that lay just by the bedside and pulled my hair in a messy bun and ran out to my room.

While Areum and I were having breakfast, Jungkook stepped down with a suitcase and his douche bag. I didn't bother to look up at him, "I'm going to Busan. I'll pay you guys a frequent visit and send some money too."

"Kookie..." Areum whined and started crying. He hugged her kissed her, "I'll come back my baby" he looked up at me and I quickly avoided his gaze. "I'm sorry"was what he said and he left. The tears that were threatening to fall finally came down. I picked Areum and rocked her back and forth; she fell asleep after a while.

We should never have done that,

He would never have left if I had pushed him off,

He was drunk and I was not; I still took advantage of him,

I'm such a bad sister,

How am I even supposed to face him anymore?

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