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"Y/N..."

you went numb in your spot, your eyes not leaving hoseok's. the only difference was that yours were filled with tears while hoseok's with anger as well.

"Y/N..." Hoseok spoke your name again as he stepped ahead.

Taehyung on the other side was just analyzing his each step not wanting to get involve until you were in problem. Mind of a fox.

"Y/N..." He mumbled again.

"Hoseok you are not thinking-"

"You did it" hoseok said the exact words you feared he will.

Everyone gasped but nobody noticed how yoongi closed his eyes clenching his teeth together as his palm digged into the bed sheets preventing tears to fall.

"Hoseok?" You called his name with a whisper not believing he said what he said.

"You fucking did it" Hoseok mumbled but enough loud for you to hear.

"W-what?"

"YOU FUCKING TRIED TO KILL HIM!" hoseok stood in front of you, grabbing you by the shoulders to shake you in your place harshly.

This was the cue for Taehyung to intrude in.

"get your hands off her!" Taehyung shoved hoseok, making him stumble backwards.

Hoseok wiped his tears but the anger visible as red eyes didn't leave your figure.

"Why? Why did you do it?"thr enraged male asked with a low tone. all of this gave you deja vu– of that day.

that day when everyone stared at you with eyes full of judgements, disgust and prejudices as if you killed him, killed someone who tried to rape you. the only difference between this two times are that earlier they only eyed you disgustingly while now someone finally accused you.

Was it really your fault?

"She didn't do anything hoseok. don't blame her" taehyung glared, holding you close to him.

"before her, I went in the kitchen. it was me and I thoroughly checked the entire kitchen, it was all fucking fine back then, but then when she last went in, this disaster happened, why?!" hoseok yelled, pointing his finger at you.

staring at the pointing finger towards you; panged your heart badly. it made you question yourself,

Was it really your fault?

"I didn't do it..." you spoke finally, looking at him with tears streaming down your eyes.

"can you prove it? I trusted you y/n. even after your boyfriend made a fucking mess in my cafe, I still trusted you to bring the cake! I thought of you as my closest friend... where did I go wrong?!" without hesitation he spat all the bitter words at you.

even if it didn't make sense to him, why would you do such thing. he really had no clue but seeing yoongi laying on the bed with several injures, an almost flesh seen through hand; the man who he loves coming out of the death hole– he had completely lost his mind.

You stood there in Taehyung's arms. in that sheer moment you thought everyone was against you.

for a few seconds your eyes roamed around the room noticing everyone's eyes judging you with a pity look on their face. Not a single person seeing you like it's not your fault,

except Taehyung.

your lips parted a little from realizing that how everything was happening just like before. when heechan died and everyone suspected you even though you were the victim.

Just.

The.

Same.

so was it really your fault? You asked yourself and the answer you got was...

"the fuck is wrong with you? just because she was the last person to go in there doesn't mean she did this! are you out of your mind?!" Taehyung protested while holding you firmly against his body as if you're the most precious thing to him. maybe you really are. from all this mess the one thing you can conclude is,

Only he cares for you.

Only he loves you.

That's what you see.

And that's what he you to see.

"I'm calling the police." Hoseok said and you slowly looked at him.

Your blinked at him with the look that screamed... 'Do you really think I did this?'

in return the male turned away from you, tears damping his cheeks. he for sure didn't think it was you, yet a big part of him agreed that maybe it was really... you.

when hoseok faced the injured man who stared back at him, he felt what he was doing nothing near wrong. yoongi's hurtful gaze did make him feel that you were behind everything.

and if he thinks rationally, perhaps it really is you. after all the last person who went in were you and after that yoongi went in. so there's no way the gas cylinder was unplugged itself– unless someone deliberately did this.

"But why would I do something like this?" you choked on your words.

"Then why when you entered the kitchen, you didn't tell us anything? You didn't smell anything??!" Hoseok's question made you speechless.

You did smell gas but ignored it.

why? why did I not tell anyone? why I ignored it? yoongi could have died because of me... you thought to yourself.

In the end, it was really your fault.

"You have any fucking answers?!" Hoseok spat at you those words like venom.

"I... I d-didn't... I... I-" you stood there, gazing at the floor.

It wasn't you who unplugged the cylinder but your silence worsened it a lot.

"You know what? I knew from my heart it wasn't you... But now seeing you not giving an answer clears it all." Hoseok wiped off his tears while looking at you like someone who looks at a criminal.

"Was it really my fault?" you mumbled with a monotone and felt taehyung pushing your body more against his.

"You didn't. You fucking didn't do it." Taehyung whispered but enough loud for you to hear.

"What's happening here?" The doctor entered the room hearing loud voices.

"Please leave. All of you, the patient is still in a critical condition." The doctor added while checking the monitor and yoongi.

"Let me stay doctor..." Hoseok said with a desperate tone. He can't really leave his love of life like this. What if something happens again?

"For now I can't allow. The patient needs space."

And with that everyone left the room while hoseok firmly grabbed yoongi's hand.

"I'll be back and no one can hurt you, not anymore" hoseok said as he pecked the sleeping boy's forehead.

Hoseok left the room and yoongi slowly opened his eyes, looking at the closed door before a tear escaped his eye.

"I'm sorry Y/N..."

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"Y/N... We know you didn't do this... Don't worry" Jimin said while patting your shoulders.

"Do you?" You asked instead making the said boy to look away.

Jimin really didn't think it was you. but there was this uncertainty.

"I do... Y/N. We all do" jimin glanced at the people around him but they only either stayed mum, looked away or walked out.

"You don't... Don't lie" you faced the floor.

"Jimin, just leave her alone. She doesn't need your sympathy" Taehyung came back with a water bottle in his hand before he sat beside you.

"I do trust her Taehyung. It's just... Just complicated right now..." Jimin sighed, massaging his temple.

The hall remained silent. You looked at hoseok who was just standing in front of the normal room they shifted yoongi to, with his eyes gazing inside at the sleeping man.

You don't know why but you stood up and walked towards him. Taehyung didn't want you to get hurt again but thought to refrain himself from stopping you.

"Hoseok" you called out his name with nervousness. Hearing his name he looked at you then inside.

"What do you want now?"

"I really didn't do it."

"I know." His answer snapped your eyes at him.

"What?"

"I know you didn't do it, that's what my heart says to me but this mind... It refuses to believe that. It says you did it." his vague answer left you in guilt.

"You know Hoseok? At first I didn't want to believe I did this. But now I blame myself" the aforementioned male looked at you, dumbfounded.

"Even if I didn't unplug the cylinder, believe it or not. But I should have told you guys I smelled something. being oblivious to it was my biggest mistake." Hoseok stood silent, still looking inside.

"Yeah... It was really your fault Y/N. If you told us back then... then maybe we could have gotten the fingerprint on the pipe to know who did it and most importantly yoongi would have been celebrating his birthday with us right now" hoseok said and looked at you with a hurtful expression on his face.

You fell into deep slumber of thoughts as tears escaped your eyes but you didn't wipe them off.

Was it my fault?

Did I do all these to Yoongi?

If I did tell them back then...

Would things be different right now?

If I told them back then... Yoongi would've been celebrating his birthday with a smile on his face not blood on his face right?

I did all these.

I tried to kill yoongi...

Didn't I?

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