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Exhausted.

From all the work Y/N, Hoseok and Yoongi did. They were Exhausted. Today the cafe was full. A typical Sunday. Serving and taking orders, everything in total made Y/N to whine and stretch her arm in exhaustion and tiredness.

"Today was such a busy day. Didn't imagine these people will even come at night when we are closed. Sunday is the worst for people like us!" Yoongi says as he stretches his arms and yawns already feeling the urge to sleep.

"You're saying like you're doing this for money Yoongs" Hoseok exclaims in a mockery tone earning a slap from Yoongi.

"Shut up hobi" Yoongi says making you laugh.

"Wait... If money isn't the reason then why are you working here?" You ask and Yoongi clears his throat grabbing his coat to leave already.

"Bye guys, see you tommorow" he replied promptly as he waved a small bye while avoiding eye contact.

"He literally avoided my question, why though?"

"I don't know. Yoongi isn't broke or anything to do this job. He's actually pretty rich. And when he came here at first he was literally wearing a Gucci shirt and had a Louis Vuitton bag! And he told me that he needed money so he wanted to work. I mean why did he played to act poor with his expensive things? Do I look blind to him? But I didn't ask about that knowing it's not professional"

"no offense but when are you professional with us hobi?" you teased making him grin.

"I know. But still... I really don't know the reason. But before he started working here he used to come here everyday to order a simple cappuccino and spend hours here. This is so dense man. Me can't take it" Hoseok laughs and rubs his forehead from all the theories he had in his mind.

"i guess so. well let's not judge what he does, it's his life" hoseok nodded at that before questioning you.

"What bout you Y/N? Why did you choose to work here? Do you have money crisis?" Hoseok inquired, you sat froze on your chair, not stretching your arms anymore.

"uhh I'm on a break from my office, so I thought I would spend my break time doing something productive"

"oh I see. well if you ask me, I wouldn't waste my break time like this! like c'mon, you should enjoy the vacation– not waste it by doing silly part time jobs!"you couldn't agree with him, after all the male didn't know what you were going through.

He didn't know the truth. How hard it is for you to spend time alone in your house, not having any kind of distraction. Thinking about that scene again and again. Blood and blood, everywhere.

It sickened you to your bones.

"I'm weird I guess haha. Anyway I'll take leave Hoseok. See you tomorrow, bye!" You bid him as you pulled the door feeling the cold air of outside hitting your face.

it was already spring but the cold air felt like it was still winter. walking through the windy environment your mind absently clouded with the recent events occurring in your life. a weary sigh left your trembling lips as tears rejoined in your eyes and a drop unknowingly rolled down your cheeks, however you didn't wipe it– you didn't have the strength to do that nor the will.

Things were very hard for you, yet you smiled and acted like nothing ever happened. Being strong was tough but this time it was too much. You wanted to share your problems. With Taehyung or anyone. But again you didn't want to trouble anyone. Being a burden is the last thing you would want.

Heechan. His face still clear in your mind. Those nightmares of him won't stop scaring you at nights. It was like he was always there with you. It scared you. He was your colleague. What did go wrong to happen something like this? What was your fault?

Jungkook. He met with an accident. And the reason? The culprit of your case. So who's fault? Yours.

It made you so guilty to trouble someone as good as him. He was even willing to continue this case risking his life. What did you do to deserve his help? Nothing. And in return you requested him to continue the case. What had gotten to you? Why were you playing with someone's life? You always had these questions built up in your mind. Clouding them up to a slump of problems.

Tears fell and fell and soon you were crying out your eyes while covering your mouth to not let know anyone passing by that you're crying. Even though it was a little noticeable with your teary eyes. You didn't care the few peoples who were passing by at this late hour. You didn't want to care anymore. A normal life of yours had changed so drastically and fastly that it didn't even take time to adjust in your mind. At the end of the day, you wanted it to be a mare nightmare from which you will wake up. But the dream never ends.

Will it even end?

You had no idea.

Walking and walking. Nobody cared your terrible state. Nobody cared you being so vulnerable. Even your office colleagues didn't care. It made you break down more thinking it was your fault to be so weak and let your guard off. But that's how you were born. How can you change your nature? How?

You had cried enough. And with each of your step you only sobbed. Already wanting to run and hide away from the world. To reach your home where you can be alone and be as weak as you want.

a tear again escaped your eye and this time you wanted to wipe it off, however someone else did that for you.

"You're so strong Y/N, you know that?"

You lifted your head to see the person who had just wipe off your tear with a slight smile on his face. You didn't expect him. Not at when you were trying your best to not break down.

but that's the exact thing you did. with a sob you let all the tears fall once again. he pulled you close and held you against his chest while his big arm went to your back, patting it to make you feel at ease.

"it's okay. No one's watching. Let all tears come out."

"I-I'm so s-sorry Jungkook... Your accident... Heechan's death... I didn't do it... I'm sorry" you clenched your hands which were around his waist pulling the coat to clench too.

"That's not your fault Y/N, it was fate. The very fate which made me to hold you this time. trust me" he said as he caresses your back affectionately.

you said nothing and just cried. he stood there, still hugging you. feeling the warmth radiating from your body he noticed how pale you looked, he noticed how you always tried to hide your misery with a forced smile, he noticed how you wanted to run away from all this mess– he noticed everything.

But only you didn't notice in his embrace– his heartbeat increasing as each second passed.

Only you didn't notice the feelings of him glimpsing through his eyes.

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