I just threw up. Again. It's been 5 weeks since Vinnie and I have had sex. I'm hiding in Kayla's bathroom because I don't want anyone to hear.

I can't be pregnant. Vinnie pulled out. Right? He had too. I quickly text him. It'll be a while for him to respond because he's in California. I don't want to pregnant. I'm only 20! And I don't want to disappoint my family. Any period is late. But what would my family think. Pregnant before I'm married? Pregnant before I'm done with school? Pregnant by a white boy? No. It just can't be true. My parents would be so angry at me.

I have to sneak away. I tell Kayla that I need to get something from the pharmacy. I pull on a hoodie to hide my face. I bring some money with me so I don't need to use my credit card. When I get to the pharmacy, the paparazzi are there. Fuck. I quickly run inside and buy 5 pregnancy tests. I hide them in my pocket. I pull off my hoodie, and try to escape the pap. Of course they catch me.

"Ansh! What're you buying?" I roll my eyes and walk past them. They try to block me but I tell them to move. I'm really frustrated. Tears are rolling down my face.

"Just answer the question."

That's when I lose my cool. "You paparazzi don't know when to stop. I'm frustrated right now. Just leave me alone. Can't you fucking tell when someone doesn't want to have a conversation? You fucking annoying dunces. Go away." I walk off and hear murmurs.

I go into the bathroom and take a test. Outside my friends see me crying and comfort me.

"Ansh, are you okay?" Asks Jessa.

"No. I might be pregnant," they gasp so I make a joke out of it, "Vinnie fucked me too hard." They laugh, but nervously.

"If you are pregnant Ansh, just know that we don't judge you. We support and love you with whatever you do," says Kayla.

"Thank you guys. I love you guys too." We hug and my phone starts to blow up.

It's Vinnie.

He says "babe i did pull out, what is happening?"

"ansh?"

I say, "i don't even know. i got a few tests, but i'm scared. i'll update you, okay?"

"okay babe. i love you regardless."

After a while I go to check the tests. Negative. All are negative. I scream in excitement.

"GUYS. IM NOT PREGNANT!" They say "YAY" and I text Vinnie the exciting news.

"oh thank god. ik im 24 but i'm too young to have kids." I giggle and say that I love him. I'm just happy that I'm not pregnant.