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ever since gus and jayden (gus's 'friend') started hanging out more, gus has became different

his personality changed, the way he looked at the world was different, he talked differently.

"gus baby? can you come here?" i said calmly standing up

vinnie was sitting across from me

gus walked down the stairs in a black hoodie with black jeans and a pink and purple lighter in his hand

"yes mama?" he said "come here" i said sitting down, gus and and sat down next to me

"is everything ok? you've been acting a little different." i said calmly

he looked down and put his hood up "yes mama, i'm fine." he said still looking down

"gussy i know something is wron-" i said but got cut off by vinnie

"ok, Gus are you using drugs?" he asked gus

" you think that low of me?" gus said back looking up, standing up taking his hood off and putting his lighter in his pocket

"gus you know i don't think that of yo-" vinnie tried to say but gus caught him off

"you know, mom would never think of me like that. but you do because i didn't do the stupid ass sport you wanted me to do." gus said back getting mad

"calm down gus." i said trying to calm gus down

"gus! just answer the question. do you do drugs!?"vinnie asked getting frustrated

"YOUR THE REASON I DO THEM! I HATE YOU WITH EVERYTHING INSIDE MY BODY!" gus yelled walking out the house

"i told you not to get mad. gus gets mad when you get mad." i said to vinnie

"my son hates me. h-h hates me." vinnie said as tears streamed down his face

i pulled vinnie into a hug "i-i'm the reason he does drugs." vinnie said crying

"he doesn't hate you,and gus is very angry with what you asked him. he probably said it out of anger." i said calming down vinnie

*time skip🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️*

i didn't mean anything i said to my dad. when he asked me if i do drugs. i got angry because they know.

i didn't want to do them but i started doing them and i can't stop.

it was now 2am and i left as like 11pm, i walked to jordan's house. he lives with a lot of people but their all my dads friends

i got a tattoo when i left so.... jayden did it. it has my mom and dads name with my grandpa's birthday.

*knock knock* troy and J opened the door

"why are you- GUS what the hell are you doing here at like 2 in the morning!?" they yelled which made everyone looked back

"well can i come in?" i asked, they let me in "gus? why are you here? did you run away again? why the FUCK DO YOU HAVE A TATTOO!? on your FUCKING arm!?" jordan asked while everyone stood up and i sat down on their couch

"haha, it's a lot to explain." i awkwardly laughed

"well explain." jordan said as some of them kept standing and some sat on the floor or sat on a chair

"it's a funny story actually! first it started with my dad asking if i do drugs and i got mad, so i yelled at him and i said i do drugs because of him and i hate him, but it was out of anger. so left my house and went to jayden's got high, got a tattoo with my mom and dads name with my grandpa's birthday. then i walked here, so here i am at your house." i explained to them

"hold up let me get this straight, you do drugs?" J asked, i nodded

"i'm calling your parents gus." jordan said getting his phone out of his pocket

"what the fuck!? no!" i said getting up to leave

"Gus! sit back down! this is not going to be like last time. sit down!" jordan said to me

" i'll sit outside." i said jordan nodded

i knew he was talking to my dad and i was still angry at my dad, myself and jordan for yelling at me so i said

"FUCK YOU DAD. YOU CANT CHANGE WHO I AM. FUCK YOU AND YOUR BASEBALL!!" i yelled making everybody shocked by my words

"GUS! GO SIT IN THE BACKYARD!" jordan yelled, i rolled my eyes and walked to the backyard and sat down.

Mochi came running to me, i played with him

i heard everyone come outside, i pulled out one of my lighters out of my pocket and stood up playing with it.

i was pacing back and fourth thinking about everything i did.

i heard my mom say something to everyone

then she came over to me "hi baby." she said, i sat down and started crying.

my mom hugged me "i like your tattoo gussy." she said, i looked up seeing everyone standing infront on us

"you have my name tattooed on your arm? you know that's permanent right?" my dad asked me, i nodded

"well gussy, umm i have to ask a question... how long h-have you been doing drugs?" she asked me crying

"idk when i first started but probably when i was 13, so for almost 4 years." i said wiping my moms tears

"and gussy can you explain why you do them?" she asked

"idk, at first started doing them because i thought i wasn't good enough for dad, then i started doing them to pass the time of living." i said to everyone

my mom touched my hand and said "gus explain by what you mean 'to pass the time of living'"

"it's easy, i don't want to be alive." i said exactly what she was thinking

my mom nodded crying "i understand." she stood up and my dad taking her place

"gus, one. you d-" he tried to say but i cut him off crying

" i-i'm really s-sorry! i-i don't h-hate you! and i'm r-really sorry for telling y-you your the reason i-i do d-drugs!" i said crying and i fell into my dads arms causing him to hug me

"gus you are good enough and you always will be. i don't care if you don't play baseball, all i care about is that your safe." he said

i nodded my head "gus you have to promise everyone something. that you will try and stop doing drugs." my mom said

"yes mama i promise i will stop doing drugs." i said back

"gus.." jordan said holding his hand out "what?" i said back "lighters."

i shook my head "it's fine, he promised." my mom said making jordan nod his head and pulling his hand back

"we love you gus." j said to me, making everyone nod

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i needed to post, sorry it's bad

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