One month

Two Months

Three Months

Four...

supposedly five

Today is a recollection of the day I first called you mine

But now I'm not sure

I'm not sure that I'm yours

I want to tell you "Happy 5 months" Like I once did

But of course,

I'm no longer yours

No one to spend this day with

No one to call mine

No more hands intertwined

No more saying the three words that gave each of us butterflies

You're no longer mine

The months mean nothing to others

To me they meant something

One month

Two months

Three months

Four...

Never five

Never 5 because the promise I made was never kept

The only thing kept was regrets

Regrets because I left

Knowing it hurt, I ran

Ran from my problems and worries

All I ran to was pain and suffering

Because without you, my heart hurt

You were the bandaid I needed

But I ripped it off

And regrets were made

Because the injury to my heart did not heal

It only worsened day by day

Acceptance hit

But I still loved you

Why won't this feeling go away

I see now

I see that I've kept a promise

The promise I made to you

The promise to love you forever

Because my feelings will not fade

Nor will they budge

You hold it

The key to my being

One month

Two months

Three months

Four months

Supposedly five

Happy no longer

Happy no more

Happy what would've been 5 months

~RJ 10/16/22~