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Looking around the Skyline of Coruscant hat its perks. I was able to forgot about what bothered me nearly every time.

Then suddenly I looked at the Jedi Temple and all my troubles came falling back into my mind. Anakin. Anakin and I have been friends for ages. Since he got here and the rough age of 9. He would come over to me and tell me about his nightmares, his fears and wishes. I would listen. Everytime.

Over the time my feelings for him deepened. I knew I was falling for him really bad but he was a Jedi. They were forbidden to have any kind of attachment and I didn't want him to give up his dreams. At least thats what I told myself as I didn't even confessed those feelings to him, yet.

Now that my concentration was gone I walked to one end of my office to the other. From one shelf to desk. Soon I didn't even have something to walk to anymore and so I just walked circles in the middle of my room, trying to get Anakin out of my mind. At the end none of these things helped and he stayed on my mind the whole time.

Even if I confessed my feelings to him, he could just say he didn't return them and our friendship would fall apart. I, for sure, couldnt handle that.

A few minutes of thinking about him I heard a knock on the door of my office.

"The door is open." I loudly spoke so the person could hear me. As the the door was pushed open, it revealed Padmé.

"Oh hi nice to see you. Did I forgot a meeting or something?" I asked still a little in the thoughts of Anakin. "Am I not allowed to check on my oldest friend?" She sarcastically asked giggling.

"Of course you are." I said looking at Padmé. "Its just unexpected since I thought you had meetings today." I told her.

"I had them earlier this morning because the Jedi who are involved, with the discussed topics, have to go on a mission this evening. I think they said something about Geonosis if I remember it rightly." She explained and I listend even more after the word "Jedi" has been said. "Master Obi-Wan and Anakin will lead the mission."

My thoughts drifted away again and I not longer looked at Padmé, which she, of course, noticed.

"Whats wrong, y/n?" She wanted to know. "Nothing. Everything is fine." I lied with a fake smile on my lips. "No its not. Dont try lying to me, y/n. We've been friends since we could talk, so don't you think you could fool me. So now please tell me whats up with you." She demanded and I let out a loud sigh of defeat.

I walked over to my desk and sat down on one edge, still touching the ground with my feet, crossing my arms. She walked up to me and sat down next to me and I could feel her stare on me.

"It's... its because of...its because of Anakin..." I told her feeling a little embarrassed to say it out loud. I closed my eyes and waited for any kind of comment like 'you know thats not right' or 'oh I'm so sorry' but it never came. She sighed and I decided to just blurt out what I wanted go say out loud for the longest time. Instead I received what I would never have expected.

"I know it sounds crazy and I know that shouldn't but Anakin it's ugh I can't help it. I lo-" i started but was cut off. "love him. I know. I've known since the moment you first talked to me about him. Maybe even before you knew. I thought he hurt you or something." She told me giving me a side hug and sighing again but this time only slightly.

"Does he know?" Padmé asked after a short break of silence. "No. I don't think so." I said and looked at her again. "You have to tell him, y/n. Before its too late." She said and I furrowed my eyebrows. "Why would it be too late?" I was the one asking this time. "Because he will be away for a longer period of time and I don't want to be pessimistic or scare you but the job of a Jedi isn't the safest. Especially in these times of war." She told me giving me a thoughtful and encouraging look. "Okay...i have to admit that you are right. I will tell him...later?" I said not being so sure anymore after I spoke it out loud. "No. Now." She said. "Now?" I asked shyly trying to act like she could change her mind even if I knew it wouldn't. "Now." She repeated herself and I sighed loudly and stud up from the edge of my desk walking to the door.

As my hand already found the way of the door's handle, I turned around again looking at my oldest friend, who still sat on the place we sat next to each other seconds ago. "How do you always get me to do something I didn't want to do?" I asked half joking. "I had enough opportunities to practice on you." She said "Besides its not that hard with you." She added and I let out a faked hurt breath. "Ouch" I acted like it hurt me and then we both laughed.

After a short while she went serious again. "Don't even try changing the subject and go tell your lover boy how you feel." She said and I rolled my eyes at the 'lover boy' comment and went trough the door, knowing that Padmé wouldnt even let me say another word.

As I walked trough the hallway of the huge Senator building I thought about how I was going to tell him. 'Oh hi Anakin, you know what? I love you' or 'funny to meet you here. Infront of the temple. By the way I like you more than just a friend.' Oh god that was going to be an experience. If Good or bad, I would have had to find out.

At least I already knew where to find him. He was preparing for a mission so I knew that he was in the Jedi Temple. I wasn't allowed to enter it but since him and I had been friends for little over a decade I knew he mostly went out of the main entrance, short after his noon training, to get some lunch. Thats where I was going to wait for him.

As I reached the end of the corridor I walked out of the door straight to one of the many hangers, where all of the senators speeders were parked. As I found mine I hopped in it and directly flew to the Jedi Temple.

The traffic was less than normal which I really appreciated since I already was in a very stressful situation and didn't need anything on top.

After a shorter time than normal I was at the Jedi temple, where I also parked my speeder.

I took a deep breath and got out of it, walking up to the main entrance waiting on the side of it. Of course with a distance, so no one would think it was weird. Even though, almost everyone I had known, knew about Anakin and I's friendship. I just hoped no one suspected something. Now I am already talking like we are in a relationship arghh

I waited for a few minutes till I saw someone with dark brown and black robes coming out. Even though I only saw the person from the distance, I knew that it was Anakin since he was the only one wearing those. No one beside him was there so it was the perfect chance.

I slowly walked up to him taking a few deep breaths as I felt my nervousness risen more than before. More than ever.

He was suddenly stopping and turning around as I was just a few feet away from him. My eyes widened shortly as I didn't expect the sudden turn.

"Why are you following me, y/n?" He asked and I didn't know what to say because of the real reason. Beside that I was really bad in lying.

"Oh eh I saw you but uh wasn't sure if you like to talk?" I lief and what came out of my mouth made absolutely no sense. He chuckled confused while looking at me.

"Y/n, we've been friends since a long time you can always come up to me and I know that you know that. So, what was the real reason?" He wanted to know while crossing his arms infront of his chest. The words he said on one hand gave me butterflies and on the other hand killed them one by one with little knives.

I let out a sigh not being so sure to say the real reason out loud infront of him. It could destroy everything or make everything even better. I was torn in between.

"I-...I wanted to say that I-..." i started but didn't finish as I took another deep breath. He gave me a curious look. I closed my eyes. "I like you more than just friends" I said so quickly that I wasn't sure if he understood but then as I opened my eyes I saw his shocked expression. His arms were again on each side of his body and his eyes were widened signaling that he was in a total state of shook. He didn't even need to say it out loud. I now knew that he didn't return my feelings.

I felt my eyes watering as I started nearly sprinting back to my speeder. After a few seconds I heard him running after me. I couldn't face him. I would have hurt to much. While running it started slightly raining but luckily I just got a little on my clothes.

As I reached my speeder I automatically started it within a few seconds and before Anakin could reach me I was in the air flying to my apartment. I could hear him curse down below as he ran somewhere else. I flew so fast that I reached my apartment after just a few minutes.

I lived in a penthouse apartment in the middle of Coruscant and also in one of the highest buildings. I loved living there. I got the apartment as I was chosen the be one of the highest senators of Coruscant. I was flattered as I got elected and also proud of myself.

As I reached the hanger of my apartment I jumped out of my speeder. I opened the door that stopped the connection between my apartment and the hanger and locked it behind me. Again I almost ran towards my bed, jumping on it. I smashed my head into a huge pillow and cried there for what felt like eternity.

Then suddenly I heard another speeder landing on the hanger of my Penthouse. Then a knock on the door. I didn't know who it could be. I stud up from my bed not really wanting to face someone now as I looked like a total mess.

I walked to the door wiping the tears out of my eyes even though everyone could easily see that I had been crying.

I opened the door which revealed a totally wet Anakin. It must have started raining real bad when I was in my room. His hair dripped from all of the water and a puddle was already forming under him.

"Ani?" I asked confused. "Why'd you run away?" He wanted to know sounding a bit hurt. "You didn't say anything so I figured you don't like me the same way as I like you. You don't have to say anything I-" I wanted to add something but I felt Anakin grab my face with his real hand and smash his lips onto mine. His robotic hand found its way to my waist bringing me closer to him.

I melted into the kiss I dreamed of but thought would never come true.

As we separated again we smiled at each other. "I don't just like you y/n. I love you. I habe loved you since the day I first met you but never thought you might return my feelings. As you told me earlier I was shocked because suddenly out of nowhere all of my dreams have come true and I didn't know how to handle it." He confessed and he kissed me again. I ran my hand trough his wet hair. It felt exactly like I had imagined. Maybe even better.

The moment got interrupted by Anakin's comlink beeping. He gave me an apologetic look but didn't remove his robotic hand from my waist.

"Anakin. Here is Obi-Wan. We have to go to the mission earlier. Please return to the temple as soon as possible. I will wait there for you." Obi-Wan said. "I will be there in no time." Anakin told him and again shut the comlink. He let out a sigh.

"I'm sorry y/n but I have to go. I don't know how long this mission will take but I promise as soon as I'm back, the first thing i'll do it to come to you. Maybe we can also talk through a hologram sometime" He told me and I smiled at him. "I would love to, Ani." I told him. He gave me a quick kiss and got into his speeder again to fly to his mission.

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I hope you liked this imagine. This was an imagine which was kinda easy for me to write and I don't know why haha

Also a huge thank you to @AllisonTart for the detailed request.

See you on the next imagine! ;)